Any appointments coming up? Next Tuesday is my 24 week check up
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I'm feeling really really really good lately and optimistic. Last night, DH felt the baby kick for the first time. And it was the BEST. It was actually I think better than feeling the kick myself to watch his face. He looked at me and said "No way!!! That was YOU" which is exactly how he responded when our son kicked for the first time. He totally thought it was me moving my stomach weirdly and not the baby. He was so excited. It was fantastic! It's moments like these that get me through the hard days.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? This may sound boring, but I'd put it towards our mortgage. We have a goal to be mortgage free by 2021, but we still have a long ways to go to get there. I just would love to have our house paid off and have that huge weight off of our shoulders.
@justkeeptrying That's so awesome! I wish my fiance would've acted more excited about it - he's still keeping everything contained. He'll feel the baby kick, but he doesn't really respond to it.
How far along are you? 23+3
Any appointments coming up? Glucose Test @ 25 weeks, and next OB @ 26 weeks.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Besides being frustrated with myself lately for not liking pregnancy, I'm doing okay. Occasionally I get the urge to worry about everything, but I try to think positively when that happens.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? I'd pay off all the student loans and credit cards, use what I can for a down payment on a house and/or car, and then go on vacation. Anything left over would go in savings.
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https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/683816 BFP 6/30/16, MC 8/21/16 BFP 05/04/17, 5/10/17 Emergency LAP due to ectopic. Right tube removed. BFP 07/12/17, ECDD 03/25/18 - Silver Orion Born 3/23/18 BFP 09/30/19, EDD 06/11/20
Any appointments coming up? I had a fetal echocardiogram yesterday - my husband's father has a congenital heart problem, and my ob/gyn wanted the echo just to be safe, although all of baby's scans have looked great so far. The echo went well, and there are no problems with her heart! The cardiologist actually said, "To be honest, I don't even know why you guys were here" - which was actually reassuring, to hear him feel the risk was so very minimal. No other appointments until the week before Christmas.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm doing pretty well! It was nice to get good news yesterday, and baby kicks are still my drug of choice. I've been trying to up my exercise and be more cautious about what I eat, and the last week went pretty well, even considering Thanksgiving. So hopefully I'll be able to keep some good healthy habits up for the rest of my pregnancy.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? That is fully my fantasy right now! My husband and I are saving up for our first house, and the fact that we need to live commuting distance from NYC means everything is SO expensive. That money would go straight to a down payment (and it would let us keep our beautiful, beautiful savings intact - swoon!).
@SoraLk - my husband's response was also underwhelming at first - he'd just kind of smile at me and that was it. Now that baby's stronger, he says the same thing as @justkeeptrying 's husband - "Was that you moving?!" - and gets much more excited, and I find it much more rewarding. Maybe your fiance will go through the same change of heart.
@justkeeptrying - I'm so glad you're having a good week and feeling positive! Keep those vibes going!!!
Any appointments coming up? I had my regular appointment today, and do the glucose screening. I still feel awful from that darn drink. My next appointment is the end of December and then after that I go to appointments every two weeks. That made this seem even more real. Lol.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I’m doing okay. 2.0 was super still last night and this morning when I woke up which freaked me out a little and with my glucose test today, I didn’t want to mess it up with sugar or caffeine so I didn’t do any of my usual tricks to get him moving. But he “woke up” a couple hours later than normal and I got my kick counts in and felt better about it. Plus a good heartbeat on the Doppler today.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? I’m so boring... it would all go towards any debt we had and I’d spend a little on things for the boys. I need a dresser and chest of drawers for both of their rooms and I’d buy things like the double stroller and mini crib to finish off what I need for the nursery. If I decided to splurge, I’d get myself an Apple Watch.
@justkeeptrying I think the look on MH’s face every time he gets to feel baby kicks is pretty much the best. It definitely tops me feeling baby kicks. Although last night, watching DS snuggle my bump and get kicked was pretty awesome too. Even though he didn’t know it was his baby brother.
@SoraLk there’s another thread on here that talks about how it’s okay to not like or love pregnancy and still love the baby. I think pregnancy has some really hard moments and I’ve never been that magical unicorn pregnant lady with the glow and the everything is rainbows. Also, I hope your fiancé gets a little more excited as things get closer—some guys just don’t get excited until Baby is here.
@ashtuesday yay for a great appointment that relieved you guys! I’ve been doing the same in regards to food and exercise but with my first, the biggest weight gain happened in the last month. Ha. Hopefully I don’t do that again.
Any appointments coming up? I just had my last level 2 US, and have my glucose test next week. Also, I have another US next week because my level 2 US showed that my cervix was short...2.5cm to be exact.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm doing well. Glad that baby looks fantastic, but now worried about my cervix. It's 2.5cm, which is .3 cm shorter than 3 weeks ago. My midwife wants to see it at a 3 or more. If it is any shorter at my upcoming US we talk about bed rest.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? Also boring adult over here. I'd pay off my student loans, and then put a bigndown payment on a different home.
Hola Guapas! Back from Spain and sooo jetlagged been up since 4:30am!
How far along are you? 22+5
Any appointments coming up? Makena shot today... they itch soooo bad they are driving me crazy.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Major post trip blues... I miss my husband already!!! Baby Nova has really started to move regularly which I never get sick of, even when she was pounding on my bladder on the flight back! Feel incredibly scattered getting back to reality and completely insane for signing on for a business trip to Orlando leaving on the red eye Saturday...at least it will pass the time my husband is away quickly and hey I can think of worst places than Disney World to spend 3 days at LOL.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? Pay off my debt, put a down payment on a home in Spain, and book a trip to Chiang Mai, Thailand to the Elephant Sanctuary.
@justkeeptrying thats amazing DH finally felt the baby... it took forever for us too and a lot of “feel this” and then nothing lol
@SoraLk I did not enjoy my first 3 pregnancies at all. I would often say that I should have just adopted because I love being a mom so much but really hate being pregnant... All i did was worry and feel uncomfortable... only wanting to get to the birth (i do love that part). I felt no shame or guilt saying I disliked pregnancy because honestly not everyone loves it.. I know I sound like a broken record here, but had I known most of the time I’d have with Mars would be in my body...I would have enjoyed his pregnancy more... and I take that into this pregnancy... don’t get me wrong, I feel enormous, my butt itches freakishly from these shots, I had to avoid nearly everything I love to eat and drink in Europe, I have wicked heartburn, my vag is all weird looking, so sure I’m still struggling with the same offputting things.. pregnancy is not fun!!! but I am also taking moments to appreciate how we the most unlucky parents in the world, are also very much the most lucky parents in the world.
Mama to: Zane William 9/17/03 Vance Xenophon 5/17/06 Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17 Nova Marsela 3/14/18
Any appointments coming up? I had a growth scan this week (Emma is measuring a whole 3 days ahead lol). I go back in 2 weeks for blood work.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I’m doing well. Although my fasting levels are starting to rise again so I’m sure I’ll have to adjust my insulin AGAIN. Ugh.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? I would buy us a new SUV, and the rest would go toward bills so we could stop stressing about money. That would be the life.
Currently sitting at the lab waiting... glucose test. I must say - that drink wasn't too bad actually (I had orange). I was expecting it too be horrendous based on some of the comments on a different thread. 1 hr of sitting and waiting to go. i also have a follow up ultrasound today to follow up on the placement of my uterus and take some updated photos of Lily's heart that they missed last time. I'm looking forward to that appointment as I didn't think I'd get to see her again before she was born. I'm a little sad that DH can't make it to this one.... he's been there for all ultrasounds so it will be strange to do this one alone.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here).
overall I'm good. no major complaints - aside from the usual pregnancy blahs.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on?
I would reno my house and yard. not that it's bad... but the house is old and there are a ton of updates i would like to do.
@senora76@mdfarmchick@ashtuesday Thank you for all the kind words. I am certainly trying my best over here! I think my biggest problem is that I don't like feeling unwell, so the fact that I'll go through approximately 9 months of pregnancy symptoms is just getting to me. Knowing I'm not the only one going through this is helpful, and should help me be more positive about it.
Also with the fiance - I almost think he's still processing the fact that he's got a little one on the way. He's working so hard lately after finding a new job, that the other day he honestly said to me "Occasionally I forget that I'm going to be a father" and looked disappointed in himself for having forgotten. I do think he'll warm up later - I'm thinking once the baby's room is complete he'll realize that it's still very real.
@bb3vj3n Extra chances to see baby are awesome! Hope your testing comes back clear!
@senora76 Good to hear your trips are going well! Sorry you're jet lagged though, hopefully you can get some rest soon.
@kalawa Sorry that your cervix is being stubborn, hope that the scan goes well.
https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/683816 BFP 6/30/16, MC 8/21/16 BFP 05/04/17, 5/10/17 Emergency LAP due to ectopic. Right tube removed. BFP 07/12/17, ECDD 03/25/18 - Silver Orion Born 3/23/18 BFP 09/30/19, EDD 06/11/20
I’m waiting in the lab now. Change of plans, for whatever reason my body reacts terribly to the glucose tolerance test, so they’re doing it a different way this time. That said I’m fasting, it’s almost noon, and I feel like I’m going to pass out.. had I known them changing plans would push the lab out this long I would’ve rescheduled. Yikes.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
I’m doing good pregnancy wise. Unfortunately I have a nasty tooth infection so I’ve been in tons of pain with that since I’m unable to take anything really for pain. Hoping by the 24 hour mark from starting antibiotics I’ll notice even the slightest bit of improvement. I need to see a specialist but the last time they wanted me to the specific office wanted $1000 down the day they saw me. What??????
Also, I start 2 week appts after today— already! What?!!!!
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? Paying off student loans and medical debt. Then put some away for each of the kiddos, into savings, and take a vacation!
ho hum...had my follow up ultrasound today to get those missing photos of baby girls heart. she was literally in the exact same position as last time and they still were unable to feet what they needed - so i go back again in 2 weeks.
I wouldn't mind so much if I was allowed to watch and see my daughter. whenever i go to my usually US office they let me watch... but the hospital never does. they didn't even give me a peek of her today. very disappointed
@mdfarmchick, that is so cool that your DS has felt baby kick. I can't wait for that to happen with DS. I tried telling him the baby was kicking mommy the other day. All that resulted in was him coming over and kicking mommy too. Oops! Guess he doesn't quite understand that concept at 2.5 yet!! LOL
@bb3vj3n, you're Canadian if I remember correctly right? Isn't it so weird how we aren't allowed to see our ultrasounds???? UGH! I've had the odd tech be absolutely fantastic and show me the heartbeat right away and answer my questions. But for the most part they don't let you see anything. Our 20 week ultrasound was in fetal assessment rather than a regular ultrasound because of our losses, and it was so nice to have the nurse show us EVERYTHING as she did it. She talked throughout and explained what was happening. So much better than sitting there in silence for 30 minutes while they poke and prod you. Hopefully at your one in 2 weeks they let you see her! And she's in a good position!!!
@senora76 - I have to say, I really love and am floored by your outlook when it comes to enjoying this pregnancy, since pregnancy made up so much of your time with Mars. It puts things into such clear perspective - for all the worrying us PGAL girls do during pregnancy, it is such an important reminder to appreciate the time we do get with our LOs. I've thought about it a lot since the first time I saw you mention it, and I'm really thankful you shared that with us!
@justkeeptrying just FYI, he had no idea what was going on and didn’t seem to care... And I get plenty of free kicks from him all.the.time, but it was pretty special to see him laying on my belly and my belly move and then his head move. I don’t know how much DS understands at 2, but I think March is going to be a big surprise!
@kalawa I’m thinking and praying for you. I read your conversation in another thread about your cervix and I hope it stops shortening at the least. Please keep us posted. Hugs.
@senora76 I’m so glad you had a great trip and jet lag is the worst! Enjoy those baby kicks and I’m jealous of your three days at Disney World!
@bb3vj3n it still weirds me out how different US are in Canada. I’m sorry you didn’t get to see baby and that you have to go back again.
@chasingroygbiv you seem to have a rough time this pregnancy! I hope you can get your infection resolved without it costing an arm and a leg. Did your glucose test at least go well today?
@mdfarmchick I don’t even know how many antibiotics I’ve taken now this pregnancy. I’ve lost count and I feel so bad for baby. Of course at today’s appt they had me watch an informative video on preterm labor and listed possible causes— one being gum infection... just what I needed to hear! Ugh.
Glucose test went well! No GD, my levels were actually quite low (which I told them is usually the case). So at least there’s that for this week!
@chasingroygbiv so very helpful. Not. Ugh. Hopefully it works and just remember, you need to be as healthy as possible to keep baby as healthy as possible. So while antibiotics aren’t necessarily ideal, they aren’t the worst thing ever.
@justkeeptrying@mdfarmchick .... I've been allowed to watch all of them so far this pregnancy .... but this was the first one I had done at the hospital instead of at a tech's office and I was actually surprised that she didn't even give me a peek at the end.
the only other time I wasnt allowed too watch was also at the hospital - but it was to confirm pregnancy loss, so I understood them telling me that they would not be allowing me to see ( even though i desperately wanted to).
oh well - I'm going to try to not let it bum me out to much. healthy baby is all that matters!
@mdfarmchick I am just hoping for the best. I refuse to Google since we all know where that leads. I will update next week for sure.
And also being from Canada, and never getting to watch US. It was so peculiar (and stressful) to be able to watch my MFM level 2 US...in silence. She was a resident, so she wouldn't talk she said. Then the actual MFM comes in and starts joking with me, showing me baby peeing (bladder was full, and then disappeared ).
*Rant* In regards to my past posts about being angry at the ER doc who said I was MC this baby because my cervix was open 1cm. Is it wrong that I want to throw him my US report saying my cervix is closed...and to never diagnose another woman with a loss when the OB gave you specific instructions not to? *End rant*
@kalawa I don’t think it’s wrong at all to want to throw your US reports at him. And shove your still-pregnant belly in his face. Just maybe the actually doing it, would be wrong. Ha. But when I was pregnant with my first, I ended up in L&D for monitoring after we were rear ended at 34 weeks and again at 37 weeks for what I was sure was leaking amniotic fluid. Both times my experience with L&D was rather crappy. I also went in once because he hadn’t kicked and I was concerned. And I was treated like I didn’t know my own body, like I was wasting their time for coming in, and perhaps worst of all, like I was supposed to just blindly agree with everything that a resident said. Turns out I was leaking amniotic fluid, my water ended up breaking at home and everything ended up okay with a healthy baby. But I don’t think you ever forget when doctors who are supposed to be helping you, instead intentionally alarm you or treat you badly. I went in for monitoring last week to make sure I wasn’t leaking amniotic fluid and I’m at a different hospital this time—the experience was night and day. They encouraged me to come back if anything else happened to even just make me worry, they triple checked to rule out that there was a leak they could find, they told me that I could have a leak up high that is small that is hard to find and would repair itself, and just in general actually took me seriously and used compassion. I hope that the rest of your pregnancy is filled with doctors who take you seriously, who care about you and your precious baby, and medical personnel who use compassion.
@bb3vj3n oh no! Did you fail by a lot or a little? Hopefully everything is fine for your three hour. Hugs.
@mdfarmchick apparently my score should be under 7.8..... anything between that and 11.0 is potential GD so you test again. Anything over 11 is confirmed GD.
Happy Friday ladies! I'm finally feeling a bit more human now...
@bb3vj3n I'm sorry you have to retake your test! since its borderline hopefully you will pass that 3 hour... at least you don't find the drink hideous... I actually love that orange drink... I could easily drink a bottle right now! I am a bit concerned because my prelim I did a few weeks ago had my number about 40 pts higher than with my pregnancy with Mars... at the high end of normal. I get retested at my next appt in mid December... just watching my sugar intake for now to be on the safe side...
@chasingroygbiv there is an old wives tale that says you lose a tooth with every baby... and for me it was kind of true. after my pregnancy with Vance, I had a regular check up and in the x ray they found one of my front molars had "internal resorption" and was literally going to crumble and fall out! $2000 later I have tooth implant!!! Im sorry you are having dental drama - its the worst.
@kalawa In my 41 years I whole heartedly know that western medicine is a practice... it is a practice because everyone is just practicing - drs aren't super humans - and I've found a lot of terrible ones. Some things I've run into- my epidural with Vance was administered by a student (I watched a lot of Greys Anatomy in 2006 and thought what the heck - had the perfect epidural with Zane - what could go wrong)... it did NOT work. It worked on my calves and made me throw up and feel high, but I felt everything... I was told by the MFM with Mars that I should terminate him since my SC would lead to "maternal death" and I already had children to care for... Zane's ear tube fell out and re-fused to his ear drum... and now from removing it he has perm damage... the genius RE we saw in desperation when we lost Mars assuming we'd need help conceiving since I'm so old, told me I have the face of a 35 year old and the eggs of a 45 year old -no way I could conceive at that point... then he went on vacation for 2 MONTHS and when we returned I was pregnant. He told me I have a 40% chance of miscarraige - and that my egg reserve was "shot." I could go on and on but I'll stop there... I must say I am amazed by Chinese Medicine - within 3 mos of accupuncture and taking ancient chinese herbs, plus the supplement CoQnol - my irregular cycles tightened up, and I was pregnant at 41 beating the odds. I have a lot more faith in chinese medicine than western medicine!
@ashtuesday Thank you I feel like I am not strong enough to be a philanthropist as others who have suffered a loss like ours... like @syssa-o who throws charitable benefits in her daughter's honor, or my good friend who I met through babycenter who also lost a son to SIDS at daycare like me, she also is so strong to give back and pay it forward... so at the very least, I'm glad I can be a little inspirational by the way I see things now.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend - im off to Disneyworld on an insane red eye tomorrow night (what was I thinking?!?!)
Mama to: Zane William 9/17/03 Vance Xenophon 5/17/06 Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17 Nova Marsela 3/14/18
@senora76 NO WAY! I have a tooth that’s currently going to eventually do the same! Unfortunately due to a genetic disorder I struggle in the dental department no matter the care I give my teeth and I was actually born missing several teeth, so I’ll eventually need a few implants. For now I have a bridge and it works (can’t tell), but it’s not ideal.. for me anyway! How was the implant procedure for you? I would already have it done if it weren’t so costly considering I need at least 8.
@bb3vj3n, ugh that sucks! I hope you pass the 3 hour one. I remember just bawling when I failed my 1 hour test with DS because I felt like I did something wrong. But now I realize it's so beyond our control and has nothing to do with us. I ended up passing the 3 hour one with him, but I am SO nervous about taking it this time around. I hope you pass the 3 hour one!
@chasingroygbiv my bad tooth felt really unstable- I thought I was just getting older so I wasnt shocked something was wrong with it- just shocked that a root canal or crown wouldnt fix the issue, that my only outcome was that I’d lose the tooth. I was told that I could easily get the tooth extracted and implant put in the same day (as you know the implant process is at least 2 steps with 3 mos inbetween) so I was hoping to do that but my wonky anatomy had my nerve freakishly close to the socket so I had to get a bone graft first... all this kept adding up and I had to split the procedures between 2 calendar years to get insurance to cover 50% of it...first extraction/bone graft, then i waited til the next year (had to wait 3 mos anyway) implant surgery, than another 3 mos til i got the crown (which was another $1000) My husband is european and missing a few teeth too... he has a bridge for one gap and is strategizing his implant plan for the others... i see him messing with his bridge sometimes so i know it bugs him- the diff between the 2 is that the implant is stronger and helps you keep your bone in tact since there is a placeholder in your bone...so it is superior to a bridge BUT not without its issues- i used cheap floss from my MIL in Spain and got some of the stringy cheap floss stuck under the implant and couldnt get it out! sometimes food gets stuck too so I carry floss... despite all that.. I’ve had it for about 7-8 years now and have been very happy with it.
The bonegraft/extraction left me very very sore for days- but the actual implant surgery was an easy recovery! I paid $80 extra to get IV sedation so I was out cold... Did not want to be awake for either one!!!!
Sorry to all you ladies who have learned way more than you needed to know about dental implants LOL!
Mama to: Zane William 9/17/03 Vance Xenophon 5/17/06 Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17 Nova Marsela 3/14/18
Any appointments coming up? Not until the end of the month.
How are you doing? Meh. I've been having terrible anxiety and panic attacks over the last night. I felt really good my first pregnancy so this has been tough.
GTKY: If you were handed $100,000 right now, what would be the first thing you'd spend it on? Pay off the mortgage or go on a nice beach vacation.
@mommytron, I hope the side effects decrease soon for you! A lot of my friends find Zoloft very helpful for their anxiety. I hope it gives you some relief!
@mommytron have you tried switching to taking it at night? And how has your doctor started you on it? Mine was every other day for two weeks and then every day after that. Then if you were going up to 50 mg, it would be every other day of the full dose for two weeks before taking a full dose every day.
Re: PGAL Check In (Week of Nov. 29)
How far along are you? 23+3
**TW in Spoiler**
BFP 6/30/16, MC 8/21/16
BFP 05/04/17, 5/10/17 Emergency LAP due to ectopic. Right tube removed.
BFP 07/12/17, ECDD 03/25/18 - Silver Orion Born 3/23/18
BFP 09/30/19, EDD 06/11/20
@SoraLk - my husband's response was also underwhelming at first - he'd just kind of smile at me and that was it. Now that baby's stronger, he says the same thing as @justkeeptrying 's husband - "Was that you moving?!" - and gets much more excited, and I find it much more rewarding. Maybe your fiance will go through the same change of heart.
@justkeeptrying - I'm so glad you're having a good week and feeling positive! Keep those vibes going!!!
I had my regular appointment today, and do the glucose screening. I still feel awful from that darn drink. My next appointment is the end of December and then after that I go to appointments every two weeks. That made this seem even more real. Lol.
I’m doing okay. 2.0 was super still last night and this morning when I woke up which freaked me out a little and with my glucose test today, I didn’t want to mess it up with sugar or caffeine so I didn’t do any of my usual tricks to get him moving. But he “woke up” a couple hours later than normal and I got my kick counts in and felt better about it. Plus a good heartbeat on the Doppler today.
I’m so boring... it would all go towards any debt we had and I’d spend a little on things for the boys. I need a dresser and chest of drawers for both of their rooms and I’d buy things like the double stroller and mini crib to finish off what I need for the nursery. If I decided to splurge, I’d get myself an Apple Watch.
@SoraLk there’s another thread on here that talks about how it’s okay to not like or love pregnancy and still love the baby. I think pregnancy has some really hard moments and I’ve never been that magical unicorn pregnant lady with the glow and the everything is rainbows. Also, I hope your fiancé gets a little more excited as things get closer—some guys just don’t get excited until Baby is here.
@ashtuesday yay for a great appointment that relieved you guys! I’ve been doing the same in regards to food and exercise but with my first, the biggest weight gain happened in the last month. Ha. Hopefully I don’t do that again.
25w6d
I just had my last level 2 US, and have my glucose test next week. Also, I have another US next week because my level 2 US showed that my cervix was short...2.5cm to be exact.
How far along are you? 22+5
@justkeeptrying thats amazing DH finally felt the baby... it took forever for us too and a lot of “feel this” and then nothing lol
@SoraLk I did not enjoy my first 3 pregnancies at all. I would often say that I should have just adopted because I love being a mom so much but really hate being pregnant... All i did was worry and feel uncomfortable... only wanting to get to the birth (i do love that part). I felt no shame or guilt saying I disliked pregnancy because honestly not everyone loves it.. I know I sound like a broken record here, but had I known most of the time
I’d have with Mars would be in my body...I would have enjoyed his pregnancy more... and I take that into this pregnancy... don’t get me wrong, I feel enormous, my butt itches freakishly from these shots, I had to avoid nearly everything I love to eat and drink in Europe, I have wicked heartburn, my vag is all weird looking, so sure I’m still struggling with the same offputting things.. pregnancy is not fun!!! but I am also taking moments to appreciate how we the most unlucky parents in the world, are also very much the most lucky parents in the world.
Zane William 9/17/03
Vance Xenophon 5/17/06
Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17
Nova Marsela 3/14/18
27 weeks today!
I had a growth scan this week (Emma is measuring a whole 3 days ahead lol). I go back in 2 weeks for blood work.
I’m doing well. Although my fasting levels are starting to rise again so I’m sure I’ll have to adjust my insulin AGAIN. Ugh.
I would buy us a new SUV, and the rest would go toward bills so we could stop stressing about money. That would be the life.
overall I'm good. no major complaints - aside from the usual pregnancy blahs.
I would reno my house and yard. not that it's bad... but the house is old and there are a ton of updates i would like to do.
Also with the fiance - I almost think he's still processing the fact that he's got a little one on the way. He's working so hard lately after finding a new job, that the other day he honestly said to me "Occasionally I forget that I'm going to be a father" and looked disappointed in himself for having forgotten. I do think he'll warm up later - I'm thinking once the baby's room is complete he'll realize that it's still very real.
@bb3vj3n Extra chances to see baby are awesome! Hope your testing comes back clear!
@senora76 Good to hear your trips are going well! Sorry you're jet lagged though, hopefully you can get some rest soon.
@kalawa Sorry that your cervix is being stubborn, hope that the scan goes well.
@ashtuesday What wonderful news! So awesome!
**TW in Spoiler**
BFP 6/30/16, MC 8/21/16
BFP 05/04/17, 5/10/17 Emergency LAP due to ectopic. Right tube removed.
BFP 07/12/17, ECDD 03/25/18 - Silver Orion Born 3/23/18
BFP 09/30/19, EDD 06/11/20
Also, I start 2 week appts after today— already! What?!!!!
Paying off student loans and medical debt. Then put some away for each of the kiddos, into savings, and take a vacation!
I wouldn't mind so much if I was allowed to watch and see my daughter. whenever i
go to my usually US office they let me watch... but the hospital never does. they didn't even give me a peek of her today. very disappointed
@bb3vj3n, you're Canadian if I remember correctly right? Isn't it so weird how we aren't allowed to see our ultrasounds???? UGH! I've had the odd tech be absolutely fantastic and show me the heartbeat right away and answer my questions. But for the most part they don't let you see anything. Our 20 week ultrasound was in fetal assessment rather than a regular ultrasound because of our losses, and it was so nice to have the nurse show us EVERYTHING as she did it. She talked throughout and explained what was happening. So much better than sitting there in silence for 30 minutes while they poke and prod you. Hopefully at your one in 2 weeks they let you see her! And she's in a good position!!!
@kalawa I’m thinking and praying for you. I read your conversation in another thread about your cervix and I hope it stops shortening at the least. Please keep us posted. Hugs.
@senora76 I’m so glad you had a great trip and jet lag is the worst! Enjoy those baby kicks and I’m jealous of your three days at Disney World!
@BrittnieMariee yay for good appointments!
@bb3vj3n it still weirds me out how different US are in Canada. I’m sorry you didn’t get to see baby and that you have to go back again.
@chasingroygbiv you seem to have a rough time this pregnancy! I hope you can get your infection resolved without it costing an arm and a leg. Did your glucose test at least go well today?
Glucose test went well! No GD, my levels were actually quite low (which I told them is usually the case). So at least there’s that for this week!
the only other time I wasnt allowed too watch was also at the hospital - but it was to confirm pregnancy loss, so I understood them telling me that they would not be allowing me to see ( even though i desperately wanted to).
oh well - I'm going to try to not let it bum me out to much. healthy baby is all that matters!
And also being from Canada, and never getting to watch US. It was so peculiar (and stressful) to be able to watch my MFM level 2 US...in silence. She was a resident, so she wouldn't talk she said. Then the actual MFM comes in and starts joking with me, showing me baby peeing (bladder was full, and then disappeared ).
*Rant* In regards to my past posts about being angry at the ER doc who said I was MC this baby because my cervix was open 1cm. Is it wrong that I want to throw him my US report saying my cervix is closed...and to never diagnose another woman with a loss when the OB gave you specific instructions not to? *End rant*
my doc hasn't called me yet but the lab I use allowed you to check your results online... so I've already seen them
Damn....
@bb3vj3n oh no! Did you fail by a lot or a little? Hopefully everything is fine for your three hour. Hugs.
I scored 8.7
@bb3vj3n I'm sorry you have to retake your test! since its borderline hopefully you will pass that 3 hour... at least you don't find the drink hideous... I actually love that orange drink... I could easily drink a bottle right now! I am a bit concerned because my prelim I did a few weeks ago had my number about 40 pts higher than with my pregnancy with Mars... at the high end of normal. I get retested at my next appt in mid December... just watching my sugar intake for now to be on the safe side...
@chasingroygbiv there is an old wives tale that says you lose a tooth with every baby... and for me it was kind of true. after my pregnancy with Vance, I had a regular check up and in the x ray they found one of my front molars had "internal resorption" and was literally going to crumble and fall out! $2000 later I have tooth implant!!! Im sorry you are having dental drama - its the worst.
@kalawa In my 41 years I whole heartedly know that western medicine is a practice... it is a practice because everyone is just practicing - drs aren't super humans - and I've found a lot of terrible ones. Some things I've run into- my epidural with Vance was administered by a student (I watched a lot of Greys Anatomy in 2006 and thought what the heck - had the perfect epidural with Zane - what could go wrong)... it did NOT work. It worked on my calves and made me throw up and feel high, but I felt everything... I was told by the MFM with Mars that I should terminate him since my SC would lead to "maternal death" and I already had children to care for... Zane's ear tube fell out and re-fused to his ear drum... and now from removing it he has perm damage... the genius RE we saw in desperation when we lost Mars assuming we'd need help conceiving since I'm so old, told me I have the face of a 35 year old and the eggs of a 45 year old -no way I could conceive at that point... then he went on vacation for 2 MONTHS and when we returned I was pregnant. He told me I have a 40% chance of miscarraige - and that my egg reserve was "shot." I could go on and on but I'll stop there... I must say I am amazed by Chinese Medicine - within 3 mos of accupuncture and taking ancient chinese herbs, plus the supplement CoQnol - my irregular cycles tightened up, and I was pregnant at 41 beating the odds. I have a lot more faith in chinese medicine than western medicine!
@ashtuesday Thank you I feel like I am not strong enough to be a philanthropist as others who have suffered a loss like ours... like @syssa-o who throws charitable benefits in her daughter's honor, or my good friend who I met through babycenter who also lost a son to SIDS at daycare like me, she also is so strong to give back and pay it forward... so at the very least, I'm glad I can be a little inspirational by the way I see things now.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend - im off to Disneyworld on an insane red eye tomorrow night (what was I thinking?!?!)
Zane William 9/17/03
Vance Xenophon 5/17/06
Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17
Nova Marsela 3/14/18
edit: because the keyboard on TB app really does do weird autocorrections that I don’t get anywhere else.
Zane William 9/17/03
Vance Xenophon 5/17/06
Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17
Nova Marsela 3/14/18
my MIL in Spain and got some of the stringy cheap floss stuck under the implant and couldnt get it out! sometimes food gets stuck too so I carry floss... despite all that.. I’ve had it for about 7-8 years now and have been very happy with it.
The bonegraft/extraction left me very very sore for days- but the actual implant surgery was an easy recovery! I paid $80 extra to get IV sedation so I was out cold... Did not want to be awake for either one!!!!
Sorry to all you ladies who have learned way more than you needed to know about dental implants LOL!
Zane William 9/17/03
Vance Xenophon 5/17/06
Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17
Nova Marsela 3/14/18
27 weeks
Not until the end of the month.
Meh. I've been having terrible anxiety and panic attacks over the last night. I felt really good my first pregnancy so this has been tough.
Pay off the mortgage or go on a nice beach vacation.
I hope that everyone's weekend is going well.