@antoto thanks for always being so supportive! Same of everything all to you. Hugs
@laurad75 omg I'm legit cried seeing that. How frigging sweet are they. It's like how I felt with the candy that came with my trigger shot. So nice to know that people can be caring and supportive and that there's people out there who do thoughtful things!
Well my mother's day weekend tears have already started! Thank you for posting @antoto and @laurad75
I am really struggling already so I appreciate these posts. Ladies: you are wonderful and I believe that eventually we will all find a way to build the families we are dreaming of. Take care this weekend friends.
Fortunately we got out of breakfast with MIL + BIL & fam and we're going to take her to dinner. But she called last night and apparently can't eat two meals in a day (she has an effed up relationship with food) so we're just taking her to a movie. = less time for her to talk and stuff her foot in her mouth. Hooray! Sunday morning H and I are going to brunch at an Argentinian place that does a great Mother's Day brunch (but never any other time of year) and will go sit in the bar away from the real Mother's Day crowd. I'm excited about that.
Me: 34 DH: 38 Married: June 2011 TTC since Feb 2016 BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
Just adding to the chorus. I'll be laying low, hanging out with OH this weekend. He wants to go do outdoor stuff, and I suspect it's really a distraction for me. God love him for it. But I'll be thinking of all of my sisters in the IF thread, getting strength from, and sending it to, you all.
**TW** @adirat, this is my first Mother's Day since my loss, too (even though it's been almost a year, I know you all are not surprised that it still feels pretty fresh). I hope knowing that we're going through this together is a comfort to you, though I know that there really isn't anything anyone can do or say to make you feel better. Creepy internet hugs, honey, and treat yourself with care this weekend.
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Yes, stay off FB fo sho, everyone is all about mother's day greetings on FB, even when their mother isn't even ON FB.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
@aurora1973 Thanks friend. I hope you take care too and I'm so glad you have your OH to lean on. (tw) I just can't stop thinking about how I should be second tri... Here's hoping we both have better news waiting for us on the other side.
@aurora1973 Thanks friend. I hope you take care too and I'm so glad you have your OH to lean on. (tw) I just can't stop thinking about how I should be second tri... Here's hoping we both have better news waiting for us on the other side.
I keep thinking the same thing. Creepy internet hugs to you friend.
@heatherdubrow Hugs to you. I remember that feeling so well. **TW** Now it's "I should have a 12 week old..." I realize that sub-consciously I'd been counting on getting KU again before what would've been my due date, but alas, no. I hope the same is not true for you or @adirat or anyone else. **End TW**
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Awww thank you so much @antoto and others. Really needed that today. Seems like everyone I saw today either wished me happy Mother's Day or asked if I was a mother. I'm not sure which is worse. Plus AF is scheduled for Sunday so I feel like it's just rubbing it in my face that I may never be a mother. I will definitely be staying off of social media and keeping busy with my DH. I will be thinking of you all as well. Hugs all around!
Awww thank you so much @antoto and others. Really needed that today. Seems like everyone I saw today either wished me happy Mother's Day or asked if I was a mother. I'm not sure which is worse. Plus AF is scheduled for Sunday so I feel like it's just rubbing it in my face that I may never be a mother. I will definitely be staying off of social media and keeping busy with my DH. I will be thinking of you all as well. Hugs all around!
I'm waiting around for CD1 on Sunday as well. Biggest hugs, friend.
Me: 31 DH: 32 Dating since: 11/17/2001 Married: 9/26/2009 TTC: June 2016
@vflux33 Appointment went well, but right before my SHG my RE did a basic check up and during the breast exam he found abnormal tissue in both breasts. Apparently I suck at checking myself. He said he think it's benign but that since we're about to pump a ton of hormones in me he wants me to go get a mammogram. Sigh.
BUT the rest of it went really well. They did delay the med teaching until my down regulation appointment which isn't for another week and a half. So still more to do!
I'm at my clinic for my 2nd monitoring in 2 days bc yesterday's showed two big follicles. They think I will trigger tonight and ER will be Monday. I'm so sad. It's too soon and there are only 2. Anyway, to make it worse there is a perfect little family here with a fucking toddler in the waiting room. I hate them.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@laurad75 WTAF? What is wrong with people??? In the initial paperwork for my place, they say about five times that it's not an appropriate place for a kid and you need to find child care. So many hugs.
Me: 34 DH: 38 Married: June 2011 TTC since Feb 2016 BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@antoto Really hope he's just being cautious and that it ends up being nothing, but it is good that he checked just in case.
@laurad75 I'm sorry you don't have more follies. As for the family, they must not be *that* perfect if the parents are too insensitive to realize that you just DON'T do that. Ugh.
@LadyMillil I hope you feel better soon! Do your restrictions allow for any cold meds at all?
@laurad75 Big huge hugs, girl. That's really tough. And eff those idiots bringing their kids in. I hate when that happens so much. Keep us updated I don't know if you want any hopeful stories or not, but my friend only had three and she now has her sweet baby.
@LadyMillil I didn't know that stims had that side effect. That's not exciting.
@kiki75 My RE doesn't do mammograms so they gave me an info sheet to make an appointment elsewhere. I'll probably try to do it this coming week. Stupid boobs.
@LadyMillil How about Mucinex? I would think that since so many take it during WTO for CM, it should be okay for you? Are you a member of a gym with a steam room? Would that work? (I know it's not normally polite and you'd need to do your best to not spread germs but... desperate times.) They also used to have the Vicks things that look like chapstick and you hold it up to your nostril and breathe it in.
@antoto I hope they can get you in soon! I know how much you're hating BCP and don't want to stay on it an extra minute.
Me: 34 DH: 38 Married: June 2011 TTC since Feb 2016 BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@antoto I'm glad the appt went well. I'm crossing everything that the mammogram turns out totally normal. I'll be thinking about you.
@laurad75 wtf I get so annoyed by that. TW (maybe) I find a babysitter every single appt, and if I can't, I cancel. It's so insensitive and rude AF. I'm sorry you only have 2. Here's hoping so hard that they are both beautiful and perfect and get you your take home baby.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
@LadyMillil I hope soup and showers get you through. Have you ever had tom kha soup? (Thai) I always like it for colds since it's spicy so it helps clear out my head in two ways.
Me: 34 DH: 38 Married: June 2011 TTC since Feb 2016 BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@laurad75 sorry that there are only two but I hope those two are perfect little fighters. @LadyMillil I am so sorry you are feeling crappy. Hope you can take some time to rest and kick the cold as soon as possible. The side effects of stimms are bad enough!! @antoto ugh it's always something right? I hope it turns out to be nothing and you can get back on track asap. @eggplantface that gif totally sums it up!
Re: IF/Weekly Check In 5/8
@laurad75 omg I'm legit cried seeing that. How frigging sweet are they. It's like how I felt with the candy that came with my trigger shot. So nice to know that people can be caring and supportive and that there's people out there who do thoughtful things!
I am really struggling already so I appreciate these posts. Ladies: you are wonderful and I believe that eventually we will all find a way to build the families we are dreaming of. Take care this weekend friends.
Fortunately we got out of breakfast with MIL + BIL & fam and we're going to take her to dinner. But she called last night and apparently can't eat two meals in a day (she has an effed up relationship with food) so we're just taking her to a movie. = less time for her to talk and stuff her foot in her mouth. Hooray! Sunday morning H and I are going to brunch at an Argentinian place that does a great Mother's Day brunch (but never any other time of year) and will go sit in the bar away from the real Mother's Day crowd. I'm excited about that.
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
Love you ladies so hard. I hope you make it through this weekend without too many bumps or bruises
Just adding to the chorus. I'll be laying low, hanging out with OH this weekend. He wants to go do outdoor stuff, and I suspect it's really a distraction for me. God love him for it. But I'll be thinking of all of my sisters in the IF thread, getting strength from, and sending it to, you all.
**TW** @adirat, this is my first Mother's Day since my loss, too (even though it's been almost a year, I know you all are not surprised that it still feels pretty fresh). I hope knowing that we're going through this together is a comfort to you, though I know that there really isn't anything anyone can do or say to make you feel better. Creepy internet hugs, honey, and treat yourself with care this weekend.
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Also @antoto So how did it go? Judging by your last update it must have been over several hours and minutes already?
BUT the rest of it went really well. They did delay the med teaching until my down regulation appointment which isn't for another week and a half. So still more to do!
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
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@laurad75 That stinks. I was so hoping for more follies. And WHY do people bring their babies and toddlers to the RE's office? COME ON PEOPLE.
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@laurad75 I'm sorry you don't have more follies. As for the family, they must not be *that* perfect if the parents are too insensitive to realize that you just DON'T do that. Ugh.
@LadyMillil I hope you feel better soon! Do your restrictions allow for any cold meds at all?
@LadyMillil I didn't know that stims had that side effect. That's not exciting.
@kiki75 My RE doesn't do mammograms so they gave me an info sheet to make an appointment elsewhere. I'll probably try to do it this coming week. Stupid boobs.
@antoto I hope they can get you in soon! I know how much you're hating BCP and don't want to stay on it an extra minute.
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
My mom and I are going to a casino tomorrow. Maybe some late lunch and just having fun. The nice part is there won't be any kids there obviously.
@laurad75 wtf I get so annoyed by that. TW (maybe) I find a babysitter every single appt, and if I can't, I cancel. It's so insensitive and rude AF. I'm sorry you only have 2. Here's hoping so hard that they are both beautiful and perfect and get you your take home baby.
I'm sorry for the setback. I hope you can get it done quickly and it's clear.
@laurad75 Ugh I'm sorry, that sucks!!! What are those follies thinking?
I hope you have some more catch up before ER! And ugh, kids in the waiting room at the RE? Get a clue, people.
@LadyMillil That sucks, I hope you feel better!
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@LadyMillil I am so sorry you are feeling crappy. Hope you can take some time to rest and kick the cold as soon as possible. The side effects of stimms are bad enough!!
@antoto ugh it's always something right? I hope it turns out to be nothing and you can get back on track asap.
@eggplantface that gif totally sums it up!