I have 2...totally cried when my husband finished the chocolate milk last night. And I may or may not have slightly over exaggerated nausea so I could hide out upstairs while he dealt with our irrational toddler. #sorrynotsorry. What are your confessions?
The day before I got my BFP I cried too hard over my friend telling me her husband is probably going to surprise her by singing to her at their wedding (they got married a few years ago but never got to have a proper wedding). Just thinking about the sweetness made me awkwardly cry in front of her...
Also, there's a 100% chance I'm going to keep POAS until my appt with my PCP next Monday.
I'm buying more tests tonight so I can keep testing. It's the only thing that makes me feel less anxious, lol. The feeling when that second line shows up.... The relief is palpable.
Me: 32 Husbando: 49 Married Since: 7/29/2012 omgosh
@Tourmalily I'm very happy to hear that, because it makes me feel less crazy. I took two tests yesterday just in case the FMU was a fluke. I took another around 5 pm that made me feel muuuuch better. Glad I'm not the only one!
@DuchessOfCambridge you're not crazy at all. As soon as I get home I am POAS just to relieve my anxiety. And I may have pics of BFPs on my phone just so I can look at them when I start to doubt myself. Yup, I keep pics of things I peed on on my phone. Judge away.
Right before bedtime, we do "Snuggle in Mommy's bed!" and all pile into the bed, cuddle up, and watch about 15-20 minutes of something before we brush teeth. I have seen the first 20 minutes of Moana approximately 500 times now. Last night I burst into tears at some random spot. I actually do tear up easily at children's movies for whatever reason, but typically I reach some sort of desensitization. Not this week, apparently.
@jess0211, @DuchessOfCambridge, @JulesDP, yep, I have some on my phone too! I'm terrified of somehow accidentally sending them to someone, or someone somehow seeing them. But I'm definitely not ready to delete them yet.
Confession: I just had a huge snack and I really just want to eat more of it and not bother making dinner.
I have my BFP pictures on my phone too. I also exaggerate my exhaustion to get DH to walk to dogs for me. Unless someone is actually out of the house, he'll walk the sheltie while I take the maltese out. She pees and poops and then I just carry her back in but it's cold out at night. He has to walk the sheltie for an actual walk and then come back in and get the little one because she doesn't do walks. And I totally had a dream last night that I had an ultrasound and got to see the sac and everything was healthy which made me happy cry when I woke up.
I too pee on all the sticks continuously. I may also have pictures of multiple said pee sticks in dpo order to make sure I see a progession of the lines. I also may look up other peoples tests to see if my lines look as dark on dpo. I am ao anxious and idk why
*raises hand* also, a POAS addict. I have pictures, and I have dated them and saved them in an empty makeup pouch I had lying around... why? I have no idea....
Me: 33 DH: 36 Together since 2007 Happily Ever After 4.30.2015 ~~One Beautiful Daughter~~ Born: 11.6.2017 Trying for #2!!
Just did my daily morning test haha. It calms my nerves so much to see it positive first of all, and then to see it darkening. DH and I told our parents last night! They are really excited
@heatherdubrow yes! It's the first grandchild on both sides so they're all pretty pleased My mom apparently had a few dreams recently where I told her I was pregnant
I am also addicted to POAS. I've learned to hide it because DH keeps asking why I'm coming home with them every day. I have a huge plastic bag of used pregancy tests on the back of my toilet because I can't bring myself to throw them away.
My husband does the trash on Monday nights. When he came to bed he said, "Don't worry, I left all your tests on the counter." He gets me.
Also, today I look like death warmed over. Son was jumping on my while I was drying my hair so it looks crazy and I was up half the night being sick. My face is super pale and blotchy and just ugh. Luckily, today the only place we have to go is the allergist to pick up my son's allergy drops. We just found out he is allergic to every dang thing, so hopefully these will help after a time. Not looking forward to going out in public looking like this but generally carrying two toddlers into places with me is a pretty good deterrent to any side eye I might get, lol.
My husband does the trash on Monday nights. When he came to bed he said, "Don't worry, I left all your tests on the counter." He gets me.
True love.
Also, I too have pics on my phone, and still have my digi sitting on the bathroom counter. I did put it in the trash last night. Then dug it right back out this morning!!! I just can't let it go yet. This journey has been difficult with so many friend announcing this past year while we've been TTC, and I don't think I'll give it up until I have my first US pic.
I ordered my first baby-related item today. It was a Detroit Tigers maternity shirt that says "future Tigers fan" since we're doing our announcement photo at a Tigers Spring Training game.
We waited until after our first US with DS to buy anything and now the superstitious part of me has had the anxiety level cranked up ever since. I feel like I jinxed myself.
It was only sheer willpower to not ruin my eyeliner that kept me from crying while I made my son's lunch because it smelled really good and I used to love it before I went gluten free.
@ArtificialRed I'm mostly gluten free (with the occasional cheat!) do you have celiac? I tested negative for it but still just feel better not eating gluten
I am POAS and temping. I will probably keep temping for most of my first tri.
I confess that I did very little work today between sheer exhaustion and playing phone tag with doctors throughout the day. I just kept stuffing my face all day to keep myself going. Luckily all I had was fruits, salad, and water. I gained way too fast last time!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
@heatherdubrow I have hashimotos (the autoimmune disease that attacks your thyroid and makes you hypothyroid). It's recommended by a lot of the more holistic doctors to go gf. I lowered my antibodies (not to the normal range, but still much lower), was easily able to keep my weight down, and also cleared up some nasty brain fog by going gf. I never cheat because I'm terrified of remembering how good it is and it becoming a trend for me. I went vegan really slowly and still have trouble saying no to Reese's cups, so I know my willpower is best if I don't test it lol
*raises hand* also, a POAS addict. I have pictures, and I have dated them and saved them in an empty makeup pouch I had lying around... why? I have no idea....
I save all my hpt's, they're in my bathroom drawer neatly labeled by dpo and date. So I have about 20 of them so far right now, after only four days, because PGAL brain is making me crazy.
So glad to know I'm not alone with my POAS addiction. The struggle is real! During my last pregnancy I had Crazy strong craving. I never eat fast food but for about a month Wendys home style chicken sandwich was all I could think about eating. I haven't had one for over two years when I was last pregnant... Until today.... Mentally I justified eating this fast food by blaming it on the pregnancy. Honestly though, I have no cravings or aversions right now. I feel totally normal. I just wanted an excuse to eat Wendy's.....
@cnf2013 I have all of mine too. Labeled with the date and time of day. Still have the ones from my first two pregnancies too.
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About me:
29 y/o Married 6.26.11 BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14 BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now! BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17 BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
@NYTino24 I also confess that I also have done remarkably little at work for the past couple days. It's not an especially busy time for us anyway, but either way my productivity is definitely lower than usual. Haha...oops.
I've managed to skip a day or two for poas, but I found out last night that I have one of those magical brands of internet cheapies that the test line can get darker than the control.. so naturally I had to use another this morning because that made me really, really happy. (Mine are also taped to an index card and labeled)
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Also, there's a 100% chance I'm going to keep POAS until my appt with my PCP next Monday.
Married Since: 7/29/2012
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Married: October 2009
TTC#1: August 2016
DD Born 10/20/17
Confession: I just had a huge snack and I really just want to eat more of it and not bother making dinner.
I also exaggerate my exhaustion to get DH to walk to dogs for me. Unless someone is actually out of the house, he'll walk the sheltie while I take the maltese out. She pees and poops and then I just carry her back in but it's cold out at night. He has to walk the sheltie for an actual walk and then come back in and get the little one because she doesn't do walks.
And I totally had a dream last night that I had an ultrasound and got to see the sac and everything was healthy which made me happy cry when I woke up.
TTC since August 2018
Married Since: 7/29/2012
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DH: 36
Together since 2007
Happily Ever After 4.30.2015
~~One Beautiful Daughter~~ Born: 11.6.2017
Trying for #2!!
Married Since: 7/29/2012
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Also, I too have pics on my phone, and still have my digi sitting on the bathroom counter. I did put it in the trash last night. Then dug it right back out this morning!!! I just can't let it go yet. This journey has been difficult with so many friend announcing this past year while we've been TTC, and I don't think I'll give it up until I have my first US pic.
TTC: 3/23/2013, BFP: 2/28/2014, EDD: 11/6/2014, ADD: 11/7/2014
TTC: 2/1/2016, BFP: 3/4/2017, EDD: 11/11/2017, No HB @ 8 weeks, MC: 4/8/2017
TTC: 5/24/2017, BFP: 4/14/2018, EDD: 12/22/2018
We waited until after our first US with DS to buy anything and now the superstitious part of me has had the anxiety level cranked up ever since. I feel like I jinxed myself.
I am also eating all the food today. @adirat I ended up eating the sandwich (plus some), it was delicious.
I confess that I did very little work today between sheer exhaustion and playing phone tag with doctors throughout the day. I just kept stuffing my face all day to keep myself going. Luckily all I had was fruits, salad, and water. I gained way too fast last time!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Sorry, that was kind of a novel.
About me:
Married 6.26.11
BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14
BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now!
BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17
BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
Dating: 10/23/2013
Married: 6/13/2014
TTC since June 2016
BFP #1: 3/2/17 - MC 5/22/17