I somehow fell down a rabbit hole this morning and watched a bunch of videos on YouTube of soldiers coming home and surprising their kids. Apparently I just love the feeling of tears rolling down my face.
Which I guess leads into my FFFC...I haven't cried at all regarding pregnancy or the baby and I think my family thinks I am cold and detached. I'm not, I'm just not very emotional. I thought I would be and I ugly cried the whole way down the aisle when I got married but I haven't felt emotional about the baby yet.
*TW LC*
Me & MH: 32 DS: 6/1/18 (Pre-E; IUGR; seizures; NICU) TTC #2: 12/2019 Sept 2020: HSG possible blocked right tube Nov 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFN Dec 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFP!!! EDD 9/18
@oneblessedmess I’m with you. I recently bawled over a commercial about the need for foster homes in the area- it involved an officer carrying a crying toddler away from a house with the recorded call to dispatch playing in the background
Well my 2 year old locked me out of my house yesterday when I ran out to the car to find her mittens. Called DH freaking out and almost in tears because of course she wouldn’t come near the door to try and unlock it for me. Midway through the conversation with DH (who was an hour away so I’m not sure what he would have done anyway) I realized I had my keys in my coat pocket. I ended up telling him the doorknob was frozen again so I just had to crank it a few times (it has been like -20 all week and it has actually been happening) because I was so embarrassed that the keys were in my pocket the whole time. Guess who will be investing in a different lock with a keypad or something...
@lisa2589 someone else mentioned recently that their toddler locked them out! I guess we will be getting a key pad lock too! I would have fibbed to MH too lol.
*TW LC*
Me & MH: 32 DS: 6/1/18 (Pre-E; IUGR; seizures; NICU) TTC #2: 12/2019 Sept 2020: HSG possible blocked right tube Nov 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFN Dec 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFP!!! EDD 9/18
I hate showering, and I don’t do it as often as I probably should because my skin is so so dry and the water makes it itch after unless I basically dump a bottle of lotion on over and over once I get out.
I am working today, and yesterday to make sure my DH gets ALL DAY time with our DD. She is 2 yo, and his work schedule for the last 2 years has been he is working 9-5 Sat and Sun. Plus evenings MTW, until after midnight.
So his weekends (Th, Fr) DD goes to daycare so he has all day to himself at home. While my weekends are taking care of DD all. the. time.
Don't get me wrong, I love her. And love spending time with her, but the largest care burden most definitely falls on me. And when I was under the weather last week, he was out after work Christmas shopping. For the love.
So he is currently not feeling great, entertaining an active 2 yo, while I research baby carriers for number 2. I am hoping this shows him, with some urgency, how this current schedule is not going work out well come the arrival of a new born. There is no telling him, complaining, urging, or explaining my way through this. It has to be hard for DH in his own experience for him to remotely comprehend what I am going through.
So... I may have to do some shopping on the way home. Just so he gets the point. I hope.
Mama to a wonderful DD - Sep 2015, Wife to my DH since 2011, 2 dogs, a cat, and hoping to add No. 2 in May/June 2018. Canadian. 5 - IUIs, 3 - IVF retrievals, 2- failed transfers (fresh, and frozen), PGS on second IVF resulted in 1 perfect emby, and DD. 3rd IVF w PGS resulted in 3! perfect embys. 1st transfer - Sep 2017 2 more on ice.
@RatParade I love Gilmore Girls! I didn't watch it when it was on tv, but I binge watched it on Netflix about a year ago and cried when there were no more episodes left for me. I feel like I need to live in a real life Stars Hollow
@amy614 lol same! MH and I watched on Netflix (he was surprisingly really into it) and finished just about when the new episodes came out. And we sometimes listened to a podcast called Gilmore Guys where these two guys would just talk about each episode for like an hour I want to live Stars Hollow too.
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
@RatParade lol DH loves Gilmore Girls (we both watched it when it aired live, but have done marathons on Netflix since then), but he hates Lorelai lol. His fav characters are Emily and Richard Gilmore - he mostly hates everyone else. Oh, no, he loves Paris.
@doxiemoxie212 YH has everything backwards lol. Honestly towards the end they all sort of irritated me though. Lorelai was in a couple episodes of the last season of Curb Your Enthusiasm and it totally made me want to rewatch GG.
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
@doxiemoxie212 I hear you! I looooove the time spent in the shower.... But seriously, the dry skin right now is killing me. Like patches of lizard skin on my leg. Ugh. And then, I have to decide if 20 minutes of sleep would be better. Decisions, decisions.
@RatParade (and everyone else) Gilmore Girls for life!!! Have you all watched The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel (Amy Sherman-Palladino's new show on Amazon prime)? I like what I've seen so far...its interesting to see her writing style in a period piece (1950s).
@krashke During my first pregnancy, I wasn't really emotional at all, which is uncharacteristic for me...until AFTER the baby was born. Then I'm pretty sure I cried over something everyday for at least two weeks. This pregnancy, I'm practically a puddle...
Which leads me to my FFFC: yesterday, I took my DS's high chair apart to clean it. The straps were still drying at lunch time. So I just put him in and put the tray in place tight enough so he was secure. No biggie...I even said to DH, "if you happen to get him out, he's not buckled so get him right down." You can probably see where this is going...after lunch, I take the tray off before walking over to get a towel to wipe his hands and face. I look back across the kitchen to see him leaning over in his chair (trying to pet the dog). I screamed like an idiot, ran and grabbed him then spontaneously burst into tears...mom of the year, you guys
Re: FFFC (12/29)
Which I guess leads into my FFFC...I haven't cried at all regarding pregnancy or the baby and I think my family thinks I am cold and detached. I'm not, I'm just not very emotional. I thought I would be and I ugly cried the whole way down the aisle when I got married but I haven't felt emotional about the baby yet.
DS: 6/1/18 (Pre-E; IUGR; seizures; NICU)
TTC #2: 12/2019
Sept 2020: HSG possible blocked right tube
Nov 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFN
Dec 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFP!!! EDD 9/18
Well my 2 year old locked me out of my house yesterday when I ran out to the car to find her mittens. Called DH freaking out and almost in tears because of course she wouldn’t come near the door to try and unlock it for me. Midway through the conversation with DH (who was an hour away so I’m not sure what he would have done anyway) I realized I had my keys in my coat pocket. I ended up telling him the doorknob was frozen again so I just had to crank it a few times (it has been like -20 all week and it has actually been happening) because I was so embarrassed that the keys were in my pocket the whole time.
DS: 6/1/18 (Pre-E; IUGR; seizures; NICU)
TTC #2: 12/2019
Sept 2020: HSG possible blocked right tube
Nov 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFN
Dec 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFP!!! EDD 9/18
So his weekends (Th, Fr) DD goes to daycare so he has all day to himself at home. While my weekends are taking care of DD all. the. time.
Don't get me wrong, I love her. And love spending time with her, but the largest care burden most definitely falls on me. And when I was under the weather last week, he was out after work Christmas shopping. For the love.
So he is currently not feeling great, entertaining an active 2 yo, while I research baby carriers for number 2. I am hoping this shows him, with some urgency, how this current schedule is not going work out well come the arrival of a new born. There is no telling him, complaining, urging, or explaining my way through this. It has to be hard for DH in his own experience for him to remotely comprehend what I am going through.
So... I may have to do some shopping on the way home. Just so he gets the point. I hope.
5 - IUIs, 3 - IVF retrievals, 2- failed transfers (fresh, and frozen), PGS on second IVF resulted in 1 perfect emby, and DD.
3rd IVF w PGS resulted in 3! perfect embys. 1st transfer - Sep 2017 2 more on ice.
@lisa2589 when I run out to my car to start it/warm it up or something, I always carry an extra set of keys. I'm paranoid about this happening! haha
DS: born oct 2012
TFAS: BFP #1 aug16. miscarriage sept16
BFP #2 nov16 MMC dec16. d&c jan17
BFP #3 sept17 EDD 5/31/18
fingers crossed for our rainbow baby
We got a keypad lock on our front door a few months ago and it has changed my life. So convenient!
We've started talking about baby names and we've semi seriously settled on either Luke or Lorelai.
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
Me: 32 | DH: 36
Married June 2005
1/2016 - TTC#1
4/2017 - Initial RE visit, Dx: Severe MFI (Varicocele, 14% motility, 3% progression, but normal count)
7/2017 - Stage 3 endometriosis discovered during laparoscopic removal of ovarian cyst
9/27/2017 - BFP at 10dpo (cycle 22), baby boy due June 9, 2018
@krashke During my first pregnancy, I wasn't really emotional at all, which is uncharacteristic for me...until AFTER the baby was born. Then I'm pretty sure I cried over something everyday for at least two weeks. This pregnancy, I'm practically a puddle...
Which leads me to my FFFC: yesterday, I took my DS's high chair apart to clean it. The straps were still drying at lunch time. So I just put him in and put the tray in place tight enough so he was secure. No biggie...I even said to DH, "if you happen to get him out, he's not buckled so get him right down." You can probably see where this is going...after lunch, I take the tray off before walking over to get a towel to wipe his hands and face. I look back across the kitchen to see him leaning over in his chair (trying to pet the dog). I screamed like an idiot, ran and grabbed him then spontaneously burst into tears...mom of the year, you guys