**Warning, this will probably be long**
So I'm not really sure how I feel about this, not sure if its jealousy or some feeling I can't put my finger on. H's sister had twins 2 years ago and had a C-section. She just had a second set of twins this morning, and was able to do a VBAC. I don't know much about VBAC but from what I have heard its difficult and I would imagine it would be more so with twins that were 7 & 8 lbs. When H told me they were inducing her, I thought it was strange and was more so worried because of what I've heard regarding VBAC. I even thought H didn't know what he was talking about and really she was scheduled for a C. But for some reason I needed to know for myself and asked her. And then she confirmed today that she did have a VBAC. I don't know why it bothers me. Maybe because I wanted to give birth vaginally but wasn't able to and probably won't be able to because the consensus from the DR for the reason why I couldn't was because my pelvis is too small. I don't even know why I care really and its stupid.
My FFC...with no intention of discounting your feelings re above. I never gave much thought to the "type of birth I wanted." I think every other mother I know besides my immediate family has waxed poetic about their dreams for giving birth and birth plans, studied labor techniques, etc. My birth plan was get the baby out of me and keep us both alive, please and thank you. It was somewhat traumatic for my body but nothing was better or worse than I wanted because I wanted exactly nothing out of it besides a baby. And I regret that attitude not at all.