March 2018 Moms
justkeeptrying
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How far along are you?
PGAL Check In (Week of 11/22)
justkeeptrying
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This is a safe space for those who are pregnant after a loss. General TW for this thread.
How far along are you?
Any appointments coming up?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
GTKY: What does your screen name represent/mean?
Re: PGAL Check In (Week of 11/22)
losing our son just to have him back alive in our arms again... I owe it to his legacy to live life honoring everything he’s taught us. We just cannot wait to meet our Nova Marsela❤️ but know she needs her time in me. I just try to channel all my love to her for now.
with my sons but wanted to be a tribe with them all... so I married “the Spaniard” and moved my older son’s last name to my middle name and took DHs paternal last names and suddenly I was this Señora with and enormous double Spanish last name... 76 is when I was born. PS In Spain they dont ever change last names in marriage so my Spanish national last name was pulled from my birth certificate and is two totally different last names: my dad’s last name (maiden name) followed by my mom’s maiden name...so if/when we move to spain none this silly name change stuff even counts haha
@justkeeptrying I always have secretly sung your screen name to myself like Dory lol just keep trying just keep trying to the tune of just keep swiming LOL
Zane William 9/17/03
Vance Xenophon 5/17/06
Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17
Nova Marsela 3/14/18
quite a few... glucose test next Thursday, and a follow up US to check on my placenta placement next Thursday. They are also retaking photos of our little girls heart as they didn't get all the angles they needed last time. Next OB isn't for another 3 weeks though.
pretty good. Lots and LOTS of kicking going on in there over the last 48hrs. i can also see my stomach move now when she gives a big kick - which is pretty cool. up until now, DH has said he can feel her... but barely. Yesterday he got some big kicks and really truly undeniably felt her - so he found that pretty exciting.
We finally have 100% settled on a name. We thought we had one - "Stella" but we've changed it now and are so in love we won't be changing it again as this new name has special meaning to us. So - baby girl is officially "Lily Jane E".
We've been working on the nursery a lot this week and are now installing the floors. DH asked me where he should put something the other day and I just instinctively responded "in Lily's room. It was the first time I had used her name when talking about her and it felt so right.
it's just a play on my married name... nothing overly special.
@senora76 enjoy your trip! well deserved and needed and I know how much you've been looking forward to it. have an amazing time!
@bb3vj3n - What a beautiful name! My husband and I use our daughter's name all the time, but we're keeping it a secret from everyone else until she's born - it's coming so natural to us now, we're terrified of slipping up and saying it in public!
@senora76, I think it's wonderful that you have already named Nova and are able to connect with her on that level. I have to stop myself sometimes from saying "I can't wait to meet this baby". After having "met" our last baby at 15 weeks gestation, I know deep down that I WANT to wait until March to meet this baby.
We know the sex of our baby and aren't telling anyone and it's killing me! We haven't picked a name yet, and I really want to. I feel it will help me to connect.
After 3 back to back losses I feel like I’ve been chasing “our rainbow” ROY-G-BIV..
We also have named baby but aren’t telling again, just like with DD. Makes for a fun surprise aaaaand... no one to tell me I should choose a different name because once baby is named, baby is named. Too bad for them! The only person that would do this though is DH’s grandma. She’s annoying about names. We already broke tradition by not using the family middle name with DD.. and we aren’t again. And I don’t care. Hahahaha
Regular OB appointment next Wednesday with my glucose test.
Well today was kind of scary. I had some leaking this am that resembled the amniotic fluid that I leaked with DS so after calling the nurses line, they sent me to L&D to get checked out. Everyone was so incredibly nice—baby boy was kicking away in there the whole time so that was reassuring. They triple checked and said they couldn’t find a leak and did an ultrasound to check my amniotic fluid levels—they were good. Then they told me before I left that I did the right thing by coming in, to come back if I experienced it again, and that if it’s a small prick up high, it’s very hard to catch. Completely different experience than when I had a leak with my first, but it’s a different hospital.
It was still terrifying and I think the scariest part was when the nurse on the phone asked me where I wanted to have my baby. I said “I want to have my baby in March.” Major sympathy for the moms who deliver early. I had a small taste of that terror today and it was awful.
I grew up on a farm in MD.
@justkeeptrying I, too, sing the song from Finding Nemo whenever I see your screen name and I love it.
@senora76 I hope you guys have a wonderful trip to Spain. I know that you have all been looking forward to it and I hope it makes this month and next month a little easier. Also, I love her name.
@bb3vj3n I love the name Lily! I think having a name makes it more real as well. And baby kicks are so reassuring.
@ashtuesday honestly I think it is just a balance that every mom figures out for herself. You will still be a kick ass mom and a wonderful teacher.
@chasingroygbiv I love your screen name too. And I’ve been unofficially doing kick counts as well since he is so active and almost guaranteed to kick any time that I am sitting down. It also makes me feel better.
It is the first two letters of my first name. And just nonsense after haha.
26+1
I had my appointment with my endocrinologist on Tuesday and I’m still doing awesome with my GD. Next week I have a growth scan to see how Miss Emma is doing and I’m so excited for it!!
I’m doing well. Just so exhausted. I hosted Thanksgiving for the first time this year and I’m so tired from all of the cleaning, cooking, and still caring for DS. Like, whyyyy do dad’s still get to sleep in when mom’s have to get up with the baby?? Also, some help with housework would be GREAT.
It’s just my name lol
Any appointments coming up?
im waiting to hear back from a gestational diabetes counselor, I got my “very high” 3 hour glucose tolerance test results just before she left the office on Friday, but the person in the office I spoke to said she would call Monday and get me scheduled right away.
GTKY: What does your screen name represent/mean? It is just my first name and middle name.
@senora76 where in Spain? I lived in Grenada for about a year when I was 20 and just loved it. I think Mars and Nova are both really great names. I’m so sorry you are missing him extra hard, your love for him comes through in every word you write about him.
eta: autocorrect problems
with us, but fortunately his NICU stay was short.. I’ve actually heard stories of no NICU with 33-34 week deliveries if they give steroid shots to help develop the lungs... hopefully it won’t come to that, but it’s wonderful they are monitoring you closely. We are in barcelona mainly but currently on a little road trip north, in Girona at the moment heading into France tomorrow... I wish I spent my youth traveling like you! I think one of the other girls here lived abroad as well-I think @mdfarmchick lived in London, if I’m not mistaken... shoulda, woulda, coulda... bet your Spanish is a lot better than mine!
Zane William 9/17/03
Vance Xenophon 5/17/06
Mars Florencio 11/15/16 - 3/6/17
Nova Marsela 3/14/18