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WTO Friday March 24
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GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
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GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
Re: WTO Friday March 24
Guys, I'm on nights again and bored AF, so here it is!
Month/Cycle:4/4
CD:19
WAYDTGKU:HIO ED, preseed, temping, CM, PNV, cal/mag, OPKs (AKA all the things)
R/R: Rave: DH has been lovely accommodating with all the HIO, not that it is something he would normally complain about, but it's so out of the ordinary for us, I'm just glad it's one less thing I have to stress about.
Rant: I'm beginning to wonder if I should just leave my position at work and go casual, it would be so much less stressful, because worrying about childcare for night shifts while hubs is out of town is a lot. But then we'd lose the security of me having a permanent position with benefits, RRSPs & a pension, so there's that... It's such a hard decision to make...
CS/Q: nah... it's gonna be all messed up from nights so maybe tomorrow...
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
I was super shy in highschool and didn't come out of my shell until 11th or 12th grade so I'd say:
Just make friends. Don't be worried about people liking you or not, just talk to everyone you meet and be nice & polite. Stop overthinking it and just talk to people!
Month/Cycle: 3/3
CD: 14
WAYDTGKU: not the most important thing
R/R: I swear I didn't tell DH that FW was approaching, but things aren't going well.
CS/Q: nada
GTKY: I would tell teenaged morado to not waste her time at a private university.
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
CD: 13
WAYDTGKU: nothing and it feels so good
R/R: I didnt get to HIO at 39 hours...it was 40 1/2 because my DH came home late. @lulu1180 did I ruin my chances?!?!!? But seriously, it is Friday, I have a crazy busy day at work but there are cookies and I rocked my surgery yesterday. It was a good day yesterday and will be a good day today!
CS/Q:
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
That girl Michelle- watch out for that bitch. She is gonna stab you in the back. Don't worry because you get your revenge and totally win in the end, but dont spend too much time being upset.
@kiwi2628 love your positive energy this morning! Hope you have a great day today!
Month/Cycle: 15/15 4AL
CD: 11
WAYDTGKU: sex eod, OPKs. Bbt, preseed, testing
R/R: so glad it's Friday! This week has worn me out! Got the rest of my BW back yesterday vitamin d is still low so he upped my vitamins but amh level was good! I have 7dpo blood work in about 2 weeks then meeting with the RE again
CS/Q: none
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
that everyone's not going to like you and that's okay. Worry about making yourself happy and not everyone else.
@kiwi2628 That's it, you're screwed, you waited too long lol. It's so nice to see such an optimist outlook for the day, it's rather infectious!
@beachbunnyxo123 Woohoo Friday! I hope you're able to just hang out and relax tonight!
Month/Cycle: 10/14
CD: 8
WAYDTGKU: BBT, OPK, PNVs, Mg, Vit D3
R/R: This board has been so super slow recently and it's made me rather sad, although this week it has seemed to pick back up at least a little. I hope this trend continues because I loved how lively the board was when I first started here.
Also, Friday! And I ran last night (again) so I don't have to today so that means wine and snuggling with DH on the couch!
CS/Q: nope!
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? Don't focus so much on boys, you will find your one and when you do, you'll know it. He will be the most amazing, wonderful and supportive man and once you're with him, you'll wonder how you ever thought any of those other boys were even near worthy.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@kiwi2628 Somehow cookies always make things better....or a Dairy Queen blizzard!
@morado23 That's crummy that DH isn't responding the way you hoped. Maybe you could just walk around the house naked and pretend nothing's out of the ordinary
@kvacmak I can't imagine working nights. That has to be so hard on your body.
Month/Cycle: 5/4
CD: 9
WAYDTGKU: red raspberry leaf tea, pnv, cm, bbt
R/R: Hoping this month is the month with the ovary that likes to ovulate a little earlier than the other side
CS/Q: not yet
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
Know who your true friends are and stay loyal to them. Most others are jealous, catty asshats and you shouldn't waste your time.
Month/Cycle: 2/1
CD: 33
WAYDTGKU: BBT, PNV's, CM, POK's, Vitex
R/R: Totally agree with @beachbunnyxo123 & @kiwi2628 that I'm so glad it's Friday. This week has been so long.
CS/Q: None
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
To put a lot more effort in at school. I didn't care about my grades in high school as much as I should have, and it came back to bite me in the ass later when I didn't get any scholarships for my first year of college. I have friends who went to the same college I did and didn't pay a dime for their undergrad. That would've been nice!
Married: 10/2013
TTC #1 Since: 02/2017
@kiwi2628 Love the positive attitude - and yay for rocking that surgery yesterday!
@morado23 I'm worried about FW - last cycle DH had trouble for the first time ever (since we've been TTC again) and I'm stressing already
@kvacmak Good luck with making your decision, it's tough
@lulu1180 Awesome getting that run in, now you can enjoy your Friday, wine, and DH snuggles
Month/Cycle 7/8
CD 3
WAYDTGKU PNV OPKs and sex when CM appears
R/R Just happy it's Friday and this head cold seems to be almost gone. Plus 70s here this weekend - I'm getting outside!
CSQ
GTKY: I would tell my teen self to get away from my friend who is going to make your life miserable - that friendship is finally over but took way too long
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
@morado23 I may have missed this - does YH have performance issues?
@kiwi2628 BAHAHAHA dying! Chances ruined! I love your positive attitude.
@beachbunnyxo123 That's good that you've identified the low vitamin D. Is there not enough in your PNV?
@lulu1180 You're rocking it lately with the working out and taking care of debt! Have a fun night tonight.
@cdnrunning Hope it's the early ovary!
@Cricket648 Free college would have been nice! I got an entrance scholarship, but the rest definitely wasn't free!
@RVAmom515 Hurray for good temps, Friday, and feeling better! It is really hard to say goodbye to certain friendships, even if they're toxic.
Month/Cycle: 7/5 (1/1 AL)
CD: 16
WAYDTGKU: PNV, OPKs, temping, checking CM and CP, bumping uglies
R/R:
CS/Q: I've had temps within 0.1 degree the last 5 days! I hope that means I'll O soon? Chart: https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/63f71d
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
Similar to @lulu1180. However, I think I had to have all those crappy relationships helped me find my H and appreciate him after all the duds.
Married Aug. 2013
TTC #1 Sep. 2016
***TW***
BFP Jun. 5, 2017; MMC Aug. 2, 2017 at 11w6d
BFP Nov. 20, 2017; ended in CP
All the tests. Everything normal except treated for ureaplasma and DH potentially has high DNAF.
BFP Dec. 25, 2017; EDD Sep. 5, 2018; DD arrived Aug. 26th
My chart: https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/63f71d
@cdnrunning fx for early O this cycle!
@starla I guess not! I've been taking prenatal for 2 years now and 1000ius of vitamin d daily since the summer. Vitamin d was 28 and after adding the 1000ius for the past 7 months it's only 28.6. My RE bumped me up to 2000ius a day. And "bumping uglies" hahahahaha
@lulu1180 congrats on getting g the run in!
@morado23 I hear ya on the FW stress. GL these next few nights
@kvacmak hope the decision making process is as easy as possible for you. Those are tough choices all around
Month/Cycle: 10/10
CD:3
WAYDTGKU: just pnv and temping right now, waiting for AF to leave
R/R: DH has a fever and is all congested. I think this is his 9th actual fever since thanksgiving. He has immune issues to begin with and like a big strong man did not get a flu shot despite the suggestion from the doctor. Grrrrrrr. But excited to kidnap my little cousins to see beauty and the beast this weekend.
CS/Q: nope
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
Not getting into your top choice college sucks. A lot. BUT it all works out really really well for you.
Together: 11/2008, married: 3/2014
DH: Type 1 Diabetes, (dx 4/15) Celiac Disease (dx 11/14), Treatment induced Neuropathy of Diabetes (dx 7/15)
DH SA: 11/16: low count and low motility
DH SA: 12/16: borderline low, count and motility
1/20/17: BFP, 1/24/17: CP
5/17:low AMH (0.89)
6/17: first IUI cycle, 50 mg clomid + ovidrel + IUI: 2 follies, BFN (count 58 million, 97% motility)
7/17: second IUI, 2.5 letrozole, OPK, IUI: 1 follie, BFN (count 9.5 million swimming- dont know percentage)
8/17: third IUI, 5.0 letrozole,
ETA- Words
Dating 03/31/2011 Married 10/18/2014
DS Born 12/28/2017
TTC #2 06/2019
@morado23 sorry your still having struggles within the FW. Sending you lots of hugs.
@kiwi2628 love that positive self talk!
@beachbunnyxo123 glad to hear your amh level was good and you're addressing a potential issue
@lulu1180 great job getting that running in on Thursday in exchange for wine and snuggles on Friday.
I missed most of yesterday, I was guest lecturing a class yesterday morning (first time ever, it was 3 hrs and I loved it) and then went to work. I was only able to get to really read these boards at like 10pm. Is it weird if I spend most of my day off catching up on what I missed yesterday?
Month/Cycle: 5/6
CD: 11
WAYDTGKU: the same
R/R: I'm taking a mental health day today. I requested off a while back bc I thought we would be out of town. So I just decided to keep the day for myself. We are going to a wedding tonight, so free food, more cake and an open bar. Tomorrow we're going to a friend's child's bday party, so I'm sure there will be lots of LOs. I'm just dreading the when are you having kids question that I know will come up. We are literally the only married couple in DHs friends group without a kid. So I'll just smile and politely make excuses. But nothing is going to ruin my day today!
CS/Q:
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
Don't brush your hair. Seriously, I have wavy hair and, in the time before flat irons, my hair was a puffy mess. I have learned that if I don't brush my waves they are acceptable as a sort of beach wave look. Someone posted a pic from high school on FB the other day and it was rough.
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@lulu1180 Last week was so super slow ! I'm glad it is picking up.
@kiwi2628 Glad your days are good ! Woohoo for Friday.
@RVAmom515 Glad you are feeling better. I'm just getting over that myself. It was nasty.
Month/Cycle: 7/7
CD: 2
WAYDTGKU: Vitamins, trying this stupid BW again, DF has another SA - super nervous for this.
R/R: I'm driving myself nutso !! The logical side of me is saying the reason we can't get KU is because DF had a vasectomy reversal and things aren't being to normal yet. Hoping they will be and it just takes time because research says it can take 6-12 months before surgery is considered successful. He already had a good return but I'm worried that it decreased or went to a bfz hence the SA. Then the other side of me says maybe it's me ? I don't know. I have researched the balls out of his numbers and we should be able to get KU with 50.7mill and 40% motility but why the f hasn't it happened. I know, I know the big question EVERYONE is asking themselves. I even went as low to google "How to get pregnant faster". Not a big surprise it didn't give any magical advice. *slaps forehead*. I'm just so discouraged with this whole thing including the fact I have bloodwork to do and can't get over my fear and do it and maybe they would pick something up that would solve this. We have been trying since the VR for 7 months but it's been 13 months since we decided to go for the surgery and I feel every ounce of my energy has been spent researching and thinking about it. I just wish we could all fill up the grad thread and no one would be here to fill up the daily threads.
Have a cutesie puppy for that ...
CS/Q:
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be?
Smarten the hell up or you will be stuck in your basement cutting dogs hair......
Me 27
DF 44
TTC post VR Sept 21/16
SA 6 weeks post op 50.7 mil count 40% motility
Month/Cycle: 2/2
CD: 9
WAYDTGKU: PNV, CM, Green Tea, HIO as much as possible, OPKs, pre-seed possibly.
R/R: It’s Friday! My DH brought me some McDonald’s pancakes this morning. Yummy! Also, after a pretty big melt down yesterday, I have decided today will be a good day and I will be productive!
CS/Q: Nope
GTKY: I would tell myself a lot of things. 1) Do more fun stuff in high school and stop focusing on the same friends who don’t even go to your school. 2) Try harder at basketball and classes. 3) That really good guy friend you have that you like a lot? Yeah, he’s gay. 4) You will lose a lot of friends when you get to college. It will suck but it will lead you to where you are now which is awesome!
@kvacmak – so glad that you don’t have to worry about DH! The job situation is a tough call and I hope that you figure it out! Is there a way you can switch shifts when DH is out of town or just switch shifts in general?
@morado23 – sorry about DH! I hope that y’all figure that out soon!
@kiwiw2628 – Mmmm cookies! Yay for rocking your surgery!
@beachbunnyxo123 – Amen to not worrying about everyone liking you! I’m still working on that though…
@lulu1180 – see my GTKY about boys! LOL I’m also glad that this board has picked up but it’s hard to keep up some times!
@cdnrunning – oooo DQ blizzard for me too please! Come on earlier O! I have no idea what side O’d last cycle. I would actually like to know that because I’m not sure how much of my left ovary I actually have and if it is enough to produce an egg. The surgeon said he didn’t take my ovary but the way the cyst was situated he had to take some. I guess you only need 1/6 of your ovary tissue to produce an egg.
@RVAMom315 – high of 70 here too! Maybe I’ll go for a run in the park this afternoon.
@starla-2 – FX for O soon!
Married: August 2014
TTC #1: February 2017 - BFP 7/28/17; EDD 4/8/18; DD born 4/7/18
TTC #2: February 2019
@cdnrunning I am learning with this cycle that I have one side that seems to O much earlier. Temping and opks and science are cool
@Cricket648 I hope you enjoy the weekend
@RVAmom315 yay for the cold going away (both in your head and outside)
@starla-2 FX that you O soon
@WillRunForWine21 & @LaurenEG14 I so want to see Beauty and the Beast, DH even said he'd go with me. No shame, he acknowledges he wants to see it too.
@FLAshley I'm sorry you're having a rough go if it right now and it's CD2. Sending you positive vibes and wishing you so much strength for your BW. When is it scheduled?
Eta: words and things
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@morado23 that is good advice for your teenage self.
@kiwi2628 yum cookies! Congrats on the surgery success!
@beachbunnyxo123 glad your BW came back lookin good!
@lulu1180 awesome job with your running this week. you earned that wine and snuggle time! Enjoy! Also, your advice...my college self could have used that also.
@cdnrunning FX that your ovaries cooperate with you.
@Cricket648 I feel ya! Scholarships would have been great.
@RVAmom315 enjoy the nice weekened weather!
@starla-2 FX for O soon!
@WillRunForWine21 sorry H is sick! But enjoy Beauty and the Beast!
@LaurenEG14 Glad you enjoyed the movie. I can't wait to see it!
@Avrilmai enjoy your mental health day. Hope you don't have to deal with too many intrusive questions.
@FLAshley sorry you've got so many "what if's" running around in your head. They are so hard to shut out sometimes.
@justkeepswimming8 pancakes always lead to a good day!
Month/Cycle: 5/5
CD: 13
WAYDTGKU: pnv, temping/cm charting, hio often
R/R: no rants...just raves that it's Fri-YAAAAYYYY!!! After this weekend, we will be 100% done painting all of our "lived in" rooms and can move on to decorating! I need to pick out curtains for all the rooms. Hopefully that doesn't take a long as painting did LOL!
Ok, I lied. One rant...why does it always seem that, no fail, every Friday during Lent all I want is a cheeseburger?
CS/Q: Ok, so I have a FF related question...does/will FF give you CH without a positive opk? My temp took quite the jump this morning and I would say that I have pretty ideal ewcm, but no positive opk's yet. I'm wondering if I might have just missed the surge and if FF will give me the CH without that piece. Link is in siggy if you want to stalk
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? I think I would tell myself to step out of the box a little more, explore new things to find a passion. Having only participated in sports in high school, I really wish I had tried different things and gained a wider perspective.
Married: 9/2016
TTC # 1: 11/2016
BFP: 5/2017
Baby Boy: 1/2018
Link to FF Charts
DS2: Jan. 2016
DS3: Dec. 2017
Baby #4 on the way!
@lulu1180 nice work, girl!! Enjoy that wine and snuggles!
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
CD: 30
WAYDTGKU: bb,cm,pnv,hio
R/R:Happy Friday Ladies!!
CS/Q:nope
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? I say to have more fun and not be such a worry wart.
CH this morning! I'll see you ladies over in the TWW soon!
High School Teacher * Reluctant Floridian * Steelers Fan
Family info in Spoiler
DS 11/2017
MMC 10/2019 @ 12 weeks
Planning to try for our rainbow 01/2020
@FLAshley First of all, your post resonated with me so much (and I'm sure with the regs left here as well) and I'm sorry that you're also struggling with all of this. But you know that we are all here for you when you're having those tough days and if you need to on occasion, go ahead and dear diary, we've all done it once or twice.
In regards to your bloodwork, I was thinking this morning. After you get there and in the chair, can you put on a blindfold and/or ear plugs so that you can't see or hear what they're doing? I'm not sure if that would make it better or worse but I know you mentioned before how bad you freak out when they are about to take the blood.
Hope everyone has a great Friday and fun weekend plans! I usually disappear on the weekends but will try to post
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
@morado23, I'm sorry YH isn't doing his part in this. Have you guys talked about how he feels about this? Is it too much pressure for him or is he maybe afraid to take this big step?
@kiwi2628, way to go rocking the surgery! Doesn't it feel good to step back and look at accomplishments in your life and say, "I am totally rocking it". Makes me feel like Superwoman (stupid autocorrect tried to change that to Superman)
@beachbunnyxo123, glad your BW is coming back with positive news!
@WillRunForWine21, I'm also convinced DH got a cold a few weeks ago because he didn't get the flu shot either. Meanwhile, I'm just dealing with impossible allergies.
@LaurenEG14, I'm with you on the irregular/late o train, though since I'm NTNP this cycle, I'm really not writing about it. Is so frustrating when you have to HIO without knowing when it will end.
@Avrilmai, yay on the guest lecture! And have a great personal day. Love the positivity!
@FLAshley, sorry the BSC thoughts are getting to you. Just try to focus on what is under your control and try to leave the rest to the docs to figure out. Hugs!
@SoldiersMom, you can definitely get CH without OPK. I rarely use them. Especially if you track cm, but even if they only have temps. The more info the better the prediction, but definitely not necessary.
Month/Cycle: 6/5 (1 TTCAL)
CD: 24
WAYDTGKU: NTNP, but PNVs and treating myself to green tea lattes
R/R: took a little break from posting in WTO this week. It was much needed. Now that most the regs have moved on, it feels kinda slow here everywhere but here. (Haha, tired this part before I caught up on posts, @lulu1180)
Presenting at a conference today! My institute is even putting out announcements and pics on Twitter!
CS/Q: but temping this cycle, but based on my usual cycles and lazy CM observations, haven't seen any EWCM yet
GTKY: Just to have more confidence in myself. I always felt like I had to please everyone and be friends with everyone.
Me: 30 | DH: 31
Met: August 2006
Married: July 2012
TTC #1 since June 2016
***TW***
BFP: 7/12/16 | MC: 9/12/16
BFP: 1/18/17 | MMC: 2/13/17
BFP: 10/7/17 | EDD: 6/21/17
MTHFR: homozygous A1298C
@morado23 Sorry you guys are still struggling, even without him know knowing it's your FW
@kiwi2628 Yay for having a good day yesterday - and I'm with you - it's going to be a good day today!
@beachbunnyxo123 Glad that other than your vitamin D, your BW came back okay!
@lulu1180 Way to go for getting out for another run! I know what you mean though - as much as I'm SO happy for all those recent grads, it seems like things got very quiet around here after that
@cdnrunning Keeping my FX that this month is your 'quick' ovary's month!
@Cricket648 Do you have a nice relaxing weekend planned? I feel like we all need one this week
@RVAmom315 Yay for nice weather on the weekend!
@starla-2 FX you O soon!
@WillRunForWine21 Welcome back! Sorry your DH isn't well again - silly men who don't need a flu shot
@LaurenEG14 Personally, I start testing once I have had a day or so of creamy CM - I know that I always have several days of that before I get to watery/EWCM, so I feel like that covers me
@Avrilmai I think a mental health day is a great idea - I wish it was something people did more often
@FLAshley Sorry that you are having a rough go... have you talked to your doctor again about getting something to help with the anxiety around the BW, so that you could get that out of the way?
@justkeepswimming8 Love the positivity! We need more of that these days
@SoldiersMom You could try adding in a couple of days of fake temps, to see what that gives you? But yes, it will still give CH (though they may be dotted) without all the signs being perfectly aligned. When I had my crazy long cycle in Dec/Jan, I stopped testing (and charting CM) around CD30, but it still gave me CH when I had my temp spike at CD42
Month/Cycle: 6/5
CD: 13
WAYDTGKU: all the things
R/R: I actually got up and made it to a class at the gym before work - and was still a bit early to work! Happy Friday to me!
CS/Q: nope
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? To learn to be okay alone... that traveling and moving are isolating, but will also force you to grow
@lulu1180 yay for getting your run in last night!!
@WillRunForWine21 @LaurenEG14 going to see Beauty & the Beast too. We had planned on going when it opened but we were in Shanghai
@Avrilmai enjoy your day & the wedding!!!
Month/Cycle: 8/7 (2/2 AL)
CD: 1
WAYDTGKU: benched
R/R: **TW** the constant spotting turned back into bleeding today. But I had a little cramping last night and this morning (when the other pain I've been having is sharp) and today is 4 weeks since my methotrexate shot so I'm pretty sure it's AF. I'm counting it as cd 1 anyways and changing my cycle date. 60 days of one cycle was enough!! I had what was hopefully my last hcg test today & have a follow up to talk about that and the cyst on Monday. I did have the nurse ask my dr if I can use tampons and Advil again and she said yes. But most importantly--she said I can drink again!! Yay!! I haven't had a beer since I gave it up in November. I'm going to let myself have beer & drink a Coke until my Gators lose in the NCAA tournament (I'm dying for wings & beer) and then it's back to no caffeine or alcohol. Here's hoping they have a long run lol **end TW**
CS/Q:
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? Do not give up on your dreams of acting and being a sport reporter by following the boy to a city. In fact, the first time he cheats on you, do not take him back. He will NOT change and you will have many years of heartbreak with him.
@SoldiersMom Man, I could totally eat a cheeseburger after reading your post. I rarely get to eat all day when I'm working. So hungry.
@CandyApple2012 Goodluck in the TWW!
@icecubeinthedesert I love that a lot of her regs moved to a better place but it's been ghost town and so many new ladies to gtk. Goodluck at your conference!
@Sailing_Mama I haven't talked to my doctor since I have called her office and asked for a prescription and the SECRETARY said no. I have been looking for a new doctor but that seems harder than it should be. We have a total lack of healthcare professionals!
@lulu1180 Your words mean a lot. I have had days where I just want to delete everything TTC related off my phone but then I remember all you fantastic ladies who are going through the struggles and are always here with open arms.
As for my Bw, after much thinking and trying to pin point what exactly scares me - it isn't taking the blood, or the needle, the pain - it's breaking the skin. I don't know how to get over that ! If I know it's coming I won't be able to keep myself calm.
Me 27
DF 44
TTC post VR Sept 21/16
SA 6 weeks post op 50.7 mil count 40% motility
@KatieEl @CandyApple2012 GL in TWW!
@FLAshley I know where you're coming from. This whole TTC thing is so frustrating and downright devastating at times. It's taking up a lot of head space for me. All the hugs.
@icecubeinthedesert Happy to see you back here.
Married Aug. 2013
TTC #1 Sep. 2016
***TW***
BFP Jun. 5, 2017; MMC Aug. 2, 2017 at 11w6d
BFP Nov. 20, 2017; ended in CP
All the tests. Everything normal except treated for ureaplasma and DH potentially has high DNAF.
BFP Dec. 25, 2017; EDD Sep. 5, 2018; DD arrived Aug. 26th
My chart: https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/63f71d
@starla-2 Do steady temps mean you're about to O? I hope that's the case, because mine have been steady for a few days (after being pretty rocky).
@WillRunForWine21 Sorry DH is sick again.
@SoldiersMom Congrats on being done painting! I wish I could say I was!
@icecubeinthedesert GL at your conference!
@Sailing_Mama It'll actually be kind of a busy weekend. I've got a bridesmaids lunch thing, and 30th birthday party and a family dinner. I'm just glad I have a break from work!
Married: 10/2013
TTC #1 Since: 02/2017
@FLAshley I don't do well with bw either, and it is the anticipation of it that gets me the most. I started using a meditation technique that I was already using for my anxiety normally to help calm me down. I would close my eyes and picture a place that was calming and inviting for me (for me it was usually a beach or a bright clearing in the woods). Once I have that image I would focus on one object and breath along with how it was moving (so maybe breath along to the waves or a branch blowing in the wind). I don't know if something like this may be able to help you, but I figured it wouldn't hurt to share.
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
CD:4
WAYDTGKU: PNV EOD
R/R:Its finally Friday! Busy tomorrow and nothing going on Sunday.
CS/Q: nope
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? Don't be such a Cali girl.
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Married Aug. 2013
TTC #1 Sep. 2016
***TW***
BFP Jun. 5, 2017; MMC Aug. 2, 2017 at 11w6d
BFP Nov. 20, 2017; ended in CP
All the tests. Everything normal except treated for ureaplasma and DH potentially has high DNAF.
BFP Dec. 25, 2017; EDD Sep. 5, 2018; DD arrived Aug. 26th
My chart: https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/63f71d
@Pinky917 Thats great advice. DF tells me that I need to stop setting a date for it and just go. It's hard with my work schedule. I have to book the day off. I feel like I'm at the point where whether I go kicking and screaming like a child taking a tantrum.... I need to do this. Last time I left crying because I was so disappointed in myself. I just need to do it.
Me 27
DF 44
TTC post VR Sept 21/16
SA 6 weeks post op 50.7 mil count 40% motility
Married: 9/2016
TTC # 1: 11/2016
BFP: 5/2017
Baby Boy: 1/2018
Link to FF Charts
Married: 9/2016
TTC # 1: 11/2016
BFP: 5/2017
Baby Boy: 1/2018
Link to FF Charts
CD: 10
WAYDTGKU: Ugh. All the things. PNV, Vitamin D, fish oil, CoQ10, baby aspirin, pineapple core days 1-5 after O, pom juice, RRL tea, green tea, BBT, OPKs, preseed, GDTPT, fertility testing, acupuncture starting next week
R/R: HSG went well and I fall into the 'didn't hurt' column. But I also didn't know that some people find just pap smears to be painful. I don't. I just wish that the ground would swallow me whole. The worst part is having a spotlight and someone's face in my vagina. The dye was cruising through my tubes before she even removed the speculum. She told me that everything looked good to her. I have a follow-up with my doctor scheduled for April 18 but... I'm not exactly sure why. At that point in time, I should already be on drugs for my IUI so? I'm going to send her an email and ask what she wants to do. I'm also thinking about changing the plan and instead of doing one Clomid IUI cycle and then moving to injectibles, just going straight to injectibles. I keep thinking of the stats she listed for success for each and I'm wondering now why I would bother with that one.
H has his first acupuncture appointment today and he's freaking out. I'm so happy that he's doing it, though. Even though he didn't understand initially.
CS/Q: Nope!
GTKY: If you could go back and tell your teenage self one thing - what would it be? That I will eventually find my people and I'll be happy. There are also people who I thought I liked then who I don't now and people I wasn't really friends with then and from seeing them on Facebook, I'm pretty sure we would have been friends if I had taken the initiative. I came from a weird area religiously where a lot of people used it as a reason to exclude people (ironic, no?) and even with the ones who weren't trying to exclude, I still wasn't a fit, but on the other side people were into drugs and stuff. So I was too goody-goody for the one group and too bad for the other and there weren't a lot of regular people in the middle.
@cdnrunning @morado23 That makes me think of the Seinfeld bad naked episode.
@RVAmom315 Isn't it amazing how long it takes to finally recognize and deal with bad friendships?
@starla-2 Hi Bump glitch friend.
@WillRunForWine21 Good one on the GTKY! I look back at some of my most spirit-crushing rejections and thank my lucky stars for them. I still remember sobbing into some Jack in the Box monstrosity and feeling like I was so worthless when I found out that I wasn't accepted into Teach For America. If I had been, I would have been just leaving the program and the very bottom of the recession. It would have been a terrible time to be looking for work.
@LaurenEG14 Yeah, I would just buy the Amazon mega pack. Does your CM follow a reliable pattern? You could go by that some if you wanted but really, I'd rather do a lot of testing than to miss O or start being the HIO task-master too early and have both of us so over it before O shows up.
@Avrilmai Yay for free party tonight! As for tomorrow, try to react like you would have eight months ago.
@SoldiersMom I think it still just does it after the three days of a definite temp shift. Last time I had one like that was so long ago I don't remember. Are you testing just with FMU or are you doing afternoons as well? If you get to that point (hopefully you won't!), I would try a couple different times a day. I only get near-positive Wondfos in the am but if I test around 3:00 or so, that's when I have the blazing positives.
@Stargazer1lily I would have to go back before teenage self but if I could have just balanced out that would have been great. I was such a high-strung uptight little kid (I would cry if I got a B- and still be pretty upset with even a B or B+) that I kind of wore myself out and once I got to the point where grades actually meant something more, I was just so over it that I went the other way to Whateverville.
@FLAshley Piggybacking off of what @lulu1180 said, I think that goofy solutions are in order. What if YH were to kind of surprise you with it so you have less lead-up time? Like, "Oh, hey, let's go to the grocery store." Then pull up to the place and say you're going to run in there first? I vote headphones over ear plugs because then you have another noise to drown out the other ones. I think that it's even better if you were to listen to something that takes concentration like a language learning app and you have to repeat what you learned to YH afterwards. How about if he were to hold up a sweater like a drape so you couldn't see it? Or, really, you are neither the first nor the last person they've had in there who has this issue. Call the lab office and tell them and ask what they suggest. They'll have ideas! I think @Pinky917 has a great idea with the meditation. Is anyone in your area offering classes? Maybe some yoga to learn the yoga breathing? For some of the other medical things that give me a lot of anxiety, I think about all those here who have already done the procedure and were okay and I draw strength from thinking about them.
@icecubeinthedesert I hope your presentation went well today! Meanwhile, I weaseled out of a five minute presentation at work because I'm a chicken.
@Sailing_Mama That makes me think of a Louis C.K. about how people are obsessed with their phones because no one knows how to be alone anymore. Being happy with solitude has made a lot of things much more enjoyable and less stressful in my life. Even just things like work travel where I'm traveling solo.
@purplg8r Yay!
Have a wonderful time with your wings and beer and Coke! (FWIW, there is caffeine-free Coke but even in the regular, the amount of caffeine is so much lower than coffee that I have Coke on occasion and don't worry about it at all.) Looking forward to hearing a great update about your cyst. FX that they'll clear you for at least some form of exercise. Maybe swimming with fins and a kickboard? I like doing that from time to time and it's pretty relaxing for me. Not as intense as running but it's something.
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@kiki75-2, glad you got good news today! Hoping all of this is just what you need for a BFP this cycle!
Is there a reason people are adding -# after their usernames? I've noticed it on a few people's posts.
Me: 30 | DH: 31
Met: August 2006
Married: July 2012
TTC #1 since June 2016
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BFP: 7/12/16 | MC: 9/12/16
BFP: 1/18/17 | MMC: 2/13/17
BFP: 10/7/17 | EDD: 6/21/17
MTHFR: homozygous A1298C
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
Dating 03/31/2011 Married 10/18/2014
DS Born 12/28/2017
TTC #2 06/2019
Married: 9/2016
TTC # 1: 11/2016
BFP: 5/2017
Baby Boy: 1/2018
Link to FF Charts