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National pregnancy and infant loss day! *TW loss mentioned*

rainbows2018rainbows2018 member
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It’s almost 7PM here on the east coast and I will be lighting a candle in memory of my 4 angels who I didn’t get to bring home. This is also almost 1 year since my first mc. Anyone else with me? We are members of a club that no one ever wants to join.

Fly high my babies! Until we meet again. 
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Re: National pregnancy and infant loss day! *TW loss mentioned*

  • coco305coco305 member
    Lots of hugs to you @rainbows2018 this cannot be an easy day. 
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  • dragonette505dragonette505 member
    Yup! I will share what I shared on my ivf insta account:


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  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    You're right it's a club you never want to be a part of for sure!!  Lost my twins earlier this year and miss them everyday.  Sorry for your losses!






    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • Aera11Aera11 member
    @rainbows2018 I am sorry for your losses; the anniversaries of any loss are so difficult.  September marked two years since my first mc/cp and January will be two years for my second m/c.  Those days aren't ever easy.  Thinking of anyone who has had to walk that road.
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  • rainbows2018rainbows2018 member
    Thank you ladies your support and kind words. @dragonette505 beautifully said. I too let my armour aside and let myself cry for a bit - it was soothing, But let’s not give up hope for things will change and we will be holding our little ones soon. 
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  • dragonette505dragonette505 member
    rainbows2018 said:
    Thank you ladies your support and kind words. @dragonette505 beautifully said. I too let my armour aside and let myself cry for a bit - it was soothing, But let’s not give up hope for things will change and we will be holding our little ones soon. 
    Yes! I’m still hopeful... that’s why we are here! Today we can get back on the saddle and make some babies! :)
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  • cseley321cseley321 member
    I have had 5 losses, 4 of them were super early, but this still haunts me almost daily. I haven't really had an explanation for the losses which makes it that much worse for me. If I could put a label on WHY, it would help me I think.
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  • dragonette505dragonette505 member
    @Crystal321 So sorry you don't have the closure for your losses :(  I try to take the little comfort my docs give me when they say: at least we know you CAN get pregnant. Now keeping my fingers crossed we can find a way to STAY pregnant.
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  • cseley321cseley321 member
    @dragonette505 It will happen :) just stay positive
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  • rainbows2018rainbows2018 member
    @Crystal321sorry for your losses. Exactly like @dragonette505 said - being able to get pregnant is still a good sign. I don’t have an explanation for mine either - the MD suspects poor egg quality so hoping IVF is the answer for me. 
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