I never thought I’d have to include a trigger warning in any of my posts especially being a ttm I guess you get a false sense of security. Last Tuesday I had my anatomy scan and everything looked great Thursday I had my regular ob appt and we listened to his hr which was great and scheduled my c section.
On Thursday I had noticed some thick white dc but chalked it up to one of the many perks of being pregnant. Friday morning I woke up and had to change as I felt like I had peed myself, but still didn’t think too much of it. Later that morning as my husband and I both had the day off we were in Target and I went to the rest room and felt as if I had lost some of my mucus plug. I called my ob and he instructed me to go up to L&D. They confirmed it was amniotic fluid and that my bag had ruptured and they sent me home on bed rest with instructions to follow up with MFM on Monday morning. Shortly after getting home I lost the rest of my plug and spiked a fever. We went back into L&D they did an ultrasound that showed I had barely any fluid. They pretty much insisted on an induction as my blood count was rising. At the last minute I refused the pitocin as I could still feel my LO moving around and he had a strong heart rate. I just couldn’t deliver him knowing that they would do nothing to help him since I was only 19w2d. We decided we’d redraw my blood in the morning and go from there. By morning my blood count had gone up and his heartbeat had stopped. I was sent into Boston via ambulance to be at a more equipped hospital to decide what to do next. They assured me that even though I’ve had two previous sections an induction would be safe. I started the induction process and with in an hour the contractions were so hard and painful with maybe 20 seconds in between that I asked for an epidural 40 minutes later my beautiful baby boy looking equally like his brother and sister was born sleeping. This is the absolute hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and I truly never understood what this was like until it happened to me.
I want to thank you ladies for being such a great group to be apart of. I never felt intimidated to join in to any of the discussions even if all I did most of the time was read them. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers as this has brought into prospective what a truly delicate time these 9 months are. Wishing you all a happy & healthy pregnancy.
I'm so very sorry for your loss. I wish I had more words to say that conveyed how I feel, so I'll just end this with sending all the hugs and positive thoughts to you and your family.
@troystory17 my heart is absolutely breaking for you. I am so very sorry for you loss. I wish there were some way to make it all better. Please reach out if there's anything you need. Sending so much love to you and your family
BFP 3/21/2020! OMG We're having TWINS! 4/17/2020 -------------------------------- LO arrived 11/9/2018! We have a baby! -------------------------------- Me: 33 | DH: 41 Married: March 2016 TTC #1/IUD out January 2017 PCOS dx January 2018 Medicated cycle 2.5mg Letrozole CD3-7 February 2018 BFP 3/10/2018! -------------------------------
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Oh, sweetie, I'm so very sorry. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. Please reach out if you need us. I'm thinking and praying for you and your family. ((Hugs))
@troystory17 there are no words to describe what you must be going through. I am so incredibly sorry. Sending all of my prayers and thoughts to you and your family.
My hear is breaking for you andand your family. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I hope you find comfort in the fact that your little boy only knew love from you. Praying for your family.
I'm so sorry, @troystory17. I'll be praying for you and your family. I wish there was something I could say that would make things better. Life is so incredibly unfair sometimes.
@troystory17 I am absolutely heartbroken for you. I have tears in my eyes after reading your story, and you will absolutely be in my thoughts. I'm terribly sorry you're having to experience this. Sending all my love.
I am so incredibly sorry that you had to go through that and all my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now. I can't even imagine what you are going through. Please feel free to reach out if you need anything at all
Me: 34 DH: 34 Married 10/28/17 Our TTC Journey
TTC #1 February '18 Team Green turned TeamBlue 10/15/18
TTC #2 January '21 BFP June '21 MMC/Blighted Ovum that led to D&C July '21 Jan '22 - started IF testing BFP Jan '22 MMC/Blighted Ovum that led to D&C Feb '22 BFP May '22
I am so incredibly sorry for what you're going through. There are no words that can make this any better, but know that my heart is broken thinking about what you and your family are experiencing. Sending all my love your way.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am heartbroken for you and your family. I wish there was something I could do or say to help ease your pain. You and your family will be in my thoughts.
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Me:35 DH:35 Dx: PCOS DS1 born 11/2014 DS2 born 11/2018 3 previous losses Rainbow babydue 12/2021 - Team Green
i am so so deeply full of sorrow for the loss of your precious little one. i am so sad for all that you had to experience these past painful days. my sincerest sympathy. you will be in my thoughts.
I am so incredibly sorry. My heart absolutely breaks and aches for you and what you've gone through. You and your family are in my prayers. Sending you love.
Oh no no no, I am so deeply sorry to hear this utterly devastating and heartbreaking news. I wish I knew the perfect words to say to make it all better, but I know there is nothing. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please remember that it's okay to be mad and sad and pissed off at the world. Feel whatever you need to feel and do whatever you need to do during this time. My heart goes out to you.
My heart aches for you and your family. I am so sorry you had to meet your sweet baby under such circumstances. I’ll be praying for your healing in all the ways there are.
I have no words... there is nothing I can say to bring you comfort other than I am so so sorry that you're going through this and that you lost your son. Please give yourself grace in the coming months as grief has no time limits, and your journey for healing will be on your own timeline. Please build your network support and keep them close So many hugs bring sent your way...
In tears reading this, I have no words. please take care of yourself and know that your baby boy only felt love from you! Please let us know if we can help at all
So sorry for your loss. It broke my heart to read this. Like many have said, no words I can say can bring you comfort right now. Hold your husband and children close. Rely on your friends and family. Take your time and heal in whichever way you see fit. I eill be thinking of you and your sweet family through this difficult time. Sending lots of love and support your way.
Thank you ladies so much for your kind words it means a lot. Our little ones always insisted on calling the baby Bob even before we knew he was a boy so that’s the middle name we have him.
Re: TW PPROM loss mentioned TW
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LO arrived 11/9/2018! We have a baby!
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Me: 33 | DH: 41
Married: March 2016
TTC #1/IUD out January 2017
PCOS dx January 2018
Medicated cycle 2.5mg Letrozole CD3-7 February 2018
BFP 3/10/2018!
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● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d
Married 10/28/17
Our TTC Journey
Team Green turned Team Blue 10/15/18
TTC #2 January '21
BFP June '21
MMC/Blighted Ovum that led to D&C July '21
Jan '22 - started IF testing
BFP Jan '22
MMC/Blighted Ovum that led to D&C Feb '22
BFP May '22
Dx: PCOS
DS1 born 11/2014
DS2 born 11/2018
3 previous losses
Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Tubal Reveral: 10/12
Ecoptic: 3/13 (Lost Right Tube, Left Tube Blocked)
IVF #1: 3/14 = BFN
IVF #2: 3/15 = BFN
IVF #3: 6/15 = BFN
FET#1: 11/17 = BFN
Endometrial Scratch: 2/18
FET #2: 3/18 = BFP!
Two Furbabies: Mika (american eskimo) and Gypsy (wire-haired terrier, dachshund mix)
Twins: Kaiden and Zara born 10/2018 conceived after 6 years of infertility via a medicated IUI