PGAL check in- week of 12/13

jsl82 · December 2017

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)

5. When is your next appointment?

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant?

jsl82 · December 2017

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
15w1d- 6/5/18- Team Blue

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Mostly good. Having trouble sleeping and heartburn is pretty constant- but other than that I can't complain.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
Pretty good (2 out of 10). I used the doppler again last night, but it had been at least 3 days.

5. When is your next appointment?
12/20

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

It is too damn cold! It snowed last weekend in the Philadelphia area (as well as many other areas in the country- but I live in the Philly area) and there is more snow in the forecast. Um no... I do not want to deal with a bad winter this year while my balance is becoming more and more off center as my belly grows and my feet swell. Why can't it be 70s all year with like a week of snow for Christmas and a week of heat in the summer?

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant?

So far everyone has been really excited- but I am going to be missing my cousin's wedding since I'm due 11 days before the wedding. I am expecting that conversation to be awkward to say the least.

catlady1215 · December 2017

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
15+6 team blue

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

Food is still not my fav. So much stuff just gives me weird tastes afterwards. But atleast I'm not disgusted by every.single.food now. I have a feeling this will be my norm and it won't get much better, ugh.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)

I'm nervous again. I told myself when I heard that last heartbeat at 13+6 that I wasn't going to worry after that. But here I am worrying still. Damn PGAL brain. I hate it so much. I've been pleading to little man to just get stronger and give some good kicks so I can tell if stuff I feel is him or gas.

5. When is your next appointment?
Next wed, the 20th

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

I guess I kinda did that up in the anxiety part lol.

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant? I think anyone we told this pregnancy, that knows about our losses, is a 'best'. Worst.. probably last pregnancy when we told some family. And sil, before even saying congrats, texted other sil and old her our news before we did.

catlady1215 · December 2017

@jsl82 I'm on the other side of PA and was not happy about our snow yesterday either! Which wasn't even 'alot' but gross. And the cold, ugh the cold!

torileea · December 2017

how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
11 and 3 edd July 1 wondering if dr will move it, I’m measuring 4 days a head

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

Awful haha trying to figure out the right balance so I don’t puke..
4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)

Better after my dating scan. But still nervous

5. When is your next appointment?
Tomorrow

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

Seriously done with cold and flu season.. we need cold weather here but it’s been staying warm. It’s usually freezing with a good amount of snow.. right not is 7 celsius and the grass is green.. my kids have caught everything under the sun

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant?

Everyone’s been very cautious.. but it’s been fun to tell them my sil and I are do the same day and not planned

bkrahn · December 2017

@catlady1215 I told myself I’d feel better after hearing the heartbeat, after our first ultrasound, after 12 weeks, after announcing on social media.. all these things have come & gone and nope, still worrying. I don’t think that’s going to change.

2. 15+5, finding out gender next week!

3. Pretty good in general. Heartburn & acid reflux. Feeling lots of movements! Back pain and lots of RLP when I walk.

4. I’m better this week after getting a Doppler last week. I can’t believe how much that has eased my anxiety!

5. Blood work next Monday, OB appt on Tuesday and gender revealing ultrasound on Friday! Can’t wait to see our sweet babe again!

6. None this week!

7. When I told my group of girlfriends I was pregnant with DD, they screamed at the top of their lungs in excitemenf & tackled me to the ground lol and then realized what they had done and screamed “don’t squish the baby!!”

edit: emoji problem

PatientlyWaiting10 · December 2017

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
15w 1d

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Very up and down. I have to have something in my stomach at all times or I feel sick. But nothing really sounds good. Bla...I'm kind of ready to have some of those crazy pregnancy cravings.
4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
The fears are always there. Now it's not really fears of miscarriage, more so fears of something else being wrong with baby. Being able to feel baby off and on is definitely comforting!
5. When is your next appointment?
I just had an appt Tuesday so our 20 week a/s is January 10!!

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

I'm ready to just feel normal again. Not so stinking exhausted and able to eat normally again.

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant?

We haven't told a ton of people yet, but I think the best was from my grandma. She said "well, now that you figured out how to get 'em, you're going to keep having more." haha...Oh grandma. My sister's reactions were pretty sweet too. One literally screamed and the other was like, "wait, what is that" when I laid my ultrasound picture on the table. Everyone has been super caught off guard so it's been really fun telling people.

courtyowl427 · December 2017

@jsl82 and @catlady1215 I'm right there with you on the cold weather. In WNY and it's been in the teens all week. So cold it hurts your face! And all DS wants to do is play in the snow. I tell him every night he has to wait for Daddy...

@Patientlywaiting10 I love Grandma's. I can't wait to be old and say whatever I want and no one can judge me, lol

Sorry I was MIA last week, this time of year gets away from me at work and at home!

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?

12 weeks today

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

Feeling good, thought I was past the exhaustion but this weekend was rough. Lots of stretching pain this week too.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
I posted this on a few other posts this week, but at our 11+3 week scan the NT measurement was high. Dr. Called on Monday to tell me and asked I go complete the NIPT that I wasn't planning on doing. So now we wait and my anxiety has been up and down. I go from thinking "these screenings can mean nothing and this baby is fine" to thinking my baby has some chromosomal issue that will not survive outside of me. It's such a roller coaster. I really hope in the future these screenings are more diagnostic than risk probability. I'm actually mad I know this information because there is nothing I can do but wait and it takes away whatever little assurance I had that this was going to be ok.

5. When is your next appointment?
Jan 5th? But should hear from the genetics counselor next week. Right before Christmas...

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

See above

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant?

I told my team at work because I'm obviously showing at this point. One person said "oh wow, that's why your butt is getting big." and another said "well that's why you've been pale!" So I'm fat and pasty, great!!!

lisa2589 · December 2017

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
15+4, hopefully finding out next week!

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Lots of stretching in the lower abdomen, not nauseated but gagging easily-especially with smells

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
I have it pretty well under control most days, no bleeding for 3 weeks now makes me feel a lot better, ultrasound coming up next week.. Basically now just a little anxious about announcing to the extended family and friends. I have Christmas cards ready to go but feel paranoid about sending them until after this next ultrasound (I will be 16 weeks then)

5. When is your next appointment?
12/20

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

Just really (selfishly) hoping the ultrasound will show the SCH resolved next week so I can come off pelvic rest

7. GTKY- What is the best/worst reaction you have had to telling someone you are pregnant?

My close family and coworkers that know already have been super excited, it’s been more fun telling this time I think since many of them have known about our struggles!

I’m waiting to hear comments from the extended family though after we announce next week wondering how far along I am because I was like 8 weeks pregnant for my sisters wedding in October and drinking mocktails so I didn’t have to tell everyone so early!

profmcgonagall · December 2017

@courtyowl427, that’s so rude! I don’t know why people think it’s ok to say that crap.
I hope everything comes back ok.

2. 11+4 EDD July 1
3. I’m feeling ok. I’m having trouble getting enough fluids because of the nausea. And aversions are still awful. I have to make DH open the fridge because all the smells together make me gag.
4. I’m doing ok anxiety wise. We had an US and baby is measuring on track with a HR of 170 and was super wiggly. It was such a relief because I was convinced something bad had happened.
Also of right now I’m not being treated as high risk. Not that I want to be, but with a previous 24 week delivery I assumed I would be. At least they told me I would be. The lady she would bring my name up when all of the providers met up again and they would make a plan of care for me.
5. Next appt is Jan 16.
6. Rants/Raves: I feel like I’m being pressured by some people to be so happy. I obviously am happy but I’m still sad about my DD. I’m sad that these two babies will grow up apart. This baby doesn’t replace my DD and I feel like some people act like everything is fine now that I’m pregnant again.
7. I was really surprised by the huge reaction we go when we announced this pregnancy. This is our first after loss and I was really touched by the number of people who said they are praying for a safe pregnancy and healthy baby and have been thinking of us.

bkrahn · December 2017

@profmcgonagall I totally get what you’re saying about people pressuring you to be happy. I’ve been feeling the same way. Whenever I bring up our losses to my family, apart from DH, and talk about how I’m still getting over them and how this pregnancy has been very hard for me mentally & emotionally, they respond with “okay, but, this pregnancy is different. Just relax.” Um, yeah.. ok.

jsl82 · December 2017

@courtyowl427 sorry that your co-workers are so rude. Are they always like that?

@profmcgonagall I feel like this exact statement has been echoed in everything I have have read being pgal. This pregnancy is going to be harder- because of the pressure to have a regular pregnancy. Unfortunately, people that have never experienced a loss will never be able to understand the struggle. Even the rest of us- while we understand the anxiety and struggles to connect with the pregnancy- will never truly understand what you are experiencing. As best you can- avoid talking about this pregnancy with people that frustrate you with comments like that. I know it's easier said than done, but i have found that some conversations are just not worth having.

torileea · December 2017

@profmcgonagall I’ve been getting that a lot lately too... easier said than done.
you don’t have to be anything. I have now experienced loss before each of my babies including this one.. and I wasn’t truly happy until I was holding that baby in my arms. Everyone is different, you just do you

catlady1215 · December 2017

guys. I'm nervous. figured you'd all understand. I made a last minute decision yesterday to do an elective ultrasound this sunday. I said my main reason was so DS could see it. but a big part of it is for me and my sanity. but I'm scared. I have no reason to think something is wrong but damn you pgal brain.

jsl82 · December 2017

@catlady1215 I'm scared before every ultrasound. I had an u/s with DD at 32 weeks and was feeling her move- I was still scared. It's normal- you are allowed to be scared/ nervous/ anxious - but it is exciting. Will it be a 3D ultrasound? How are along are you- are you hoping that maybe you will be able to find the sex? Is DS excited to see his new sibling? Does he understand what is happening? Try to focus on the excitement around the ultrasound- nothing will stop the nerves- but try to consciously focus on the excitement instead of the what ifs.

catlady1215 · December 2017

@jsl82 --TW....even before having DS, my sister had a fullterm still birth. seeing her go through that didn't even 'scare' me when I was pregnant with him. but just having multiple 1st term losses of my own screwed me all up. --end TW---
I didn't think I'd be this mentally tough. the nerves are crazy! thanks for the peptalk! I gotta breeeath lol.

I picked a 3d/4d package.. mainly cause it was the longest time slot lol. we did the maternit21, that said boy. they'll check for us, but I'd be pretty floored if they said girl lol. we haven't told him yet that we're going. he's 5 so he gets the baby in belly thing... I think. but I'm curious how much more serious he'll take it after seeing him kicking around.

jsl82 · December 2017

@catlady1215 how was your u/s yesterday?

catlady1215 · December 2017

@jsl82 it was good! he kept hiding his face and was smushed up against the placenta lol. Even tried to roll away from us at one point. but we managed to get a few creepy 4d shots. Definitely put my little pgal heart at ease!! thank you for checking in!

lisa2589 · December 2017

Guys.. so I was going to wait until after my u/s and appointment tomorrow to send out our holiday card/pregnancy announcement.. but I got them all addressed and stamped last night and decided to say F You to PGAL brain and put them in the mailbox this morning! I’m so nervous but excited. Someone tell me it’s going to be okay!

reikotxm · December 2017

@lisa2589 I'm with you there! I mmc'd at 15 weeks and I thought I'd wait it out till I hit passed that to announce, but 15 for me hits on Christmas, so once I got the US I just went ahead an put that picture on there and sent them all today.... also excited but nervous. We will be ok!

bkrahn · December 2017

@lisa2589 you go, girl! Show that PGAL who’s boss!

lisa2589 · December 2017

Thanks ladies! Love this support system we have going on!

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