TTC After a Loss
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Hi everyone,
*To state the obvious, many TW below*
I'm sadly coming over here from the March 2018 BMB, after finding out last week that I had a non-viable pregnancy. I had gotten my BFP on June 25, and was over the moon because we had been trying for our second. I wasn't sure of my exact dates because I didn't have a LMP to use for dating (I had been breastfeeding my son, so didn't have a period since before I was pregnant with him), so they had me come in for a dating ultrasound on July 11, which should have been about 6 weeks by my guess since I was temping and charting.
At the scan on July 11, all they saw were (two) gestational sacs, but nothing else, so they just assumed that my dates were off and that I wasn't as far along as I thought. Considering when I got my BFP, part of me knew that I couldn't have been much earlier by then, but I remained optimistic until my follow up scan three weeks later.
They had me come back last week for a second dating ultrasound, and as soon as they started, I knew things were not good. They still only saw the gestational sacs, and nothing had developed in them, and there was obviously no heartbeat at what should have been 8-9 weeks along.
The doctor gave me the options of waiting for my body to miscarry naturally, to use medication to move things along, or to have a D&C. After painfully going back and forth with the decision, I decided to have the D&C last Friday so that I could at least control that part of it, and so that I could hopefully try to move forward. I couldn't bring myself to wait for my body to take over, since it had already been three weeks of no development, and I hadn't even started spotting or bleeding yet.
Now, my husband and I are waiting until I'm in the clear, and then will start trying again. I know physically I will be ready before I am mentally, so I'm trying to do my best to focus on anything positive that I can. I know that unfortunately you all know what I'm feeling right now, but no one can adequately prepare you for what it's like to have a loss, and I'm just finding it really hard to deal with.
I hope to be active on this board, since it seems like a great supportive community.
*To state the obvious, many TW below*
I'm sadly coming over here from the March 2018 BMB, after finding out last week that I had a non-viable pregnancy. I had gotten my BFP on June 25, and was over the moon because we had been trying for our second. I wasn't sure of my exact dates because I didn't have a LMP to use for dating (I had been breastfeeding my son, so didn't have a period since before I was pregnant with him), so they had me come in for a dating ultrasound on July 11, which should have been about 6 weeks by my guess since I was temping and charting.
At the scan on July 11, all they saw were (two) gestational sacs, but nothing else, so they just assumed that my dates were off and that I wasn't as far along as I thought. Considering when I got my BFP, part of me knew that I couldn't have been much earlier by then, but I remained optimistic until my follow up scan three weeks later.
They had me come back last week for a second dating ultrasound, and as soon as they started, I knew things were not good. They still only saw the gestational sacs, and nothing had developed in them, and there was obviously no heartbeat at what should have been 8-9 weeks along.
The doctor gave me the options of waiting for my body to miscarry naturally, to use medication to move things along, or to have a D&C. After painfully going back and forth with the decision, I decided to have the D&C last Friday so that I could at least control that part of it, and so that I could hopefully try to move forward. I couldn't bring myself to wait for my body to take over, since it had already been three weeks of no development, and I hadn't even started spotting or bleeding yet.
Now, my husband and I are waiting until I'm in the clear, and then will start trying again. I know physically I will be ready before I am mentally, so I'm trying to do my best to focus on anything positive that I can. I know that unfortunately you all know what I'm feeling right now, but no one can adequately prepare you for what it's like to have a loss, and I'm just finding it really hard to deal with.
I hope to be active on this board, since it seems like a great supportive community.
Re: Intro/Sadly joining in
Take each day in stride. I found myself mentally prepared sooner than I thought I would be thanks to this amazing group of ladies.
We were also trying for our 2nd.
First positive pregnancy test 7/25 with EDD 4/1. Started spotting 8/3 day after my husband left the country. Luckily I was able to miscarry naturally, emotionally and physically I don't know if I want to start again, but I have to make a decision soon, I had to stop medication to try and get pregnant
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019