Any other newly clean/sober mamas? On Subutex (me) or methadone?

loochyloo · May 2018

Hey everyone... I'm hoping this is a safe place to post this and no one's too judgey. That doesn't help anyone! I was a full blown IV heroin addict up until finding out I was pregnant ( obviously unplanned) at 6 weeks. I went on methadone as advised at first, but didn't like what I was reading and wanted to switch to Subutex. I eventually did this myself as I was not offered any solution by my drs. I can gradually wean myself off the Subutex before the baby's born and not have to put my baby thru NAS (opiate withdrawal after birth). I am horrified that my baby have to suffer for my prior life choices. I finally feel like I'm getting the hang of day to day sobriety but man it's been rly hard.. especially w my partner still struggling a drug addiction. Anyone else experiencing anything remotely similar??? Overall I'm so excited for my real life to finally be starting. I never thought this is how I'd get clean but I'm so happy it happened. Don't be shy! Any other mamas in recovery?

rabtaido1214 · May 2018

@loochyloo Hopefully everyone will be very supportive. That sounds like an incredibly difficult journey and I’m sure each day is just as hard, but you’re doing the right thing and being a good momma. Sending lots of strength to you for your fight. Whether or not there is anyone else in recovery in the group, or ready to share, I hope you find lots of support here.

DunkinDecaf · May 2018

Hey! No similar experience to share but welcome, and congratulations on your sobriety!! I don’t even know you and I’m wicked proud of you. This is a wonderfully supportive community ❤️

HoosOnFirst · May 2018

Welcome to the board, I don’t have a similar experience but we have some family friends going through the same. I wish you strength and peace as you work your way through this. With a partner who maybe isn’t as far along as you are in recovery I am sure it will be hard. I hope you have some other family and friends besides him that you can lean on but you are always welcome to share here.

drurose · May 2018

I just want to stop in to offer support on your journey! No similar experiences for myself, but my boyfriend had addiction issues before I met him and I've heard how hard it can be! Sending much love your way.

cjx95 · May 2018

Welcome to the group! Congratulations on entering this new journey of your life!! I also don't have a similar experience but I'm glad to hear you feel you're doing well! I hope your partner finds the strength they need to join you in sobriety before baby come(:

knottieamusements · May 2018

Hello and welcome to the group! Congratulations on finding the motivation to get sober- it is the right choice for you amd your little one. I also don’t have any experience with this, but I agree with the others to make sure you have a strong support network as you go through this.

You are welcome to stick around here and get to know everybody. We are a friendly (if occasionally snarky) group, that comes from very diverse backgrounds.

nasalot188 · May 2018

Welcome to the group! I don't know you at all and I'll be the creepy internet person who says I'm so proud of you!! I don't have any experience with this and I can't imagine how difficult it must be. Just remember you are doing great, and you are most definitely making the right decisions for you and the baby. Make sure you surround yourself with a good support system who can help you through this. And as the others have said, feel free to join in on the discussions, we are here to support you

All the best xo

drb2424 · May 2018

Congrats on your sobriety. I do not have any personal experience but my brother struggles with addiction. I hope you have strength and lots of support during this journey. Feel free to reach out and post in this group. Wishing you all the best in your recovery.

chopchop25 · May 2018

Hi and welcome! I can’t share any advice but congratulations on making such a big step and already being such an awesome and concerned mama! Maybe a high risk doctor could have some insight? I love having my high risk on call for extra support and questions even though I don’t see her regularly.

britvahok · May 2018

Congrats on your sobriety and making the necessary steps to be healthy for you and your baby. I don't have any experience in this area but hope you can find a good local support group.

kiwi2628 · May 2018

Congrats on seeking help and being in recovery! It is amazing and I know how hard it is. I echo others when they say finding a strong support network of sober people is very important to help you stay on your path. I am gonna spoiler below about an old co-worker of mine that went through something similar.

I had a coworker that got into heroin. She was fired, but I stayed in touch with her because I cared about her. She and her boyfriend were 'functioning' heroin addicts...as much as there can be one. When she got pregnant, she got completely sober, but she did eventually have to break up with her boyfriend because he was struggling and he (obviously not on purpose, but because of his addiction) made it too hard and tempting for her. She had to surround herself with fully sober people and lost all of her old friends who did drugs. It is much harder to stay sober around people who don't, and I wanted to put that out there because I would hate for you to be dragged down by other people, be it friends or your boyfriend.

I wish you all the luck. Its hard work, but there are so many post-addiction success stories- you can do it!

purplegoldfish2 · May 2018

No personal experience, but congratulations! It’s a huge step!

I agree with @kiwi2628’s spoiler story. MH had a drug addiction before I met him. He said people tried to get him to quit, but until he wanted to, he didn’t. When he finally made the decision to, that’s when he quit and he stopped talking to any of his drug using friends so that he wouldn’t be tempted. He always tells people that they won’t convince anybody to quit - that the person has to decide on their own to quit. They need a reason why, but it has to be their reason, not somebody else’s reason that they should. I’m glad you found your reason and hope your boyfriend does too.

jennybean80 · May 2018

Welcome! I don’t have experience from the addiction side, but I have worked with a lot of women on Methadone or Suboxone as a L&D nurse. You’re doing a great thing for yourself and baby! Congratulations, and good luck in your journey!

Lisa3379 · May 2018

Welcome to the board, and yeah, super proud of you for becoming sober! I don’t have any experience with this, but I agree with the others that suggested finding a local support group. Also, I hope you stick around here, because this group has become a pretty supportive one as the weeks have gone on.

jynjer4 · May 2018

Welcome and congrats! I cleaned up (cocaine and pills) a little over a year ago and it was hard. I can’t imagine doing it pregnant...much respect to you! You’re putting your baby first so I have all the faith you’ll be an amazing Mom!! I haven’t been exactly in your spot but the advice I have helped me immensely and applies to anyone getting sober..find good people who will support you! You’ve got this mama! Please feel free to pm me anytime if you need someone. Stay strong

sammierose464 · May 2018

Welcome! I'm so happy to hear that you've been sober and working to do the best you can for your baby. I can't imagine how hard it is, but I know it's amazing that you're doing this for your baby.

Please stick around and lean on us. We will be right here to help support you through the tough times as much as we can.

zwink1 · May 2018

Welcome! I commend you on your positive steps to this point, and am sending you all of my support and encouragement to continue down this tough path. I do not have any personal experience with what you're going through, but I did work at a non-profit a number of years ago that specializes in in and out patient programs for pregnant women and mothers. I'm not sure where you live, but if you're close enough to a larger urban area, it would be great to look for a similar program in your area. You're facing a unique set of challenges on your path to recovery, but you also have one of the strongest motivations there is to keep going, and someone with experience dealing with those circumstances would probably be incredibly beneficial for you.

In any case, I hope you stick around for your pregnancy. This is a very diverse and supportive group!

cdepperschmidt · May 2018

Welcome! Congrats on your sobriety! I wonder if there are specialists in your area that can guide you through the process of recovery and pregnancy.

SweetSweetTooth · May 2018

Hugs to you for being so strong!! Agreed I don't know you and I am SO proud of you!

susuimali · May 2018

I have similar story. I was snorting dope n coke for years. I went to rehab this past November, got out, used the same day, overdosed n almost died. I had plans to reconcile with my husband across the country, I actually left the hospital in bad condition to catch my flight and 3 weeks later got pregnant, it's been a crazy ride. But I'm so happy. I'm totally clean n sober and I'm not taking anything to help, and I feel great. Lots of luck to you and know u are not alone. Congrats!

MissBridg · May 2018

Brava, momma! what an inspiring story of a mother's love. we are here for you!

momoflogan20 · May 2018

Good luck on your journey! I couldn't imagine how hard that would be. I quit cold turkey on my anxiety meds and the withdraws were bad from that so I can't even think about what your going through. Be strong, your baby needs you. Congrats on your little one!