Before getting pregnant I cried at EVERYTHING. Seriously if it was remotely happy, sad, infuriating, etc I was probably shedding at least one tear but since getting KU, overall I've been less emotional. Until last night. This is probably going to sound so stupid but oh well. Last night I was looking at one of my dogs and she was just so cute and then I started crying over how cute she is. Like, full on tears. Later, there was some stupid commercial where an ostrich learns to fly and that made me cry and then a little while later I looked over at our other dog and his ears got all floppy and cute and I lost it again. And I'm almost in tears now thinking back on those three things.
This was me last week @gusgus14! This week I really have nothing to add because I haven't cried at all. I think hormones are leveling out a bit for now.
Where do I start? My DD is a behavior mess, my grandmother was in a severe accident halfway acroas the country, we didn't get the house we were hoping for (to rent). I think that about covers it this week...
In the past few days I've cried at chocolate milk (it was so delicious and it helped me swallow a pill without gagging!) and the Dinosaur Train theme song (such a beautiful adoption story!). So...yeah. Hormones are in full, ridiculous force.
June Siggy Challenge: Fictional Dads Stanley Tucci in Easy A
Just thinking that one day my cat is going to pass away and my baby might not even remember him when he or she is older. I'm getting choked up again just typing this
My DH is picking at me to show off for DSS and I just can't handle it today. I usually can dish it right back but today I just can't. It started with him pointing out for no reason that I've been gassy lately and coming up with nicknames for me to that effect . I can't even say what comes to mind because the step kids don't know we're pregnant yet. Next we're buying an A/C (waste of money but that's another story) and he keeps asking me about the irritated look on my face. I'm super hangry at this point but if course, kids don't know, and I'm over here internally screaming "YOUR PREGNANT WIFE IS HANGRY AND WE'RE WASTING TIME AND MONEY, which at that point would have clearly been better being spent eating food. So now I'm eating, alone, but not what I wanted because that would have involved driving all the way back across town and because I refused to drop my food cravings for the past two days to go to what DSS wanted (which has been shit every time we've got food there in the past two years). *huff*
I know the play fights are totally normal for our relationship but between the hormones and the extreme frustration I've been feeling because we haven't told our families yet I just can't today.
I got teary eyed when I realized DH had no clean undershirts left. I feel like I haven't been able to keep up with the house stuff these past few weeks due to nausea and fatigue.
I had a meltdown the other day (totally out of the blue) over our house not even being started, not being able to plan a cute nursery, my parents not being here (they moved for my Dad's job and he's contracted for another year), and not wanting baby showers because of it all.
OMG, you guys. NPR aired a story yesterday about a guy in his 20's who had been fighting leukemia for a number of years. He had developed a friendship with a musician who records heartbeats of terminally ill children. He composes music to go along with the heartbeats and makes CDs to give to the families of these children. The guy with leukemia passed away, but not before recording his heartbeat with the musician. His parents couldn't bring themselves to listen to the CDs for over a year. They were so thankful when they finally did, because they had not only the sound of his heartbeat but also the final recording of his voice dedicating the music to them. NPR played a clip of the music, and it was the coolest, saddest, most haunting thing you'd ever heard.
I would have cried at this story regardless, but pregnancy hormones had me bawling buckets sitting in my car in the garage.
I teach in an inner city school and one of my students (almost 13) wrote me this note:
"My favourite memories of this year is when you and I make our secret funny faces throughout the day. You brighten up my days! Those faces remind me that you're not one of those teachers who is strict and mean because of who we are, but you're a teacher that makes our classroom/school feel like home and you're our mom"
I MEAN.... COME ON!
I have 2 weeks left with these little heartbreakers before they're off (and bored and lonely) for 2 months. Can't handle it.
e v e r y t h i n g. i feel so close to losing it every day lately - today it was the father's day cards, for sure. oh, and the ed sheeran carpool karaoke when he started singing thinking out loud. sheesh.
I went to a baby shower for one of closest friends today. She's having a little boy, and I totally lost it wrapping the teeny, tiny newborn clothes. I was thinking about her being a FTM, and that I'll have another LO in the very near future. Both of these things combined led to the water works...
Trolls. The movie Trolls. Every night since Netflix put it up after I pick up DS we watch Trolls, I'm tired and I have to make dinner, so I know I know, no tv under 2 whatever. But every dang time. I cry. WTF me.
There's a collection of Disney short films on Netflix...oh my, all the feels - especially the clock one and the Christmas one! They're supposed to be cute, not kleenex worthy!
I was driving earlier and listening to pandora. A song came on that was talking about a relationship changing and I just started crying. I have a great relationship with DH, but it just made me think of how much our lives are going to change with a second LO. I'm over the moon excited, but for a split second I got scared.
Yesterday, I went to pick up my 2 year old Himalayan and he clawed me - like full claw in my chest/shoulder to the point it got stuck and DH had to help me free the now completely freaking out cat (I was screaming like I was being murdered in his defense). Well, idk - f these hormones because I then proceed to sob about who knows what for the next half an hour. WTH?! I felt so silly after - like a toddler's tantrum or something. IDK.
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DD1 EDD 9/29/2015, Born 9/24/2015
DS1 EDD 1/3/2018, Born 12/26/2017
BFP #3 3/21/2019, EDD 11/29/2019, MMC/D&C 5/7/2019
BFP #4 6/28/2019, EDD 3/12/2020
In the past few days I've cried at chocolate milk (it was so delicious and it helped me swallow a pill without gagging!) and the Dinosaur Train theme song (such a beautiful adoption story!). So...yeah. Hormones are in full, ridiculous force.
June Siggy Challenge: Fictional Dads
Stanley Tucci in Easy A
I know the play fights are totally normal for our relationship but between the hormones and the extreme frustration I've been feeling because we haven't told our families yet I just can't today.
SD: 21 & SS: 17
BFP #2 6/3/2020
*Trigger Warning*
https://m.wimp.com/25-hilariously-unfortunate-things-moms-have-done-while-sleep-deprived/?utm_source=fba&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=picard&kwp_0=385852&kwp_4=1574052&kwp_1=681614/
tears just running.... part of me is thinking this is not as funny as my mind seems to think it is right now.
And then I got teary over The Ranch last night.
OMG, you guys. NPR aired a story yesterday about a guy in his 20's who had been fighting leukemia for a number of years. He had developed a friendship with a musician who records heartbeats of terminally ill children. He composes music to go along with the heartbeats and makes CDs to give to the families of these children. The guy with leukemia passed away, but not before recording his heartbeat with the musician. His parents couldn't bring themselves to listen to the CDs for over a year. They were so thankful when they finally did, because they had not only the sound of his heartbeat but also the final recording of his voice dedicating the music to them. NPR played a clip of the music, and it was the coolest, saddest, most haunting thing you'd ever heard.
I would have cried at this story regardless, but pregnancy hormones had me bawling buckets sitting in my car in the garage.
"My favourite memories of this year is when you and I make our secret funny faces throughout the day. You brighten up my days! Those faces remind me that you're not one of those teachers who is strict and mean because of who we are, but you're a teacher that makes our classroom/school feel like home and you're our mom"
I MEAN.... COME ON!
I have 2 weeks left with these little heartbreakers before they're off (and bored and lonely) for 2 months. Can't handle it.
BFP: May 6, 2017 EDD: Jan. 13, 2018
i feel so close to losing it every day lately - today it was the father's day cards, for sure. oh, and the ed sheeran carpool karaoke when he started singing thinking out loud. sheesh.
I use Hypnobabies! http://www.hypnobabies-store.com/link.cgi?affiliateID=472
J18 December Siggy Challenge: Christmas Movies!
EDD: 1/6/2018
Eva Jane: 7/23/2014
J18 December Siggy Challenge: Christmas Movies