I have seen a few other ladies mention they went through IF treatments to get to this point, so please feel free to share as much or as little as you want!
1. How far along are you?
2. What treatment was successful for you?
3. How are you feeling?
4. Upcoming appointments?
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas?
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2. What treatment was successful for you? FET with ICSI and PGS... failed first transfer
3. How are you feeling? Scared but optimistic. Still not connected to the baby at all out of fear.
4. Upcoming appointments? Monday for #2 ultrasound
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? We didn’t really celebrate. Still just nervous. Maybe once I get past my 20 week scan. That was when I figured out I lost my last baby :-(.
2. What treatment was successful for you? FET. The two before it failed, but this was the same batch of embryos that we got our daughter from
3. How are you feeling? I will feel a lot better after my next appointment when they find a heartbeat. It was still too early at my last appointment
4. Upcoming appointments? Thursday for the 2nd US
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? We just went out to eat, nothing major. I had a super stressful day from waiting for the call, I just didn't feel like cooking that night. We are pretty low key people though, so it was fitting for us
So this does apply to me...I feel like we belong in every special group available - FTM, over 35, plus size, and IF.
1. How far along are you? 5w1d
2. What treatment was successful for you?
IVF with ICSI, first attempt
3. How are you feeling? Fine. Wish i had more symptoms, which is so weird, but I’ve just had a couple waves of nausea and that makes me nervous.
4. Upcoming appointments?
first sono on Monday at 8:30 with Fertility Treatment Dr. First reg ob appointment on 12/7. Excited, nervous. May get another home pregnancy test just to confirm the blood tests, because they were awhile ago...is this crazy?
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas?
Just dinner. I had a cute little thing prepared for telling my husband, but he stayed out hunting (knowing full well we were expecting results!) until late that night so it was kind of an uneventful moment.
I have about...13 used pregnancy tests in my bottom bathroom drawer. All FRERs or Clearblue Digis. So like $90 worth of pregnancy tests. I tested out my trigger, but it never went away and so I was having to compare the darkness of the lines. I got what I thought was a false positive on 8dpo but didn't believe the tests until 11dpo when I turned a digital.
1. How far along are you? 5 Weeks 3 days
2. What treatment was successful for you? I feel incredibly lucky. It was my 4th round of Femara (2nd round at 7.5 mg) and TI, first time using a trigger shot. I think the odds were like 10-15% chance of success. MH and I were so shocked and we keep saying that we should go out and buy a lottery ticket.
3. How are you feeling? Wishing that I had a little screen in my abdomen so that I could make sure that this baby is ok. It's weird - even though I'm pregnant and am over the moon about it, I'm just now realizing that infertility doesn't go away after a positive pregnancy test. I'm still irrationally angry at other random women for being pregnant if I don't know that they've had to struggle for it. I had wanted to eventually do some kind of facebook pregnancy announcement, but I saw one just today and it STILL hurt even though I already knew the woman was pregnant. So I've changed my mind about it and am only going to tell people in person (or by text to the friend of mine going through IF). I keep trying to use the "power of positive thinking" (or whatever) on this baby and just keep telling myself over and over that my baby is healthy.
4. Upcoming appointments? First ultrasound is Monday 11/27 at 8am.
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? When I turned the digital test, my husband was taking a nap in the bedroom and I just came out of the bathroom and said "Oh my God, I think I'm pregnant." After the second beta showed a good rise, I went to a very fancy baby store in town and bought an expensive onesie.
I posted about it in another thread, but I am struggling on how to break it to family since I know my cousin has experienced loss, infertility, failed transfers, etc., and this will be my second success. I know she will be happy for me, but every scenario of me telling her just feels tacky. I didn't do any special announcements on the first one to family or anything (other than our parents and siblings, who we just told over the phone), I just posted an ultrasound photo one day. I am torn on whether I should tell people one on one before or at our christmas get together, or just not even really acknowledge it. I'm just so socially awkward when it comes to this type of thing.
Totally understand your feelings. I get jealous when I see visibly pregnant women. Even though I am pregnant! I’m just so paranoid that I’m not going to make it that far. The odds are in my favor, I’m just scared.
I did suppositories my last pregnancy, this time I am on shots. If you use the applicator, just put it way up there. Some will come out throughout the day in sort of a mucus, kind of chalky though, but that's normal. I just put panty liners on. They had me doing it 3 times per day plus taking a pill
1. How far along are you? 5 + 6
2. What treatment was successful for you? Due to MFI we had to go straight to IVF with ICSI. This was our first frozen transfer and first pregnancy ever.
3. How are you feeling? Worried mainly. I think being on TB so long I have seen so many women with IF or not suffer loss so I know what the odds are. I am hoping I will relax a little after the first ultrasound if all is well and I see a HB. I keep worrying over every twinge. The past 2 days I’ve had mild shoulder tip pain which makes me worry that it’s a leaking ectopic. I know it’s ridiculous and I need to stop but it’s hard.
4. Upcoming appointments? Tuesday will be my first ultrasound!
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? Nothing really. When I got the first positive test we had guests over so I just showed DH in our room with a onesie that I’ve been hiding for over a year.
@Lelo2006 I am on the gel not the tabs which stay in just fine until (TMI) the excess that is not absorbed comes out.
@beanship you are not alone in the IF bitterness. I think especially since it’s so early and I don’t know if I will make it that far, I still feel bitter when I see visibly pregnant women or women with small babies. Also even though I don’t know their history I still think ‘it must be so nice to just get pregnant within a few months of trying and not have to go through painful procedures or go into debt for it.’ I remember one wise person in the IF thread said once when you see those people, instead of thinking ‘I wish that were me’ to think ‘that will be me soon.’ I’m going to try to keep that in mind at least when I see visibly pregnant women or people with small babies.
@cocopuff2018 I waited until 8dpt to test so it was pretty obvious by then but I have not stopped testing. I did another test yesterday to see if the test line is darker than the control line now. And this is on top of the 3 betas that I have had at my clinic. I feel like it reassures me a bit that the peanut is still fighting.
@Crystal321 if I were your cousin I would appreciate at least a heads up before someone else tells me. I think the easiest thing is a text. I know it sounds tacky and impersonal but it gives the person time to process without having to reply right away or worrying about how you will interpret their tone or voice. Just be honest and say something along the lines of ‘I know you are struggling and that’s why I wanted you to hear this from me first...’ I’m sure she would appreciate that. I don’t know for your family but in mine as long as some know then it’s just a matter of time before everyone knows, even if you ask them to keep it quiet.
@Lelo2006 I totally get the paranoia - I think that's part of my problem too. I'm worried that I won't make it that far. I'm on progesterone suppositories 2x a day but mine are from a compounding pharmacy and are super tiny. I just insert the applicator as far up there as it can go and lie down really fast haha.
1. How far along are you? 8w2d--1 little boy
2. What treatment was successful for you? IVF with PGS. This was our 3rd round 5th transfer for baby # 2. I kept having chemical losses with euploid embryos..sooo frustrating. Honestly, I'm in total shock it worked this time.
3. How are you feeling? Like crap. I had hyperemis gravidarum with my first and am thankfully not quite as sick this time, but still multiple bouts of vomiting every day and constant nausea.
4. Upcoming appointments? Had first ultrasound at 7 weeks and all looked good. Go to my first actual OB appointment on Wednesday (11/29) and I can't wait/am super nervous.
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? I was too afraid to do anything. After the previous 4 ended in chemical I pretty much just laid on the couch afraid to move for a while..
I don't know if anyone else here has been prescribed Metformin, but today my nurse practitioner said that she wanted to take me off of it in 2 weeks. I really really don't want to go off of the Metformin because I'm pretty sure I'll get gestational diabetes if I go off of it. I gained like 15 lbs (on a small frame) in a short period of time and tried to lose it for an entire year with no success, to the point of going to a dietitian who said that she didn't know why I couldn't lose weight with my diet (at that time around 1300 calories per day) and regular exercise. And then I got on Metformin, started eating normal amounts of food again, and lost 5 pounds over 6 months. Also the Metformin appears to have fixed a digestion/bowel problem that I've been dealing with my entire life. She said that she's never had anyone request to stay on the Metformin before but will ask the doctor if it's okay. Well, first she said "I don't think you should be concerned about weight gain during pregnancy." Umm yeah, I should be concerned about EXCESS weight gain that's far over and above the guidelines for a healthy pregnancy. And I only mentioned the weight issue because it's my main evidence that my PCOS was causing some serious problems with the way my body used insulin. I mean, everything I've been reading on the internet says Metformin is completely safe during pregnancy and prevents gestational diabetes in a lot of women with PCOS (according to a couple of scientific studies that look legit to me). I guess I'm just confused as to why my RE hasn't really considered this. It just never occurred to me that I'd have to advocate so forcefully for staying on this medicine that has clearly done so much to regulate my hormones and insulin.
I had a great ultrasound this morning but my progesterone dropped from 60 to 17 in a week, which of course freaks me out. It’s literally 3 step step forward and two steps back with IVF, except there’s no Paula Abdul or weird cartoon cat.
1. How far along are you? 7 weeks 6 days! Was measuring in at 7 weeks 4 days.
2. What treatment was successful for you? After coming off of birth control for the first time in 13 years, my cycles never started up again. I tried everything from herbal supplements, super high quality prenatals, gaining weight, stopped working out, acupuncture, "progesterone challenges" - nothing was working and my OB was really unhelpful. I had no symptoms of PCOS except off-the-charts AMH (11, yes, 11) which everyone insisted was "good". I had quit taking BC for the purpose of trying to get pregnant, so everything felt out of control and my entire life plan was up in the air. After 9 months I ended up finding a fertility coach/acupuncturist who suggested several supplements - I'm curious if this would have worked on its own, but that same month I caved and went to an RE to start medicated cycles/monitoring. First month on letrozole + trigger shot didn't work, but the second month I had an HSG procedure done, had two follicles, and got pregnant
3. How are you feeling? Nausea just started, but it's welcome because I know it's a good thing. I've never been so tired in my life and my nipples are so sore! Still super anxious about miscarriage - after having so much trouble getting pregnant it's hard to trust your body to sustain it.
4. Upcoming appointments? Just "graduated" from my RE and have my first OB appointment in two weeks.
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? Stay cautiously optimistic.
1. How far along are you? 7+2
2. What treatment was successful for you? We were successful on our third and final IUI (which we almost didn't even do)
3. How are you feeling? Pretty good. Some of the anxiety has started to alleviate, and I finally feel like I can start to get excited without jinxing myself.
4. Upcoming appointments? Go back for what may be my final check with the RE on Friday.
GTKY: What, if anything, did you do to celebrate your positive betas? First, ugly cry. Second, go buy pregnancy tests just so I could see it.
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
@Pinky917 @crystal321 I found and listened to one of the Beat Infertility podcasts on infertility survivor's guilt and found it somewhat helpful. I liked how it said that we can't compare our own infertility experiences to someone else's.
Also, I've decided I hate the phrase "infertility journey" because it makes it sound like infertility is in some way like a nice little jaunt in the country with a definite end when everybody goes home. It's more like a war zone purgatory where everyone comes out with some degree of trauma.