STM- Anxiety

EmyB30 · December 2016

Hey everyone! I hope it's okay to post a discussion that is not on our list!
I have a DS who is 3 years old. My estimated due date is August 12th and my first appt/ultrasound isn't until almost the end of January. I had a wonderful great pregnancy with my son. I was a tad nauseous in the evenings, exhaustion, and sore breasts in the beginning.
I have not had any of that this time around. I POAS around 10DPO and felt some nausea, sore breasts etc, but nothing since Thursday/Friday. I have peed on about 10 tests and made myself stop this morning. I suffer from anxiety/OCD/depression and was on meds after having my son until Sept when I weaned off because I was TTC the next month.
I am an anxious mess this time around. Anyone else? I just keeping telling myself I am pregnant today and I am not spotting and had a great 1st pregnancy.

britvahok · December 2016

@EmyB30 Yes, I have anxiety this pregnancy and I had anxiety the entire time I was pregnant with DS. I suffer for PGAL brain the entire time I'm pregnant. I saw a quote somewhere and it was something like "Take things one day at a time. I'm pregnant today and can't predict tomorrow so I might as well enjoy today" That's not the exact quote but similar. I try and tell myself that whenever I get anxiety and start worrying.

EmyB30 · December 2016

@britvahok Thank you so much for that quote. I have never suffered a loss so I don't know why I'm so anxious. I think it's because I'm comparing and somewhat forgot about how it felt last time. I know things will get better for me once I see/hear the heartbeat.

SouthernMama15 · December 2016

@EmyB30 I am a very anxious person. I've been on anxiety meds off and on since fall of 04 in college. I have been able to go off it for spurts of time, the longest about a year, I went off 3 months before getting pregnant with DD and up until 2 weeks after he was born. I eventually had to increase and start therapy. I've recently switched to Zoloft from Paxil as it is pregnancy safe, but my obstetrician wants me to wean off before the 3rd trimester if possible, but she said if I can't it's not a huge deal. When I injured my knee on Thanksgiving I suspected I was pregnant, but they did blood work at the ER and it was negative, now I'm in a brace and on crutches with the possibility of surgery so all I have is time to sit and worry.

EmyB30 · December 2016

@SouthernMama15 I have thought about asking my OB to put me on Zoloft at my appt in 8 weeks. Haha. But I think mine is situational right now and once I hear that lil heartbeat I'll be good. If not, I'll be asking. I was on Effexor before I got pregnant with DS and weaned off one month prior to getting pregnant. And went back on them around the time DS was 3 months until the past Sept. Weaning off of them this time was ROUGH I felt like a drug addict. I vow to never go back on Effexor.

lwhrmomma · December 2016

Super anxious here! I had such an easy pregnancy the first time around, but my son ended up being born with Sepsis and spent 2 weeks in the NICU... I was paranoid about this pregnancy before we even conceived. My first appt isn't until January 3rd, and I'm a nervous wreck that something will go wrong before then. I wish I could go today for bloodwork just for some reassurance that everything seems ok. Instead, I've POAS literally every day trying to see the line get darker haha. Once I hear that heartbeat I will be able to relax a bit, but it will be a longggggg month until then!

EmyB30 · December 2016

@kristenk727 I'm highly debating on buying $1 tests and peeing on them until my appt. Ha.

lwhrmomma · December 2016

@EmyB30, I bought a 25 pack from amazon for $10....... LOL

EmyB30 · December 2016

@kristenk727 don't tempt me....I have a free trial of Prime for the month....

SouthernMama15 · December 2016

I had a semi-tough pregnancy and the other thing is both times I have gotten pregnant very easy and have almost guilt about it. I feel like something is bound to go wrong

EmyB30 · December 2016

@SouthernMama15 this is exactly how I feel. I got pregnant with DS after 3 weeks off BCP and this one was on cycle #2. I feel so much guilt. I have a lot of friends who have had infertility issues, and I have two aunts who could not pregnant at all. Also family on both side who have suffered many miscarriages.

jesseleeb · December 2016

Honestly this is exactly how I've been feeling. I don't go to the doctor until mid January as well, and I have been so anxious about our living situation and financial situation, and DH hasn't been too understanding of how I have been feeling this past week with excessive exhaustion, awful mood swings, being hungry all the time, sore boobs, etc... even with all of the symptoms I'm still so anxious that something could go wrong between now and the doctors appointment over a month away. Even though everything is going smoothly so far, I can't keep my mind at peace and it is killing me and making me an emotional mess.

EmyB30 · December 2016

@jesseleeb we can just cry together....I know I was a wreck when I was pregnant with DS too until I heard the heartbeat and saw him on US. Then every week I would panic until I could hear his heartbeat again or see him on US. DH is being understanding but says I'm being more bitchy this time around. Thanks babe.

SouthernMama15 · December 2016

@EmyB30 I'm so glad for this thread! I have friends and family that struggle with fertility and I'm so glad to not be the only one who feels guilt

jesseleeb · December 2016

@EmyB30 yes please. In all seriousness, I do feel like I could just sit and cry. If I could see our little one on an US or hear the heartbeat or anything I feel like it would take a huge load off of my shoulders. But it doesn't help that DH isn't being understanding. I can't even have a symptom without him poking fun at me. I'm trying not to take my anxiety and frustrations out on him but I'm tired of him going, "Stop saying it's because you're pregnant, it's too early to use that excuse. Seriously, don't start already." And I'm like ??? Why do you think I can't keep my eyes open or why I'm hungry every hour or why I keep crying... honestly. Just try to get it! Don't even bring up the anxiety issue with him because he's just like "no, don't go there."

EmyB30 · December 2016

@jesseleeb can you maybe tell him what is going on inside of your body right now, or what is going on with the baby right now? I found that last time telling DH what baby was doing or creating that week was helpful. I know me telling him that growing a baby is hard wasn't what he wanted to hear.

jesseleeb · December 2016

@EmyB30 I have a feeling when he sees baby for himself too that he'll lighten up and it'll be real for him. That's a great idea though, telling him what baby is doing or creating.

TheNewMrsLee · December 2016

I always have some mild loss anxiety because we have a lot of loss on my husband's side of the family, early and late term losses. I think it being close to home and having fertility issues it makes me really nervous to have a loss. However, every single day gets more and more positive. I think STMing has given me more confidence to know what is normal vs what isn't and when someone is feeding me bullshit.

MsR0801 · December 2016

@EmyB30 I suffered from PPD the first time around and PPA the second time. I was on meds until about June and will likely go back on them after baby is born. I've always had anxiety and OCD, buy the meds make it manageable. I've been paranoid this time around as week and can't wait until my first I/s in Jan!

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