This cycle marks the 24th cycle of failure to conceive. I cried for an hour. I have no sympathic ear, no one who understands what I am going through. Everyone I know is on their second child. And those who may have had trouble conceiving their first, have forgotten how hard it is for those of us left behind.
My husband daughter is a constant reminder of something I cannot give him and something I want that he already has. Yes, I am ranting, but I am so alone.
Please reach out. I understand.
AW
Re: Counsel
Have you talked to a specialist, or just your GP? What testing have you had done?
IF is brutal, but I think it's really important to remember that what we're dealing with is a medical condition. There are lots and lots of reasons people struggle, but my hope for everyone struggling is that they can find a medical professional who will actually help them.
You're right that it can also be socially isolating though, and it's also totally unfair. CD 1 is the worst. Hang in there.
Me: 34 DH: 35
TTC #1 since Nov 2015.
dx: unexplained
Dec 2016 - Apr 2017 - IUI + clomid x 4 - all BFN
July 2017 - IVF#1 - 4 frozen embryos, medical freeze
Oct 2017 - D&C
Nov 2017 - Apr 2018 - 3x FET - all BFN
Sep 2018 - IVF#2 w PGS - 3 frozen normal embryos
Nov 2018 - FET #4 - BFP
DH and I are discussing going to a specialist. My GP just prescribes drugs and I cross my fingers. No testing with any abnormal results.
I know others have struggled longer, but sympathy from my family "Moms" is hard to find. I appreciate all you have said.
Happy Thoughts!
AW