Hello everyone. Sorry to be joining this group but I have been lurking and can see how supportive and wonderful everyone is.
I went in for my first 8 week scan last week and the doctor told me there was no heart beat and the baby was only measuring 6 weeks with a very large yolk sack. I tried cytotec during the week because I just needed it to be over but unfortunately it did absolutely nothing. My doctor scheduled me for a d&c on Tuesday. I am nervous but eager for this all to be over.
We we want to start ttc again as soon as possible. My doctor says there's no reason to wait beyond 2 weeks (for infection risk post d&c). My question is, how will I ever not be a crazy paranoid person in my next pregnancy? I feel like this has ruined the experience of being pregnant because, despite the baby being technically gone, I still feel pregnant. I literally had no idea anything was wrong until the scan and now I don't know how I'll be able to enjoy being pregnant. Or at the very least not be a paranoid wreck.
I feel like im dealing okay with the loss but I worry about my next pregnancy.