@galactickates I think we might be long lost sisters. . I am always interested in blizzards too...and I have been known to cry when MH won’t go get one for me. . I really wanted to try the seasonal peppermint Oreo, but I’m not sure if it’s still there. Another awesome one is coffee Oreo, but some stores do not offer it (or maybe they don’t have the coffee ice cream).
AFM, I’m crying because we haven’t had the best timing this month. I got a positive opk last night. Now MH is telling me he’s tired, has a stomach ache, and wants to go bed early. I need to inspire him to give it a go so we don’t miss out!
@dukestar5 There is nothing wrong with dry-heave, ugly crying they day of a positive OPK when your H is uninterested (Well, so my “friend” tells me!)
Additionally, @galactickates, I’ve been known to cry when MH won’t get me a limeade, chocolate, or picks the froyo place with the lame dairy-free options.
@offtoneverland & @galactickates So when are we meeting up at DQ for our blizzards?! @jrm_14 Thanks for the empathy. It stinks...only 6 potential days to try each month. Ugh! Going to set an early alarm tomorrow to see if I can convince him.
I do so good eating clean and healthy.... and then DH bought a big old thing of nutella. I was resisting, but now it's open so debating if it is better to have it on bread as a "sandwich" and add carbs to the deal or just by the spoonful...
TTGP December Siggy Challenge: Favourite Holiday Movie Moment
Caused I smashed my toe with my dryer. I just couldn't wait for DH to help me *insert eyeroll*. Good thing it's not sandal season seeing as it's already 50 shades of blue
@galactickates@offtoneverland I don't believe DQ can make coffee flavored blizzards anymore because they don't carry the coffee concentrate. I just don't want you to get excited to get one and then they can't make it for you.
Love you!
*TW LC*
Me & MH: 32 DS: 6/1/18 (Pre-E; IUGR; seizures; NICU) TTC #2: 12/2019 Sept 2020: HSG possible blocked right tube Nov 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFN Dec 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFP!!! EDD 9/18
@BusinessWife - That is my all-time favorite Christmas song (closely followed by Mary Did You Know). I have seriously listened to like, every version. My favorites are obviously PTX, and The Always, which is funny because they are so opposite.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
-I'm frustrated with my weight but also can't stop eating like I'm starving. Keep telling myself maybe losing weight will help with TTC, but not successfully losing anything. -I get to spend this next weekend with my ILs. They're not bad people but can be annoying in different ways. My MIL has just been really weird recently. Latest example: she has requested a bonnet as one of her Christmas presents. WTF?!
@matryoshkadoll Oh my god.. I haven't had Nutella in almost a year. It was almost an addiction for me, and I decided I needed to just not have it in the house. That gif has me drooling.
@dukestar5 Ugh, I hate trying to get good timing in. Not fun at all! @offtoneverland@galactickates@dukestar5 Oh man, how have I never heard of a coffee blizzard?! I need to see if my local store has that flavor. @josie12367 Ouch! Hope your toe feels better soon.
My TTGP self is crying because of another B.F.N! Then I decided to lurk on the August BMB because, you know, that would obviously make me feel better. I’m just going to go crack open my wine now...
@jaylii A bonnet??? Like for a collectible doll or for herself? Is she going to wear it out of the house? That is really strange. @ndz2018 Did you get your blizzard tonight? @josie12367 Oh no! How is your toe? Last year I attempted to put our fake Christmas tree in the crawl space all by myself (DH offered to help and I said no because I can do it myself!), and I ended up with a huuuuuge scratch down my back because I slipped and fell on the stairs. Oops. @adirat I agree with @galactickates. Buy ALL the pads because hopefully that means you won't need them again!
Today, I cried at work when I was on Condom Duty. That involves taking hundreds of condoms and tearing them apart at the perforation. I was thinking about the irony of T-TTC and IF and our sex education for adolescents. LOOK AT A PEEN AND YOU HAVE A BABY FOREVER. Then, I was thinking about the cost of IUI & IVf, etc, and thinking the cost of t-Ttc & IF also includes all the wasted money on years of contraceptives. And my heart ached for so many people. Stupid free condoms .
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
@jrm_14 I try not to think about all the wasted time spent on worrying about accidentally getting KU.
@mrs_drc_rn Yes! I don't know why I keep lurking BMBs. The intros don't bother me much and I like seeing other's I "know" there but the threads I see while loading the intros get to me. What kind of wine are you drinking.
@adirat I like others' logic on if you buy it, you won't need it.
There is a cure for looking at BMB’s. Unfortunately, for me it is either after the first 1-2 weeks when people are awaiting the next month board, or when the next board is open. And then the previous month’s is quickly abandoned- poof.
@mrs_drc_rn@skilledsailor@jrm_14 Dammit, I just looked at the August BMB. There's a bunch of ladies that I have been posting with for months on here who are posting. I'm happy for you ladies, but it bums me out too.
@jaylii@mrs_drc_rn@SkilledSailor@jrm_14 I’m right there with you. I understand I’ve been here for a very short time compared to others, and I’m so happy for those who got BFPs this month but wow, it hit me much harder this month. At month 4, I feel like 6 is right around the corner and then 12 will be here before we know it
@offtoneverland Toe is okay! The nail is definitely going to fall off at some point which sucks, but my husband was thrilled when I said he was right, I should've waited for him....but damn, I got so much done! Tree is up, house is decorated, and everyone is happy. Also took a mini bump break. Feeling much better. Apologies to those that PM'd me! Getting back to you now....
Now I'm crying because I'm going to have to put it all this away in a few short weeks!
I have gone through phases with the BMBs and now I just can't. Like I can't even lurk. It just hurts my heart too much to see all the ladies - who I love! - and I'm "supposed" to be ku with...
When we were benched, there were times I would "actively lurk" some of the BMBs where I knew people, chat about CDs or gear, bc wtf not? But they weren't boards I ever realistically thought I might join, so maybe that made it easier, lighter. Just fun hanging out and making some new KU friends.
For me I think it shifted once we had some kind of timeline for ivf. For MONTHS I was sure I would be on the June BMB. Then we had a delay, but obviously it would be July! Then another delay, but we were transferring, and for REAL this time, August. :'(
Now I am hoping for September but it won't do my heart any good to lurk anywhere.... I need to just keep it in today, and keep looking ahead to better things - not back. :/
Yesterday I was crying because there were obnoxious crazy people (read one of our sale reps and a customer plus two of his employee's) in my lab making a mess and getting in my way. Idiots. And today I'm crying simply because ttgp is poop-y. And stupid. And I'm mad at it. And it's not my friend.
BFP 3/21/2020! OMG We're having TWINS! 4/17/2020 -------------------------------- LO arrived 11/9/2018! We have a baby! -------------------------------- Me: 33 | DH: 41 Married: March 2016 TTC #1/IUD out January 2017 PCOS dx January 2018 Medicated cycle 2.5mg Letrozole CD3-7 February 2018 BFP 3/10/2018! -------------------------------
TTGP December Siggy Co-Winner: Favorite Moments from Holiday Movies/TV
@BusinessWife , I am rooting so hard for you to get to join September!
@nmbrcrnchr1 and @jaylii, yep, as someone who hit 12 fairly recently, I can tell you that it comes fast. I still feel a little stunned whenever I think that we now meet the definition of infertility...it doesn’t feel like we can possibly have been at this that long. (Of course, sometimes it feels like it’s been decades!)
I lurk the BMB intro threads to see if people from here intro but I don’t read any other intro posts or any other threads. Too hard on my heart.
AFM, I’m crying because we got bad SA results yesterday and I let DH eat the last of my favorite holiday ice cream because he was so devastated. So now I’m sad too and have no ice cream. Alas!
Re: Why My TTGP Self is Crying
AFM, I’m crying because we haven’t had the best timing this month. I got a positive opk last night. Now MH is telling me he’s tired, has a stomach ache, and wants to go bed early. I need to inspire him to give it a go so we don’t miss out!
Oh man, now I'm crying because I don't have a blizzard!
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Additionally, @galactickates, I’ve been known to cry when MH won’t get me a limeade, chocolate, or picks the froyo place with the lame dairy-free options.
@jrm_14 Thanks for the empathy. It stinks...only 6 potential days to try each month. Ugh! Going to set an early alarm tomorrow to see if I can convince him.
* ETC talk to text
@galactickates @offtoneverland I don't believe DQ can make coffee flavored blizzards anymore because they don't carry the coffee concentrate. I just don't want you to get excited to get one and then they can't make it for you.
Love you!
DS: 6/1/18 (Pre-E; IUGR; seizures; NICU)
TTC #2: 12/2019
Sept 2020: HSG possible blocked right tube
Nov 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFN
Dec 2020: Letrozole + TI - BFP!!! EDD 9/18
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
-I get to spend this next weekend with my ILs. They're not bad people but can be annoying in different ways. My MIL has just been really weird recently. Latest example: she has requested a bonnet as one of her Christmas presents. WTF?!
BFP #1: 9/12/2015
DD: 6/1/2016
BFP #2: 1/16/2018 MC 2/2/2018
@offtoneverland @galactickates @dukestar5 Oh man, how have I never heard of a coffee blizzard?! I need to see if my local store has that flavor.
@josie12367 Ouch! Hope your toe feels better soon.
@ndz2018 Did you get your blizzard tonight?
@josie12367 Oh no! How is your toe? Last year I attempted to put our fake Christmas tree in the crawl space all by myself (DH offered to help and I said no because I can do it myself!), and I ended up with a huuuuuge scratch down my back because I slipped and fell on the stairs. Oops.
@adirat I agree with @galactickates. Buy ALL the pads because hopefully that means you won't need them again!
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
Then, I was thinking about the cost of IUI & IVf, etc, and thinking the cost of t-Ttc & IF also includes all the wasted money on years of contraceptives. And my heart ached for so many people. Stupid free condoms .
Eta: words per usual
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
@alohakumu Dammit. I cry every time.
@jrm_14 I try not to think about all the wasted time spent on worrying about accidentally getting KU.
@mrs_drc_rn Yes! I don't know why I keep lurking BMBs. The intros don't bother me much and I like seeing other's I "know" there but the threads I see while loading the intros get to me. What kind of wine are you drinking.
@adirat I like others' logic on if you buy it, you won't need it.
There is a cure for looking at BMB’s. Unfortunately, for me it is either after the first 1-2 weeks when people are awaiting the next month board, or when the next board is open. And then the previous month’s is quickly abandoned- poof.
Now I'm crying because I'm going to have to put it all this away in a few short weeks!
When we were benched, there were times I would "actively lurk" some of the BMBs where I knew people, chat about CDs or gear, bc wtf not? But they weren't boards I ever realistically thought I might join, so maybe that made it easier, lighter. Just fun hanging out and making some new KU friends.
For me I think it shifted once we had some kind of timeline for ivf. For MONTHS I was sure I would be on the June BMB. Then we had a delay, but obviously it would be July! Then another delay, but we were transferring, and for REAL this time, August. :'(
Now I am hoping for September but it won't do my heart any good to lurk anywhere.... I need to just keep it in today, and keep looking ahead to better things - not back. :/
DD1: 8/2014
TTC #2: 6/2017
BFP 8/3/2017 | CP 8/4
BFP 10/16/2017 | CP 10/21
BFP 12/18/2017 | CP 12/28
BFP 2/15/2018 | EDD: November 2nd | It's a girl!
DD2: 10/2018
@nmbrcrnchr1 Yup, cycle 6 for me and I am wondering how I got here so fast. Trying to stay positive.
And today I'm crying simply because ttgp is poop-y. And stupid. And I'm mad at it. And it's not my friend.
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LO arrived 11/9/2018! We have a baby!
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Me: 33 | DH: 41
Married: March 2016
TTC #1/IUD out January 2017
PCOS dx January 2018
Medicated cycle 2.5mg Letrozole CD3-7 February 2018
BFP 3/10/2018!
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@nmbrcrnchr1 and @jaylii, yep, as someone who hit 12 fairly recently, I can tell you that it comes fast. I still feel a little stunned whenever I think that we now meet the definition of infertility...it doesn’t feel like we can possibly have been at this that long. (Of course, sometimes it feels like it’s been decades!)
I lurk the BMB intro threads to see if people from here intro but I don’t read any other intro posts or any other threads. Too hard on my heart.
AFM, I’m crying because we got bad SA results yesterday and I let DH eat the last of my favorite holiday ice cream because he was so devastated. So now I’m sad too and have no ice cream. Alas!
@Augusta108. Big hugs... ❤❤❤