It almost doesn't even feel real.
On Monday afternoon I started to experience sharp pains in my lower left side. I tried to chalk it up to normal pregnancy pains, and went about my day. On Tuesday morning I woke up to some spotting, but again, try to tell myself a little spotting was normal. By Tuesday afternoon it had gotten heavier, and more like a period, so my OB ordered me to go to the ER for an ultrasound.
Hands down the worst experience of my life, because we have a horrible small town hospital. Blood work and ultrasound confirmed it was Ectopic, and since I was just 6 weeks they decided to move forward with the Methotrexate shot. I was given two injections, and after over 7 hours in the ER (God Bless my two best friends because my DH was out of town) I was headed home. My initial HCG was 15, and today at my followup blood draw it was down to 1. I have an appointment on Monday with my OB to go over it all.
I spent most of Wednesday & Thursday inconsolable, alternating between my friends babysitting me (and keeping me from crying by just talking about nonsense stuff) and on my own just sobbing. I'm so worried about the unknown moving forward. I told my DH that I don't know how I can go through this again.....bless you ladies who have managed to rise above multiple losses.
The worst is just not knowing what to expect after this. The doctors office can't seem to give me an answer about how long I should expect to bleed. The two days after I had mild discomfort and some pain here and there but it wasn't awful. But here I am on day 3 and I'm having more constant discomfort. Of course the doctors office will only give the standard "well everyone is different" answer.