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holly321
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TTCAL w/o 12/18
holly321
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This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and / or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
Re: TTCAL w/o 12/18
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
TFAS
3 losses at 6.5 weeks, 4.5 weeks, and 7 weeks.
Status: Benched, but I will find out tomorrow if we can try this cycle.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Things are going better, I’m starting to feel more hopeful about trying again, but I wish there was some reason for the losses that I could fix.
As for struggling, TW** my friend, who also happens to be my DH’s cousin’s wife, is announcing that she is pregnant on Christmas Eve, and she has the same EDD as my last loss **End TW. I’m not struggling with that news anymore, but I’m not looking forward to how the family will react. I guess I’m just a little bit jealous, because I was suppose to be announcing at that time.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Just had my HSG test done and everything looks good. My OB is going to go over all the results and his nurse will tell me tomorrow if we have the all clear to start trying.
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name? I didn’t give them a real name, but I did give 2 of them a nickname. My first loss was nicknamed Blip. We didn’t come up with a nickname for the cp, we just weren’t quick enough. My last loss, we nicknamed s/he Gummy Bear.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition? Go to bed early? Haha! We like to make fancy hors d’oeuvres and watch a movie.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Hello I am new to this board: I was most recently an occasional poster in March 18 and experienced a loss at 20 weeks for the first time this past Nov, only diagnosis at this point is PCOS
Status: TTC/TFAS
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Tired this week we have illness going through the household so it’s raking its toll.
Weightloss is going well and I’m getting my workout in despite being tired.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
recently got my results back from an ultrasound on my ovaries, one looks fine one appears polysystic
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
No
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
Champagne toast at midnight and kissing my DH
Sorry to meet you all this way, but I’m happy to have made my way over here.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Loss at 9 weeks due to Ectopic on 11/20, 4 weeks out from laparoscopic surgery.
Status: benched waiting for AF
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Things are going relatively well. I am WFAF at the moment. Due any day. but may take longer since surgery. We will see what happens. Then i will be off the bench!! I feel like there is light in sight! The only thing I am struggling with is patience. The sadness seems to be letting up which is good, because i honestly never thought that would fade.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
They want me to come back 1 more time since my HCG was at 9 last time. i will go after Xmas.
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
We have 2 names picked out, we are still going to use them for our future LO but we referred to our baby as Baby Ally/Vinny because those are the names we picked out - Allison or Vincent. We dont use the names we picked out in past tense though. We didn't know if we were having a boy or a girl so I dont feel weird about using one for our future baby. My question back is - do both you and your SO use the names? Just you? Just him? How does your SO feel either way?
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
Kissing and champagne at midnight! Last year we had a balloon drop, I am going to try to make that a tradition!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
TFAS. MMC discovered on 12/8 at 9 weeks. Had a D&C 12/12.
Status: Benched/WFAF
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Struggling with the hormone crash and trying to be excited for the holidays. This isn't how I pictured Christmas would be. Trying to stay busy so I don't go crazy, I'm at least getting things accomplished.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Follow up appointment for D&C tomorrow. Pathology report was posted to MyChart but they only tested to confirm tissue was products of conception, no genetic screening. Part of me wants answers but part of me doesn't because if I'm told that there was nothing wrong I would be even more devastated.
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up about naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
No name. I did buy an ornament for our tree and wrote "Baby, 2017" on the bottom. It felt good to do something.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
I'm kind of lame, I don't really like New Year's. Usually there's too much drinking and the night ends with drama. I prefer a low key night with close friends.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@ambybambi I am so sorry for your loss.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. Twins diagnosed with twin to twin transfusion at 21 weeks. We lost baby B at 22 weeks following placenta surgery. Baby A was born at 25 weeks and lived for 24 days in the NICU.
Status: benched (c section)
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am struggling with the fact that Christmas is knocking at the door and I should be pregnant, but I’m not. I really hate it when people tell me my boys are spending Christmas in heaven. I am religious, but I just wish they were here and I don’t want to talk about the fact that a holiday I normally love is now so depressing.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? none. Still waiting for my first PP AF. Then I will start temping again. With everything my body has been through this year, I wouldn’t be surprised if my cycle was all over the place for months.
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name? Our sons most definitely have names. Shepherd William was our stillborn angel at 22 weeks. And Abraham Willard was our fighter in the NICU. They were both so perfect and I am having such a hard time today knowing that nothing was wrong with them except for the twin to twin transfusion diagnosis. I really wish they knew what caused this horrible syndrome.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition? I agree with the sleep answer.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. RPL. 4 early MCs.
Status: CD 22 WTO.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? First cycle off the bench and after 6 (!?!?) days of ‘high’ fertility on my OPKs, I finally got a ‘Peak’ fertility smiley today. Geesh, I thought it would never come!
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name? I named all 4 of my babies. We don’t really talk about it though, as only DH and a very few select others know their names. But, it definitely helped me in my grieving process.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition? We would play games and drink at my parents house, and at midnight us and the neighbors would shoot black powder rifle blanks in the back yard. I know, I know… it’s as Hick as it comes.
ChloandCoco Sorry and good luck getting through the Christmas Eve announcement. Glad your tests are coming back good, although I know that’s a double-edged sword. Relieved nothing is wrong, but upset there’s nothing to ‘fix.’
ambybambi Sorry for your loss, but welcome to the group.
galactickates DH and I both use the names, but mostly in private. DH is more ‘meh’ about having named them, but I found it to be very helpful in the grieving process.
meatballs37 Sorry the holiday is going so rough for you. It’s hard to imagine how old your children would be for such a family oriented holiday, especially when you love (or used to love) that holiday. I hope you can find some happy times over the next few weeks.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MC 11/28 at 8 weeks
Status:
Benched/WFAF
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
The beginning of the week was really difficult. I think I was ovulating which apparently spiked all my hormones. I cried at everything. I think I am feeling more normal now. I'm actually getting excited to get off the bench. I bought some OPK's which should get here tomorrow. I've never used them before, but I want to make sure I know what is going on. I'm feeling hopeful again which is really good.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Still have to take a HPT at the end of the month to make sure it is negative. I could probably go ahead and take it now though.
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
I named him a few days after our loss. I had a dream it was a boy and my dreams were right last time, so I've been trusting that instinct. I named him Milo which means "merciful" because I feel like God has been merciful to us during this time.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
I feel like NYE has always been a let down for me. I always expect to have a great night and it's usually pretty lame. We might just stay home this year and drink by ourselves and talk about how much better 2018 is going to be.
@acciocoffee I have been so emotional as well. I have officially cried at the end of A Christmas Carol three freaking times this year.
@meatballs37 Those are such beautiful names. I can't imagine the pain you're feeling at the loss of your boys, the strength you've shown since joining this board is incredible to me.
@galactickates glad to hear you are coming off the bench! Thats exciting!
@ambybambi so sorry for your loss. I'm sorry you find yourself here but welcome to the board.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Hi all. I had a mmc in June after IVF and transferring our only viable embryo. I typically only hang out in the IF thread so I hope its okay if I pop in on you guys.
Status:
We are currently pursuing a domestic adoption, so we are in the process of getting paperwork together for our homestudy. And saving money.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
I am having a really hard time with my due date coming up on December 29th. I'm just consumed with thinking of what we would be doing if I had been able to carry the pregnancy to term. Getting ready for maternity leave, finishing the nursery, how big I would be, etc. I am having really bad anxiety about how I will feel on the 29th. Those of you who have had due dates pass, has it gotten any better? Was the day of your due date as bad as I am making it out to be?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
Because we did IVF with genetic testing we knew our only viable embryo was a boy and we were calling him by his name while he was still in the freezer. We were still back and forth on making his name official but when we had our loss we decided it would help to continue to use the name. His name was Oliver. My husband and I both use Oliver when we talk about our loss because anything else feels insufficient. He was real, he was the only baby I will likely ever carry, and his name was Oliver.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
Drinking all the champagne and sleeping all day the next day.
Married May 2014
TTC # 2 Since December 2021
Baby girl W born 2/2021
Our journey so far...
(tw loss & infertility)
Working with an RE since March 2016
2 failed TI cycles
3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017
23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal
Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17
BFP 4.21.17
MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey:
12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted!
5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house!
1.1.20 Homestudy process started
3.14.20 First social worker visit
5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test!
Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
ETA- They TTC for 3 years before moving on to adoption. That's why I was trying to relate it back. They are so excited to be getting closer to bringing home a LO.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@ambybambi I am so sorry for your loss, and make sure you take all the time you need to grieve. The ladies here are great, and I hope you find the support you need here.
@coco2787 I don't think any of us pictured Christmas like this. What are you doing to keep yourself busy?
@meatballs37 I love the names chose for your sons.
@dpjennifer FX this cycle and you get a super sticky bean!
@acciocoffee Good luck with teh OPKs next cycle!
@tamalahoops I'm sorry you find yourself here, but I wish you all the best with the adoption process!
@dpjennifer thanks for the insight. I keep telling myself to just take it day by day. One foot after another until the 29th.
@BusinessWife hugs right back at ya lady.
Married May 2014
TTC # 2 Since December 2021
Baby girl W born 2/2021
Our journey so far...
(tw loss & infertility)
Working with an RE since March 2016
2 failed TI cycles
3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017
23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal
Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17
BFP 4.21.17
MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey:
12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted!
5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house!
1.1.20 Homestudy process started
3.14.20 First social worker visit
5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test!
Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MMC 2/12 MMC turned malignant molar pregnancy 8/12
Status: benched. And I am finally excepting the fact that I am scared to ask my OBGYN when I can be unbenched. I mean, I have the man's cell phone number, we text occasionally, I can ask whenever I want, but haven't.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Kind of eh. I physically am feeling amazing. Chemo is out of my system and starting plaquenil... I feel the best I have felt in months. But, I am really down. TW, tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of my brother's death, so that isn't helping. And makes me focus on everything negative in my life. End TW. Other than that, work Christmas party tonight, so hopefully that will be fun.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
none! I don't get blood work for a few more weeks, which is great I am that much "better." But, I keep having dreams my hcg is rising again.
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name?
we named our first Harrison. It was the only name we had agreed on during the pregnancy. This time, Liam.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
I am also not a big new year's fan. But, on New year's day, my grandmother always used to make the traditional good luck foods, and I always loved it.
@ambybambi, I am sorry for your loss and that you find yourself joining us, but I hope you find support with us.
@galactickates, yay for soon being off the bench! And sorry you still had HCG, but at least it is almost gone. As to using the names, DH will occasionally talk about Harrison. He is really struggling with this loss though, so he doesn't talk about it, ever.
@coco2787, the hormone crash is the worst, I hope you start to feel better soon. And I an sorry the pathology report wasn't more detailed, but unfortunately there isn't always a way to tell. I an certain something was "wrong.". My OBgyn went on extensively about how almost all miscarriage is a chromosomal issue that is unavoidable in all ways.
I have to finish getting ready, will finish tagging later! Hugs to you all, I am certain the holidays are making things so much harder for all of us.
ChloandCoco So glad you might be back trying again soon!
ambybambi Sorry you are having to join us here.... but I am always so grateful this support system is here for us... These ladies are the best
galactickates That's an interesting question back, and I cant wait to hear what others say in response. MY DH and I both used the same terms for all of my pg's (which I will say in my answers.
coco2787 The hormone crash can be pretty bad... it can be like a mini depression all in itself! Hope you are feeling better soon
meatballs37 Ugh... I know people want to be comforting, but sometimes I wonder why people cant just say: I'm so sorry, I have no words but I'm here for you... That's all! (TW) My first MC the VERY PREGNANT nurse they sent to me (and which I asked them to switch out as insensitive, but they didn't) told me that my baby dying was gods plan... I am an atheist, but I told her that if I wasn't it would be a sure fire way to make me one. Its just not appropriate. Its not helpful until the person having the loss says that for themselves. Once someone feels that way, then fine to reinforce it. Until then it makes people feel like they are perhaps not being faithful enough if they aren't okay at that thought (ive had several Christian friends tell me this). Anyway, hugs to you... its totally ok to wish your precious babies were here with you.
dpjennifer yay for fertile days!! SO glad you are back at it! Love those smiley days!
acciocoffee So many of yall are back off the bench!! I love opk's... well, I think I just love poas for any reason
I really wish they would make an OPK that works like an HPT in that its stark white till its positive...
tamalahoops oh man... I def teared up... so sorry you are here... I can only send hugs
ETA
The due dates do get easier... but the more recent the loss, the harder it is.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 4 losses between 5 wks and 10 wks
Status: dunno... will find out on the 26th what the surgeon thinks (but I'm guessing itll be surgery then benched)
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Ugh... this week buying infant things for my nephews new born baby. I expected it to be hard, and it was. This week, I should be holding my spring baby in my arms by now and buying babys first Christmas stuff...
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I've got my exam with the surgeon on the 26th
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name? I didn't name (the names you all picked were so nice... ) any of my babies , but my DH simply referred to each one as: The Baby... I think if we had gone along and discovered the gender we would have used names
What is your favorite New Year's tradition? Just that midnight kiss.... we've had them all over the world we've had them at home. We've had them at parties, we've had them overlooking the ocean, lakes or mountains. We've had them listening to the city streets erupt in noisemakers and cheers. The one consistent thing is the kiss
@galactickates sorry you have to go back to the doc. I'm glad to hear the sadness is letting up a little bit
@meatballs37 those are beautiful names
@dpjennifer yay for fertile days! FX for you.
@acciocoffee I'm glad you're feeling hopeful. I hope you're off the bench soon!
@tamalahoops I'm sorry that your due date anniversary is putting damper on the holidays. I hope that it isn't as bad as you think
@holly321 talk to your doc! FX you're off the bench soon.
@dragonette505 I hope the appointment with the surgeon goes well. I'm sorry you're dealing with reminders of what was supposed to be
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@acciocoffee, I am sorry your hormones are making you so emotional, I think that is part of my problem. I had to get a Depo shot and it has been messing with my hormones. But i am glad to see that you are starting to feel hopeful again.
@tamalahoops, *hugs* With my last loss, the lead up to the due date, anniversaries, etc, is always worse for me than the actual day. I think I focus too much worry about how upset I will be that I end up getting myself more upset. Once my due date passed, it did get a lot easier. I hope it will be the same for you. And of course you are welcome here. I wish you the best of luck with adoption. We had been back and forth about adopting, and haven't ruled it out for the future. Do you have any time line for when things will happen? (I hope that makes sense, I guess like what steps happen after paperwork, I assume their is an approval process, how long does that take, etc.)
@dragonette505, good luck with your appointment with the surgeon. How long do you think you will be benched? I am certain it was hard for you to buy a gift for your nephew's baby, but I think it was sweet and selfless of you to do. I am pretty sure gift card would have been my route.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. Loss at 13 weeks Jan 16, loss at 9 weeks Oct 17
Status: 23, WFAF
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Rant: Christmas is always a really difficult time for me and with this new loss still fresh in my mind I don’t think I’m coping as well as I thought I was. Last night we were over at SIL for her birthday, was really nice and I put on my smiley face and was a social butterfly but at one point she mentioned a video from her goddaughter had sent and continued to play it. It was of a 2 year old saying Happy birthday I love you and while everyone was awwing I genuinely thought I was going to burst into tears. It just cut me like a knife. Rave: I have a therapy appointment today before Christmas that I think will be super useful.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nada
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name? It’s something I’ve played with but I have around 3 names set for my kids but i just can’t bare to actually give them one of those names. They’re often affectionately referred to as Little One though.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition? I don’t really have one, spending it with Fi I suppose. I hate the clubbing on NY it’s just way too rammed and stressful!
@ambybambi I’m so very sorry for your loss.
@galactickates I’m so glad that you’re starting to feel more positive about trying again, and so glad that the sadness is fading, it’s such a huge achievement and you should be incredibly proud of yourself!
@coco2787 I’m sorry that you’re struggling with Christmas coming up, I can completely relate. I think it’s so difficult because it’s a time when everyone’s really happy but it just reminds me of what I don’t have
@meatballs I’m so sorry that you’re struggling, I think we can all relate to pieces of each other’s stories. Please try and take care of yourself over the next few weeks, just remove yourself from conversations if you need to, feel confident to say ‘I don’t want to discuss this now’ etc were all here for you
@dpjennifer I’m really glad that naming your little ones Was a positive step in your grieving process
@acciocoffee Really glad that you’re feeling more hopeful and you’re taking positive steps forward. For taking the test I know with me I was fine until I actually bought the test then I had a massive urge to take it straight away, so maybe just keep them out of the house until you’re actually ready to test
@tamalahoops I’m sorry that you’re here, but welcome to the board. For me personally I got more anxious at the thought of it happening than the actual day itself. That being said I did take the day off and just had a big ol duvet day and watched movies in bed all day for a bit of TLC.
@holly321 I am so sorry that this anniversary is coming up and I’m thinking of you, please try and take care of yourself and remember that it’s totally okay to be scared to ask your OB it’s a huge thing and you just need to take that plunge when the time is right.
@dragonette505 the way you described your midnight kisses sounddd like a beautiful movie!
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@CraftyG Thanks for the bathroom tip! I might end up using it. The lady announcing knows about the losses, and is sensitive towards my situation, but the rest of the family isn’t.
AFM, OB gave me the all clear to try this, but I got more blood work done today to double check my blood clotting levels. And even if that Is the issue, nothing can be done until I get another BFP.
Trying to add a so excited gif but TB is failing me.
I love all the Christmas Magic happening right now.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
I remember thinking those same things about how can I possibly be praying for a BFN right now. Now I'm praying for AF. It's crazy, and I hate it.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
TTC x 12 months in 2017: 3 very early losses (5wks-3days, 4wks-3 days, and 4wks); So far all of unknown cause
Status: benched waiting for AF; just finished 2 weeks of antibiotics this month and dental work; FUN! lol
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
I had a rough time early this month grieving our losses. There are so many questions and few answers. In all honesty, a year ago, God promised my husband and I living children before we started TTC. Never expected this journey on the way to parenthood! Though it's been heartbreaking to go through these losses, I've learned so much about myself, my hubby and I have gotten closer, an I've had a chance to meet lovely women like you ladies who I've been able to encourage and who have been such an encouragement to me! All unexpected blessings. We certainly don't know why certain things happen but I personally know that God's answered countless prayers of mine in the past; I trust that he will totally answer this one in His perfect timing too!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Just started seeing an REI. All of my testing just came back normal; she feels optimistic for our future efforts which has been so encouraging to hear in this season. I start clomid 25mg next week in hopes of getting more well-nourished developed ovulations and am too excited!!!
GTKY: a serious one... It was brought up bout naming your loss(es) last week. Did you name yours, if so, what is the name? Our first baby DH and I both know in our hearts was a boy and he has a name that we both cherish. Our subsequent other 2 babies we lost do not have a name. It all happened so quickly and presently we do not have a name for them.
What is your favorite New Year's tradition?
We usually go to church to the short NYE service to ring in the NY. This year, we moved to a new city and I kind of want to do something touristy like go see the ball drop lol. Don't know if I can stay up that late though so we'll see :-).