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Back & Discouraged (Baby Mentioned)

pmv81pmv81 member
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Hello everyone...I'm back after 2 years. I'm 35, this year I've had 2 failed IUI's and now as of last week a failed IVF cycle - which was such a shock to me. I tried to be so positive about the IVF cycle that I convinced myself I was pregnant. A few times during the 2WW I thought, I should prepare myself for a BFN but didn't want any negativity to get into my head. We did a 5 day Blastocyst transfer, my doctor said everything looked great. I'm not sure of the numbers detailing the Blastocyst or my lining but we received such positive feedback from the doctors that it seemed like the best possible odds. We will be meeting with my doctor soon to go over next steps and review in detail my last cycle. They only retrieved 8 eggs, of those, 5 were fertilized and aside from the one transferred none of them made it to freeze. My husband has zero sperm so we made the decision a few years ago to try for a family with donor sperm. We purchased 5 vials and we're extremely blessed to have gotten pregnant with my first IUI, and now have a beautiful 21 month old daughter. It's even more evident now what a miracle she was. We are down to one vial left, I can't help but think of that as we prepare for our last shot at this. I'm so scared to go through the process again and have it fail. My husband refuses to believe it will fail again and while I appreciate him wanting to be strong for us, I can't help but just feel terrified and wonder how I'll be able to think positive through the next cycle knowing how i feel right now.

That's my story...thanks for reading. If anyone has any advice on what we should be asking our doctor when we meet with them I'm all ears and would very much appreciate the input from experience. I feel like I'm a little behind the curve on some of the details others have obtained through their IVF experiences. 
 
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Re: Back & Discouraged (Baby Mentioned)

  • rainbowwishes5rainbowwishes5 member
    Welcome and congrats on your child! Are you doing IUI or IVF again?
    Siggy Warning--------


    CP #1- due April 2017 lost 5.5 weeks
    cp #2- due May 2017 lost at 4.5 weeks
    iUI #1- BFN
    IUI #2-BFN
    IVF#1- transfer 2- BFP! Due October 2017 c/p#3 lost at 3.5 weeks
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  • oxinfreeoxinfree member
    Big hugs. Welcome to the community. I hope you find the support and encouragement you need to get through this next cycle. Much love <3
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    Started TTC April 2011
    Me: 32, DH: 32
    Diagnosis: Endometriosis

    • 2012 - 3 Rounds clomid - all BFN
    • 2013 - 1 Fresh IVF with 2 day 3 embryos - BFN
    • 2014 - 1 Frozen IVF with 2 day 5 embryos - BFN
    • Took a long break, continuing trying naturally
    • Feb 2016 - Biopsy = Endo, DH sperm improved from 1% to 6% morphology
    • March 2016 - Fresh IVF cycle with acupuncture & intralipids: 20 eggs retrieved (17 mature), 7 ICSI'd fertilized, 9 naturally fertilized. 16 total embryos!
    • April 8th - 2 embryos (1ICSI and 1 Natural) transferred. (7 blastocysts frozen), April 18th - Beta = BFN
    • Sept 23rd - Lupron Depot Injection for Endo control
    • Nov 15th 2016 - Started daily Lupron Injections for upcoming FET
    • Nov 22 - Baseline US/BW - Intralipid Infusion - Start Meds for FET with immune protocol
    • Dec 16th FET transfer of 3 embryos (1 - AA, 2 - BB)
    • TW below
    • Dec 22nd - first ever bfp (very faint lines FRER & cheapie)
    • Dec 27th Beta = 192, Dec 29th Beta = 379
    • EDD - Sept 5th 2017

    - - -
    I'm a YouTube vlogger who talks about Infertility, IVF and Endometriosis. Check it out here!
    Follow along at http://liv4today.blog
    Instagram @liv4todayvlog 


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  • pmv81pmv81 member
    @rainbowwishes5 Thank you...we are doing IVF again. 

    @oxinfree Thank you so much! Good luck with you FET transfer!
     
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  • Lin&sayLin&say member
    Welcome back, @pmv81. Sorry to hear your IVF cycle didn't work...big hugs to you. Infertility just isn't fair. I hope your doctor will have some answers for you and a good game plan for your next cycle. Wishing you lots of success! 
    Me: 31  DH: 32  Dx: Unexplained
    TTC #1 off and on since 2010
    11/15 - Clomid + TI = BFN
    12/15 - Clomid + TI = BFN
    1/16 - Clomid + IUI = BFN
    2/16 - Clomid + IUI = BFN
    4/16 - Follistim + IUI = BFN
    5/16 - 11/16 - Life / WTFing / Pity Party / Saving $
    1/17 - IVF #1 (Fresh Transfer / 6 frosties) = BFN
    3/17 - FET.... BFP! EDD 11/29
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