2nd beta was 5. 3rd loss in 4 months. I feel so defeated right now.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN May 17: IUI #2 = BFN Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies) Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201 Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715
U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125! EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
@bakerstreetboys my doctor is supposed to call me today at some point and I'll see what she says, but I am most likely going to be making an RE appointment.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
coco2787 I'm so sorry. RPL is so cruel. I hope you can get in to see an RE and get RPL testing. Hopefully yours will actually show something and you can get it 'fixed' and get your rainbow!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
10 dpo, I've been isolating, not even wanting to be on here...I can't even believe I haven't peed on a single stick, until today. I wouldn't have probably gone to buy any either but I had to take my daughter to the clinic today. Used to work at this clinic so they are friends and know about the mc and post-partum crap I've been dealing with. Well, I went for it. Asked if I could poas....BFP! Except, I didn't feel elated....jeepers, what's wrong with me. My Dr's nurse just called now and said Congratulations, and I said I can't believe I'm not more excited. She assured me it was totally normal and called me in my progesterone rx of one tablet bid thru 12 weeks. Praying for a sticky, rainbow baby. For ALL OF us!
@rowedking6 congratulations and fx for you. I totally get the job excited part. After 3 MC I'm scared to death to see that bfp. Try to breathe and embrace the now. Today you are pregnant!
Congrats @rowedking6! Hopefully you're the beginning of a lot of positives this month!
AFM if anyone's keeping track..I did get that job and accepted. I'm hoping against hope that this can only mean now I'll definitely get that BFP and have to figure things out with a new position and mat leave, because that seems to be how life works! In the meantime the excitement and pride is almost keeping me sane this week.
Congrats @rowedking6!! That's fantastic news! Completely understand not being elated yet, I'm sure anyone in this part of the forum will be able to relate. Hoping this is it for you!
@kikimi83 Congrats on the promotion! I bet a new job means a bfp is just around the corner too!
12 DPO and temp drop today although I woke up at 4am and laid in bed for a while before I took temp so not sure how accurate but I’m pretty sure I will be out
6dpo and I have very, very little spotting. I know it probably doesn’t mean anything, but the only time ever I’ve previously had spotting at this point in my cycle was when I was pregnant. Either the universe has a cruel sense of humor, or this could be the start of something. Pretty sure it’s nothing, but I’m still going to drive myself crazy for the next week or so.
@Mack2342 Hopefully it's back up tomorrow morning @grebretso Fx for you! @rowedking6 Congratulations! Fx for a H&H 9 months. I totally get the lack of excitement at first. @kikimi83 Congrats on the new job! A sign of good things to come hopefully
I'm 9DPO and usually driving myself BSC symptom spotting by now. But there are no symptoms to obsess over. None. Hmm, maybe no symptoms is a symptom?! Sigh. Rolling my eyes at myself. I'l probably POAS tomorrow morning even though I expect a BFN. I wish loss didn't mess with my cycles so much. As least before them I was pretty regular and knew what to expect.
Ugh, @Mack2342... hopefully it will bounce back up?
@grebretso FK! I had some weird spotting for no reason for about two cycles after my MC I’d say... but implantation bleeding happens, too! I hope that’s it!
@Mack2432 my temp went back up today, and I swear I had a tiny bit of spotting yesterday. So obvs. Implantation and I'm totally preggers! Sigh, cue more bsc than i can handle right now! Fingers crossed you just tested to early! How many dpo are you?
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
@Mack2342 Sorry about the BFN. But, as we always say, it’s not over ‘til it’s over!
@grebretso SS is my Achilles heel - I’m always convincing myself that the smallest uterine twinge MUST have some significance.
@bakerstreetboys I am firmly in the BSC camp. We should have t-shirts. Did you POAS?
@dpjennifer How many dpo are you? FX the temp rise is a good sign! I decided not to temp this cycle, thinking it would relieve some stress: and instead I’m so frustrated not knowing what’s going on!
AFM, TW:
I POAS this morning and it was a BFP. I’m cautious of course, because I’m only 11dpo and with my previous losses I started spotting at 13-14dpo and then the heavy bleeding started a week or two later. Just went to the restroom and noticed some brown-tinged CM, so of course I’m freaked out. Beta is Friday, but I’ve been getting very faint positives for the last two days with today’s test being noticeably darker (but still light). I guess there’s nothing I can do but hope, pray and keep my fingers crossed. I wish things were simpler and I could just feel joy, instead of joy tainted by terror.
Sorry @Mack2342. I'm 11 dpo, so still fairly early.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@cassafrass15 We definitely share the same weakness! I like to think of myself as a fairly normal and rational person, but that all apparently goes straight out the window during TWW.
Congrats on the BFP!!! I’m so happy for you, I hope this is the beginning of a wonderful and uneventful 9 months!
Re: March TWW
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Well, I went for it. Asked if I could poas....BFP! Except, I didn't feel elated....jeepers, what's wrong with me. My Dr's nurse just called now and said Congratulations, and I said I can't believe I'm not more excited. She assured me it was totally normal and called me in my progesterone rx of one tablet bid thru 12 weeks. Praying for a sticky, rainbow baby. For ALL OF us!
AFM if anyone's keeping track..I did get that job and accepted.
@kikimi83 Congrats on the promotion! I bet a new job means a bfp is just around the corner too!
@kikimi83 Congrats on the new job! Hope this is the start of more exciting news for you.
AFM, 8dpo (10post-trigger) and just barely holding on to my sanity.
@grebretso FX it’s for good reason!
@grebretso Fx for you!
@rowedking6 Congratulations! Fx for a H&H 9 months. I totally get the lack of excitement at first.
@kikimi83 Congrats on the new job! A sign of good things to come hopefully
@grebretso FK! I had some weird spotting for no reason for about two cycles after my MC I’d say... but implantation bleeding happens, too! I hope that’s it!
cheap test is BFN I’m sure FRER probably won’t be any different tomorrow but I will feel better stopping progesterone if I take it
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@grebretso SS is my Achilles heel - I’m always convincing myself that the smallest uterine twinge MUST have some significance.
@bakerstreetboys I am firmly in the BSC camp. We should have t-shirts. Did you POAS?
@dpjennifer How many dpo are you? FX the temp rise is a good sign! I decided not to temp this cycle, thinking it would relieve some stress: and instead I’m so frustrated not knowing what’s going on!
AFM, TW:
I'm 11 dpo, so still fairly early.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Congrats on the BFP!!! I’m so happy for you, I hope this is the beginning of a wonderful and uneventful 9 months!
@dpjennifer hopefully that’s good sign for you!!!