I'm unsure whether I should be here or not right now. We just suffered our 2nd loss and I know we will be trying again as soon as we can. First loss was at 6 weeks and happened naturally this second one was at 13 weeks and was a missed miscarriage as the baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks. I just had a d& c on Tuesday and I'm looking for support and help moving forward. I have a lot of anxiety about TTC again but, I do know that's what helped after our first loss. Thank you for any advice and support, looking forward to getting to know you all!
Re: I hope this is the right place for me :)
First - I am so so sorry for the loss of your sweet babies and all the hopes and dreams that came with each pregnancy.
This is absolutely the right place for you - even if you aren't actively trying again yet. This is a safe place to explore what it means to be trying again after losing a pregnancy. Anxiety is so very common during the process.
Welcome! (you can see my history in my siggy)
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
CP 1/25/16 4.5 weeks, developed Graves' disease
Me: 36 DH:35
Married: 7/10/2016
TTC#1 - May 2016
BFP 9/6/2016 - Missed MC 10/20/2016
BFP 5/5/2017 - CP
IVF #1 - June 2017 - Transferred 1 fresh 4 AA embryo. 7/9 Beta #1 - 161
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
I'm sorry that you are going through this. Sorry for your loss. We are here for you. Online community like this is a great source of comfort because it will allow you to hear from women who had the same experience. I don’t have the same experience like you do but I experienced the pain of infertility. It was a roller coaster of emotions. It’s true that trying to conceive can be stressful. Not getting pregnant when you want to can cause anxiety. This article, https://bit.ly/2qvLZfg, might help you in coping with the pain of miscarriage.
I would like to encourage you not to give up. Don’t lose hope. I had infertility treatments before I got pregnant, now my son is turning 16 years old in few days. God is good, He will give the desires of your heart as you trust in Him. You are on the right place. Praying for you that you will feel His love and comfort as you go through this and He will answer your prayer to have that baby in His perfect time. Thank you for sharing.
DD2 8.22.13
MMC 1.4.17 at 16w
Expecting #3, EDD 1.29.18