CS/Q: My cover line seems really high - 97.6ish. What happens if I don't maintain above it? Do the CH go away?
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Most nights I wake up several times and make sure my dog is alive. My last two dogs, I woke up to them dead, so I have highhhhhh anxiety about it all the time, even though my dog is only 4.
Testing: My plan is to wait until 12DPO at the earliest but I still have ICs soooo the struggle will be real.
R/R: Rant: the seller of the house we want apparently didn't realize that we were asking her to pay closing costs so she has gone up $1000 from her original counter offer. Looks like DH and I will be putting off buying a house until next year. Also I did something wrong to my neck/shoulder area and it hurts any time I turn my head to the right. Rave: it's Friday! I get my hair cut today! CS/Q: Is there a big difference between temping orally VS vaginally? If so which is better? Also also: for those that do temp vaginally do you wash your thermometer off every day? GTKY: What is your biggest fear? My 100% biggest fear is dying alone. Not in the sense of I pass away and no one is there but more like I have no friends/family. It's just me. Also I fear spiders, snakes, and heights.
Testing: BFN this morning. Will test again in a few days I guess.
R/R: Rave: MH FINALLY comes home tomorrow. Not a fan of him being gone Sunday night- Saturday morning. Rant: BFN. Could be to early, but probably not.
CS/Q: nope. Temps still high.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Fish. It sounds ridiculous but I am petrified of them. Alive, dead, cooked... anything. I had a panic attack in the Tennessee Aquarium once haha. It is completely unfounded, I have no bad or traumatizing experiences to cause it. Just writing this raises my anxiety.
CD/DPO: 22/7, with all the reasons to question that have been vetted on this wonderful board in the last few days
Timing: good if FF is right; lousy otherwise
Testing: 10 or 13 dpo
R/R: I'm just really happy it's Friday. I need the weekend!
CS/Q: nope.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I'm terrified of home invasion. I double check alll the doors are locked and don't sleep well if I'm home alone at night. An overactive imagination is to blame for this one!
@osucma That's sad! I'm glad current dog is happy, healthy and young! @GlitterFish FF took away my cover line when I dipped below it on 4 dpo, but then immediately gave it back when the temp rose back to where it was (and reestablished crosshairs where they were before the dip so dpo did not change). I have a bunch of clear circles though, so that probably hasn't something to do with it.
@GlitterFish - Your coverline looks fine to me. It's not so much a matter of the number it's at, as long as there's a shift in temps. If you dip below it a few times, not a big deal. I've never seen CH's go away after I have a few consistent temps above it. I would imagine if your temps dropped and stayed down, you might see the CH's go away. @GeorgiaWife6912 - So sorry for the BFN!
Month/Cycle: 7/5
CD/DPO: 25/12
Timing: EOD
Testing: tomorrow if no temp drop.
R/R: DH didn't steal the sheets last night! And didn't knee me in the back either! Woohoo! (It's the little things in life).
CS/Q: Nada limonada.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Most definitely snakes (which is even more ridiculous, because I live in the part of the country with only TINY non-poisonous snakes). Followed closely by the dark. And basically Australia - I want to go so bad but between their snakes, spiders, and whatever else can kill you there...
Testing: really trying not to until AF is late. Starting to get really curious! I have those internet cheapies too
R/R:H is having buddies visit this weekend. I want to put some of the house cleaning on him, but he just does not do it right, and it makes me frustrated, so I end up correcting it later. I hate always being responsible for it! But the last time I had him make the beds, he made it so wrong it was ridiculous. Fitted sheet on inside out, flat sheet on with the top at the bottom of the bed, and comforter on sideways!!! ahhhh!
CS/Q: I've had random mild discomfort in my lower abdomen for two days, like that pre-period feeling but no AF yet. Any one else get that? I usually do a day before AF, but this seems excessively long
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Cats. I am the biggest animal lover but for some reason cats scare the crap out of me. Every time I try to pet one, or am near one, they bite or scratch me. Even when my friends say that they are the sweetest cats and they wont do anything, they bite me.
@glitterfish What a terrible thing to happen! I definitely understand that fear! I have three dogs at home that I adore. I don't know what I would do if I lost any of them!
@GeorgiaWife6912 I am a water baby and love the ocean, but as I've gotten older, I geek out if I see fish or feel one touch me in the water.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
R/R: My mom's heart procedure went extremely well!
CS/Q: No AF. BFN. Temp drop this morning...so maybe AF is on her way? I'm starting to think I ovulated a day later than FF said OR not at all I've been analyzing my chart obsessively, and I feel like I'm nuts or something. I can't figure out why I have no AF, but such a beautiful temp shift. I'm hoping AF comes today so I can stop obsessing and start a new cycle!
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Drowning or choking to death
@GlitterFish Probably just a slow rise, your CL looks believable to me. (Also, your GTKY... huge hugs your way, that's a totally understandable fear given the tough circumstances) @GeorgiaWife6912 Meh, I'm sorry about the BFN; they are the worst (even when it's too early to really believe them).
Month/Cycle: 14 / 12
CD/DPO: 21 / 7 dpiui
Timing: -1, IUI@hopeful-O, +1
Testing: 10/23 (at 16 dpiui)
R/R: I got nothin' today.
CS/Q: Ditto.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? My biggest fear is flying -- and that's pretty irrational, given the numbers that show it's overwhelmingly safer than driving! But numbers seem to mean nothing to me about this one. When I was little (5?) I was on a commercial flight that had one of the engines explode during takeoff, while the plane was still under 10,000 feet and in traffic. I still remember the total, dead silence of the terrified people on the plane, and watching the dark smoke from the explosion suck into the other engine as the plane (still nose-up in a takeoff angle) started gently losing elevation. I think that would have been quite enough by itself to leave me terrified for life, but then in 8th grade my math teacher's young-20s son was killed in plane crash where a commercial flight went down just short of the runway in Detroit. Between the two, I will never got a plane without pure terror the entire flight. I still make myself fly -- I live half a country away from most of my family, and I have to for work... but it always requires facing some demons.
@BaileyM321 That's a terrible thing to happen to you! Understandable that your fear of flying would be so intense!
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Testing: went in for scheduled blood test with RE and waiting for the results but I'm 98% sure it will be BFN thanks to all the sticks I peed on earlier this week. I have to admit I'm still a teeny bit hopeful.
R/R: My dog was such a jerk last night! Starting around 12:30 she started knocking things off my bedside table to wake me up and then was insistent that she get in bed with us but she takes up my whole side and my pillow. I would happily have her in the bed with us but she refuses to be anywhere but my spot. H slept through the whole thing.
CS/Q: nah. just waiting for the "good" news that I'm free to get my drink on this weekend.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears?
I don't have any irrational fears but I get very nervous in the ocean. I make H hold my hand the whole time we are in the water.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
Testing: none planned. My Dr may test at my apt next fri, but we'll see what she wants to do.
R/R: I'm just feeling really blah about this whole cycle. I was sick for about a week prior to what I think was my o date. It made for an early o, some so so timing, and high temps. H has also shifted from being the optimist in our relationship to a total pessimist about ttc and it's wearing me out!
However, it's Friday, I'm off of work, and we're leaving this afternoon for a weekend trip to a spa and I am thrilled!!!
CS/Q: No, my chart is too distorted this cycle to even bother with.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I watch too much law & order, criminal minds, etc., and am now irrationally afraid of someone coming to get me in the middle of the night when H is away. I know it is so incredibly stupid and unlikely, but that doesn't stop me from getting anxious every time, haha!
Edit: Autocorrect is wrong. To and too are not the same word.
@GlitterFish that's so scary! I would be so sad if anything happened to my pup
@BaileyM321 I don't know how you get on a plane!!! So scary
Month/Cycle: 1/1
CD/DPO: 27/13
Timing: -2 (benched after due to zika concern)
Testing: stark white BFNs the past 3 days. Waiting for AF now
R/R: sigh. Idk why I expected better since this was our first month and our timing was poor due to our zika scare but I'm still disappointed. I'm trying to look on the positive side and think that now I'll be able to get back on track with healthy eating and working out which will be better for baby and myself once it does happen. I definitely fell off the health wagon after the wedding.
CS/Q:
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Elevators! I have read a couple of stories about elevators dropping while people are stepping in and they get tangled and killed. Also this week there was a story that the elevator opened and a mom pushed her stroller in and the baby fell 23 floors
Me: 28 | DH: 33 EDD: March 24, 2018 - angel baby at 21 weeks
R/R: The weather is disgusting right now. I can hear it pouring rain and I don't want to get out of bed. Especially because our dog just cuddled up so sweetly. But I have a meeting to get to.
CS/Q:
GTKY: I've always been really worried about house fires. And I know a couple people who have had them so I'm a little neurotic about that. I'm also really afraid of going blind. I don't think I'm smart enough to have so many places mapped out in my mind, remember which street crossing tone is for what direction, etc. and I don't want to put that much trust in other people.
Me: 34 DH: 38 Married: June 2011 TTC since Feb 2016 BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@JuneRoseRuby I feel the same way you do about house cleaning. Sometimes I think my H half asses it on purpose so I just do it myself. He cleans his own bathroom and the basement weekly, and every month or so I follow behind him and do an actual good cleaning.
Month/Cycle: 5/4
CD/DPO:
Timing: -4,-1
Testing: 12dpo most likely
R/R: *tw* my heart is just so heavy lately because of our loss. I feel like I keep repeating myself on here and I apologize for being such a downer, I just feel so sad this week. The holiday season, beginning with Halloween is normally my favorite time of year and I'm terrified I will be so sad not to be KU that I won't enjoy it. I know there are so many worse things, so I hope I can snap myself out of this *end tw*
CS/Q: Does anyone else stare at their chart all the time? I think sometimes I think the dots will spell out YOU'RE KU or something.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears?
Snakes. At my past job, they found a tiny snake in my office and I was terrified to go in there for weeks.
Also, house fires. I don't know why because I've never experienced one. My H is even worse than me so we're a bunch of paranoid freaks about candles, etc.
@zwink I have a weird similar fear of someone sneaking into the house specifically when I am washing my face and they smash my face into the faucet to knock me out. I will scream bloody murder if my H comes in when I am washing my face and he accidentally surprises me.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@GlitterFish that is awful! I would have the same fear! @theweevee I am afraid of that as well. In 2013 I came home to our house being broken into. At the time I had no idea that they were still in there, just saw my door open and ran to the neighbors. It turns out that me opening our garage door actually scared them out of the house. Terrifying to think about. @KhRun17@BaileyM321 Thanks for the love @JuneRoseRuby haha it sounds like he was thinking if he did it horribly, you wouldn't ask him to do it again. That's awful but I couldn't help but chuckle about HOW awful it was. @CallaLily25 I'm so happy to hear your mom's procedure went well! It sounds like AF is (finally) on her way with that temp drop! (mobile so I can't see) @BaileyM321 holy cow! Your fear is completely justified! I can't believe you have the guts to fly again after all of that! Props to you for facing that fear! @laurad75 fx for positive results! And I love your positive outlook regardless! @zwink1 Tell him to man up! haha jk. But really, he needs to be positive to be supportive to you. The added stress doesn't help anything! And I can completely agree with your fear. I hate when MH is gone and he's been away for work the last few weeks. @haylsbayls sorry for the BFN. I feel you on the high hopes for cycle 1! I'm right there with you. Also, I saw that story about the baby. How terrible. I cannot even begin to imagine. @kiki75 rainy days are the best for staying in bed. I dont blame you! I am dying at your siggy gif. Cracking up. @hartmich I am so incredibly sorry. I am sending you so many hugs. I cannot imagine how you feel. I hope you can climb out of this dark place soon. Also, I do stare at my chart endlessly. And compare it with previous charts. Con-stant-ly. I drive myself crazy!
@theweevee I can relate to the home invasion fear! It's mostly when DH is gone - like last night. I locked every single door and window in the house, which wouldn't be unusual except we live in a semi-rural area outside of a small town and we rarely EVER lock our doors.
@KhRun17 I'm jealous of your willpower to wait until 13DPO to test! And, I visited Australia for a month when I was in college. I wish I could put your fears to rest, but it really is crazy how many poisonous things live there and how often you come across them!
@JuneRoseRuby can you give your DH a job that he isn't likely to eff up? I can't stand being responsible for all of the house cleaning when it isn't my guest coming to stay.
@CallaLily25 so sorry for another BFN, I was really rooting for you this cycle. But, I'm soo glad your mom's surgery went well!!!
@BaileyM321 OMG your plane stories are terrifying! I'm assuming the flight you were on had to make an emergency landing? Was that part really turbulent? Probably a stupid question, but I've always wondered what it's like for the planes that have to make emergency landings for mechanical reasons - the ones that don't end in a crash.
@laurad75 I too am waiting for the "all clear" to drink this weekend. No blood test for me, but I'm trying to look at the bright side of BFNs.
Testing: another BFN this morning. I have cheapies, and I hate getting up in the morning, so my excuse for testing is that it helps me get up in the morning. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
R/R: I usually have 1-2 glasses of wine at night, but I stopped drinking at 5DPO because of my possible implantation bleeding (which was probably bullshit), and because it certainly doesn't hurt me to skip the booze for a few days. But, if AF shows up I'm buying a bottle of wine and a really long straw.
CS/Q: nada
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I'm really afraid of heights. I also get freaked out when I'm washing my face in the shower and can't open my eyes - I can't not picture some psycho with a knife behind me. If I think of anything more poignant I'll add later.
@lund I usually give him vacuuming. That's hard to mess up as long as I don't perseverate on the fact that he will vacuum and then turn around to vacuum in the opposite direction and then walk in the lovely vacuum tracks and it looks unvacuumed so quickly...
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Testing: BFN yesterday, no more unless AF doesn't show soon. even with a bunch of wondfo's sitting in my cabinet with my temp drop this AM I wasnt event remotely tempted to test.
R/R: I am so happy for the massive number of BFP's this week but today it also makes me sad because I won't be joining them unless we restart fertility treatments... I have hit the IF reality portion of my cycle.
CS/Q: no, ugly temp drop marring my beautiful chart.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Something happening to the babies, I cant imagine my life without them.
sorry ladies I am going to have to be back for comments later work is going to be crazy today.
*TW*
TTC 1/2012 Diagnosed : unexplained infertility 6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015 TTC #3 5/2016 Restarted Fertility tx IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
Update: test came back negative so I am out. Obvi I will stick around here until AF which will hopefully come no earlier than Sunday because timing is tricky next cycle. This also means I will cross over into the TTC 6+ cycles/ months so I'm lurking on the T-TTC and IF boards. I knew it was a long shot when we missed the surge for the IUI but I'm a little more bummed out than I had anticipated. Thank you for coming to my pity party. Let's move on...
@GlitterFish So far that's a nice looking chart. FF can be weird about CH. It tried to move mine a few days ago bc I was tracking CM and I had a temp dip. I switched the 'detector settings' to put it back. Also, that's a terrible story about your dogs. It makes me not hate mine so much for being such a jerk last night. At least when she is waking me up I know she's dead.
@osucma I love getting my hair cut. I always have such a confidence after my stylist does my hair.
@GeorgiaWife6912 Sorry for the BFN. I vote you wait a few more days. FX
@JuneRoseRuby My H sucks at making the bed too - nothing is tucked in and it doesn't look any better than before it was made. I only go back and fix it if we have company.
@hartmich I'm sorry honey. I'm glad you are still trying but I think its important to still mourn the loss. We are here for you.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI, 2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks May 2020 FET; BFN July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate Oct 2020 BFP!
@lund I'm sorry for the BFN @wabash15 I'm so sorry for the BFN and temp drop. So many creepy internet hugs to you! It's so hard to see all the BFPs when you desperately want one yourself. It doesn't mean that you can't be happy for them! I can completely identify with something happening to my DS. That is a fear I can't even allow myself to think about!
Sorry to post and ghost earlier, work got slammed out of now where.
@glitterfish sorry to hear about your dogs. What a hard thing to have happen! I can't imagine. @BaileyM321 I think you have a very valid reason to fear flying. What a scary thing to have happen! @hartmich@wabash15 *creepy internet hugs* sorry you gals are having such a rough time @LuND it is all very frustrating. Maybe that's why I am having pains today. @Laurad75 sorry you are out *creepy internet hugs*
@wabash15@laurad75@GeorgiaWife6912 Let's just have one big pity party, ok ladies? At least we have each other. I like @lund 's plan of a bottle of wine with a long straw.
R/R: I started spotting this morning. I am hoping AF holds off until tomorrow at least. It isn't a surprise, but I was still a tiny bit hopeful that it would stay away.
CS/Q: Nope
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I have this weird fear about things like ATVs and snowmobiles exploding while I am riding them. I picture it happening while I am on them. It is weird.
@hartmich@LuND - here's a way for you to keep it classy and drink out of a wine glass... So sorry for the BFN's! (@LuND - don't be too impressed by my will power...I tested yesterday. I just haven't lost hope yet, so pending temps, plan to again tomorrow...)
Speaking of the TTGP Grad thread, when is it appropriate to post in it? Obviously this doesn't apply to me as I got a BFN haha, but just curious when you are considered "a regular" and it won't be frowned on to post your BFP?
@hartmich so sorry you're having a rough time. You have every right to feel the way you do - there is no right or wrong way to get through something like this. So many creepy internet hugs to you. On another note, I absolutely stare at my chart, calendar, Ovia app, etc. too. It's kinda like when you repeatedly open the fridge and stare at the contents willing them to change into a cake or something.
Speaking of the TTGP Grad thread, when is it appropriate to post in it? Obviously this doesn't apply to me as I got a BFN haha, but just curious when you are considered "a regular" and it won't be frowned on to post your BFP?
I am curious about this. I asked before but never got an answer. The consensus I got when I asked was that no one really wanted to answer the question to not make anyone upset. Also just that if you are regularly posting and actually interacting with others that certainly helped.
No completely honest answer would have made me upset.
Really sorry to hear about your testing @laurad75. I'm at 6 months too but under 35 (though not as far under as I'd like) so was told to wait and haven't had any special appointments or tests yet. I keep telling myself the first 4 months shouldn't count because we had the timing off, but I know they do. I hope next cycle is yours so you don't have to keep going through all that.
Month/Cycle: 6/5
CD/DPO: 24/9
Timing: EOD
Testing: No
R/R: Looking forward to the weekend, and hoping that will stop me from testing too early. My goal is to make it to 1 week from today before testing. That will be 16 DPO but I want to wait anyway because I could have been off on O 1-1.5 days depending on the length of my LP surge and length of O and my LP wasn't short last time so that's how I'm justifying it. BFNs really bum me out--prefer just to be onto the next cycle as I can turn that into a partial positive in my mind.
CS/Q:
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? So many fears--hard to pick just one! Putting the existential stuff aside, I've always had a thing about drowning in the ocean. I almost drowned a few times as a kid and I've had a repetitive nightmare all my life about being smothered by a tidal aka "sneaker" wave (they're kinda like tsunamis but more localized). Good thing MH isn't a beach guy!
BaileyM321 Wow you've been through some nightmares! Flying is up there on my fear list too (and definitely on my PITA list), and I also have family and ILs all over the country. Some family is accessible by ridiculously long drives so we do those when we can for distances that other people would fly for. Not to add to your fears, but it's a surprisingly under-regulated industry in the US and they really don't pay the pilots enough. OK now I am scaring myself again because I have to get on 4 planes next month... ugh
@GeorgiaWife6912@osucma I don't think there is a cut and dry answer, which is why I think you haven't gotten one. The best answer I ever saw someone give was that if someone will notice that you're no longer posting, you should post in the grad thread. This is just one of those things that no matter what, someone having a bad TTC day may get upset.
@lund Thank you for your kind words and also, the laugh about staring into the fridge, because that's SO true.
@osucma Sorry you are having such a hard time with buying a house. @GeorgiaWife6912@lund@wabash15 Sorry for the BFNs @JuneRoseRuby I hear you on husbands. I have decided mine just cleans badly in hopes (or because he knows) I'll come behind him and fix it. But then if he catches me, he gripes about it. No win situation, right? @CallaLily25 That's great news about your mom!! @BaileyM321 Wow, I don't blame you for not wanting to fly after all that, but kudos for facing your fears! @zwink1 ohh, so jealous! A spa weekend sounds amazing! @hartmich So sorry you are feeling down **creepy hugs** @lund Right there with you on the wine.
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Month/Cycle: 7 TTCAL
CD/DPO: 30/9
Timing: -4, -3, -1
Testing: nah, the cramps and other usual PMS symptoms have started, so I'm thinking I'm out.
R/R: It's a bit of a rant/rave combo, but I'm going to happy hour tonight at a fun bar that I really enjoy. The rant is that this is their last weekend being open and I'm sure the new owners will completely kill the vibe and it won't be the same after this.
CS/Q: nope
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I am irrationally afraid of losing my teeth, specifically the front ones getting knocked out. I never run up stairs because of it.
@JuneRoseRuby@haylsbayls@GeorgiaWife6912@osucma I really appreciate you ladies all reassuring me that my fear of flying is reasonable given the history! :-) I always feel so silly when I tell people I’m scared of airplanes. (I think because it’s always used as the #1 example of an irrational fear that you have to ignore statistics to have).
@LuND Yeah, it was an emergency landing. I don’t remember it as turbulent except the moment of the explosion. Just that we had to bank around very very slowly. We landed at the same airport we’d just taken off from (PIT), and I DO remember that there were fire trucks. My parents have told me that when we left the plane the pilot had emerged from the cockpit and he was /drenched/ in sweat marks down to his waistline - but I don’t remember that. (Also, boo to another BFN, I’m sorry)
@vflux33 I hear you on the pilots not getting paid enough! I can worry myself sick about that one too, and will only fly major carriers because of it. Glad I’m not alone!
@CallaLily25 I agree from your chart you may have ovulated a day later than FF says. I also think coming off BCP you can have longer than usual LPs. So frustrating! I hope you get clarity soon!
@GeorgiaWife6912 So sorry for the BFN! @CallaLily25 I'm so happy your mom's procedure went well! @hartmich You have every right to be sad and to mourn. Creepy internet hugs.
Month/Cycle: 2/2
CD/DPO: 26/?
Timing: Good, I think
Testing: Still trying to hold out
R/R: This weekend is going to be crazy, so I don't know how much bumping I'll be able to do. Makes me sad - this little support group has become a big part of my daily routine. But, one of the busy things this weekend is my first race since my knee surgery in February, so I'm pretty excited about that!
CS/Q: new to temping question - when I hear about temp drops before AF, is there a specific range/drop amount that you look for?
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I have to third @theweevee and @zwink1 - I'm irrationally afraid to be home alone at night. If DH is out of town, I triple check every door and window. Which pisses me off, since I lived in Chicago for two years completely by myself and was totally fine. Living with a boy has ruined me!
@georgiawife6912 and @osucma - I don't think there's a definitive answer. I think if people would recognize your screen name, they care to hear when you get a BFP. If you've been posting daily (or almost daily) in the WTO and TWW threads, even if it's only for 1 cycle, it's appropriate. The real annoyance is when someone posts and it just feels like they wanted to brag to everyone. I mean, we get it...most people won't tell anyone right away that they're pregnant, but want to shout it from the rooftops. But if we don't know you, we don't care.
@hartmich it is OK to still be sad. TW**yes there are worse things than not being pregnant at Halloween but this is not just not being pregnant. You are mourning the loss of a life, a dream and all the hopes that you had going along with it. you don't have to minimize that. I think that for loss mamma's that loss is never far away, we always think about the what ifs. It will always be there but it will get better. TW**
@osucma@GeorgiaWife6912 I second @KhRun17 and @hartmich if you think people will miss you then post. If you are a regular daily or nearly daily poster and have given support even if you were lucky enough to only be here for a month then post. With that being said if you've only been here a month someone having a hard TTC day might say something. there is no fully right answer unless your a drive by poster.
Pity party glasses of wine all around! I love you guys and I am giving you all invisible internet hugs and wine.
@Glitterfish Your coverline might be a little high but regardless of whether your CH disappear, I am very confident you ovulated!
@Georgiawife6912 So sad, I love going to the aquarium! Sorry for BFN
@laurad75 Sorry for BFN. At least there's alcohol. (I also lurk the TTTC and IF boards so I get it but I hope to see you continue here too)
@hartmich You do not need to apologize for being down post-loss. That's what we are here for! Hugs.
@wabash15 Hugs. I completely understand the combination of happiness and sadness seeing the grad thread. It must be so tough for you with unexplained infertility. Are you thinking of resuming IUIs?
@osucma and @GeorgiaWife6912 OK so when I was first lurking in May and June, there were some votes held about how soon it's OK to post in the grad thread. I think previously the rule had been not in your first month trying, but OK in the second month and beyond if you are a regular (multiples times per week) poster. The vote was that it was OK in any month if you are a regular poster, BUT this was not a unanimous vote and I know at least one person posted her BFP after one month of trying and it was not popular (though she also said some not-well-worded things in there so that may have contributed). I tend to be in the camp of if you are in doubt, don't post, but not everyone feels this way. I also think people should only post if they are interacting with others, not just posting your daily WTO/TWW but never talking to and supporting others (that said this is not quantifiable, just a personal thing). If you are beyond your first cycle trying, you talk to others on here, and you aren't a jerk about anything, I imagine most people would be OK with your post. (In the interest of full disclosure, it's tough for me to see people post BFPs in cycle 1 and cycle 2, but I am self-aware enough to know that about myself, so I avoid the thread on my tough TTC days.)
Month/Cycle: 5/5 (Last cycle before we have to TTA 2-3 months)
CD/DPO: CD21/6dpo
Timing: -4, -3, -1
Testing: Planning for Monday in case I need to start progesterone
R/R: Friiiiiiiiday and my husband comes home tomorrow!
CS/Q: Well the BSC has started early... last night (at 5dpo) I had a huge rush of EWCM and a tiny bit of bright red spotting. My first thought was "f--- my LP is getting even shorter" but then my second thought was "This must be implantation spotting!!!11!" I have seesawed between these two crazy thoughts constantly since then, even though today (6dpo) I have neither thing and surely last night was a weird fluke.
GTKY: I have a lot of fear of failure that manifests in irrational ways. That feels so boring compared to the intense stories you ladies have shared!
Re: TWW Friday 10/14
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Most nights I wake up several times and make sure my dog is alive. My last two dogs, I woke up to them dead, so I have highhhhhh anxiety about it all the time, even though my dog is only 4.
Highly monitored internet and no cell service in the office, so I'm postin' and ghostin' while I'm workin'
Rave: it's Friday! I get my hair cut today!
CS/Q: Is there a big difference between temping orally VS vaginally? If so which is better? Also also: for those that do temp vaginally do you wash your thermometer off every day?
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? My 100% biggest fear is dying alone. Not in the sense of I pass away and no one is there but more like I have no friends/family. It's just me.
Also I fear spiders, snakes, and heights.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Fish. It sounds ridiculous but I am petrified of them. Alive, dead, cooked... anything. I had a panic attack in the Tennessee Aquarium once haha. It is completely unfounded, I have no bad or traumatizing experiences to cause it. Just writing this raises my anxiety.
Me: 33 DH: 33
Married: 6.9.12
DS born: 4.9.14
DD born 7.27.17
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I'm terrified of home invasion. I double check alll the doors are locked and don't sleep well if I'm home alone at night. An overactive imagination is to blame for this one!
@osucma That's sad! I'm glad current dog is happy, healthy and young!
@GlitterFish FF took away my cover line when I dipped below it on 4 dpo, but then immediately gave it back when the temp rose back to where it was (and reestablished crosshairs where they were before the dip so dpo did not change). I have a bunch of clear circles though, so that probably hasn't something to do with it.
@GlitterFish - Your coverline looks fine to me. It's not so much a matter of the number it's at, as long as there's a shift in temps. If you dip below it a few times, not a big deal. I've never seen CH's go away after I have a few consistent temps above it. I would imagine if your temps dropped and stayed down, you might see the CH's go away.
@GeorgiaWife6912 - So sorry for the BFN!
CS/Q: Nada limonada.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Most definitely snakes (which is even more ridiculous, because I live in the part of the country with only TINY non-poisonous snakes). Followed closely by the dark. And basically Australia - I want to go so bad but between their snakes, spiders, and whatever else can kill you there...
Dating: 11/14/2010
Married: 10/18/2014
TTC April 2016
BFP: 5/12/2016 ~ MC: 5/25/2016
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Cats. I am the biggest animal lover but for some reason cats scare the crap out of me. Every time I try to pet one, or am near one, they bite or scratch me. Even when my friends say that they are the sweetest cats and they wont do anything, they bite me.
@glitterfish What a terrible thing to happen! I definitely understand that fear! I have three dogs at home that I adore. I don't know what I would do if I lost any of them!
@GeorgiaWife6912 I am a water baby and love the ocean, but as I've gotten older, I geek out if I see fish or feel one touch me in the water.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Drowning or choking to death
Married: November 2015
@GeorgiaWife6912 Meh, I'm sorry about the BFN; they are the worst (even when it's too early to really believe them).
Month/Cycle: 14 / 12
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? My biggest fear is flying -- and that's pretty irrational, given the numbers that show it's overwhelmingly safer than driving! But numbers seem to mean nothing to me about this one. When I was little (5?) I was on a commercial flight that had one of the engines explode during takeoff, while the plane was still under 10,000 feet and in traffic. I still remember the total, dead silence of the terrified people on the plane, and watching the dark smoke from the explosion suck into the other engine as the plane (still nose-up in a takeoff angle) started gently losing elevation. I think that would have been quite enough by itself to leave me terrified for life, but then in 8th grade my math teacher's young-20s son was killed in plane crash where a commercial flight went down just short of the runway in Detroit. Between the two, I will never got a plane without pure terror the entire flight. I still make myself fly -- I live half a country away from most of my family, and I have to for work... but it always requires facing some demons.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears?
I don't have any irrational fears but I get very nervous in the ocean. I make H hold my hand the whole time we are in the water.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Month/Cycle: 12/10
However, it's Friday, I'm off of work, and we're leaving this afternoon for a weekend trip to a spa and I am thrilled!!!
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I watch too much law & order, criminal minds, etc., and am now irrationally afraid of someone coming to get me in the middle of the night when H is away. I know it is so incredibly stupid and unlikely, but that doesn't stop me from getting anxious every time, haha!
Edit: Autocorrect is wrong. To and too are not the same word.
@BaileyM321 I don't know how you get on a plane!!! So scary
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Elevators! I have read a couple of stories about elevators dropping while people are stepping in and they get tangled and killed. Also this week there was a story that the elevator opened and a mom pushed her stroller in and the baby fell 23 floors
EDD: March 24, 2018 - angel baby at 21 weeks
CD/DPO: 23/4
Timing: -3,-2,-1
Testing: Next Friday if no temp drop
R/R: The weather is disgusting right now. I can hear it pouring rain and I don't want to get out of bed. Especially because our dog just cuddled up so sweetly. But I have a meeting to get to.
CS/Q:
GTKY: I've always been really worried about house fires. And I know a couple people who have had them so I'm a little neurotic about that. I'm also really afraid of going blind. I don't think I'm smart enough to have so many places mapped out in my mind, remember which street crossing tone is for what direction, etc. and I don't want to put that much trust in other people.
Married: June 2011
TTC since Feb 2016
BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16
BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
@JuneRoseRuby I feel the same way you do about house cleaning. Sometimes I think my H half asses it on purpose so I just do it myself. He cleans his own bathroom and the basement weekly, and every month or so I follow behind him and do an actual good cleaning.
Month/Cycle: 5/4
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears?
Snakes. At my past job, they found a tiny snake in my office and I was terrified to go in there for weeks.
Also, house fires. I don't know why because I've never experienced one. My H is even worse than me so we're a bunch of paranoid freaks about candles, etc.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@theweevee I am afraid of that as well. In 2013 I came home to our house being broken into. At the time I had no idea that they were still in there, just saw my door open and ran to the neighbors. It turns out that me opening our garage door actually scared them out of the house. Terrifying to think about.
@KhRun17 @BaileyM321 Thanks for the love
@JuneRoseRuby haha it sounds like he was thinking if he did it horribly, you wouldn't ask him to do it again. That's awful but I couldn't help but chuckle about HOW awful it was.
@CallaLily25 I'm so happy to hear your mom's procedure went well! It sounds like AF is (finally) on her way with that temp drop! (mobile so I can't see)
@BaileyM321 holy cow! Your fear is completely justified! I can't believe you have the guts to fly again after all of that! Props to you for facing that fear!
@laurad75 fx for positive results! And I love your positive outlook regardless!
@zwink1 Tell him to man up! haha jk. But really, he needs to be positive to be supportive to you. The added stress doesn't help anything! And I can completely agree with your fear. I hate when MH is gone and he's been away for work the last few weeks.
@haylsbayls sorry for the BFN. I feel you on the high hopes for cycle 1! I'm right there with you. Also, I saw that story about the baby. How terrible. I cannot even begin to imagine.
@kiki75 rainy days are the best for staying in bed. I dont blame you! I am dying at your siggy gif. Cracking up.
@hartmich I am so incredibly sorry. I am sending you so many hugs. I cannot imagine how you feel. I hope you can climb out of this dark place soon. Also, I do stare at my chart endlessly. And compare it with previous charts. Con-stant-ly. I drive myself crazy!
Me: 33 DH: 33
Married: 6.9.12
DS born: 4.9.14
DD born 7.27.17
@osucma sorry about the house and your neck/shoulder! Sounds very frustrating.
@GeorgiaWife6912 sorry for the BFN
@theweevee I can relate to the home invasion fear! It's mostly when DH is gone - like last night. I locked every single door and window in the house, which wouldn't be unusual except we live in a semi-rural area outside of a small town and we rarely EVER lock our doors.
@KhRun17 I'm jealous of your willpower to wait until 13DPO to test! And, I visited Australia for a month when I was in college. I wish I could put your fears to rest, but it really is crazy how many poisonous things live there and how often you come across them!
@JuneRoseRuby can you give your DH a job that he isn't likely to eff up? I can't stand being responsible for all of the house cleaning when it isn't my guest coming to stay.
@CallaLily25 so sorry for another BFN, I was really rooting for you this cycle. But, I'm soo glad your mom's surgery went well!!!
@BaileyM321 OMG your plane stories are terrifying! I'm assuming the flight you were on had to make an emergency landing? Was that part really turbulent? Probably a stupid question, but I've always wondered what it's like for the planes that have to make emergency landings for mechanical reasons - the ones that don't end in a crash.
@laurad75 I too am waiting for the "all clear" to drink this weekend. No blood test for me, but I'm trying to look at the bright side of BFNs.
@zwink1 Yay spa weekend! Have a wonderful time!
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Month/Cycle: 3/3
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I'm really afraid of heights. I also get freaked out when I'm washing my face in the shower and can't open my eyes - I can't not picture some psycho with a knife behind me. If I think of anything more poignant I'll add later.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? Something happening to the babies, I cant imagine my life without them.
sorry ladies I am going to have to be back for comments later work is going to be crazy today.
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
@GlitterFish So far that's a nice looking chart. FF can be weird about CH. It tried to move mine a few days ago bc I was tracking CM and I had a temp dip. I switched the 'detector settings' to put it back. Also, that's a terrible story about your dogs. It makes me not hate mine so much for being such a jerk last night. At least when she is waking me up I know she's dead.
@osucma I love getting my hair cut. I always have such a confidence after my stylist does my hair.
@GeorgiaWife6912 Sorry for the BFN. I vote you wait a few more days. FX
@JuneRoseRuby My H sucks at making the bed too - nothing is tucked in and it doesn't look any better than before it was made. I only go back and fix it if we have company.
@hartmich I'm sorry honey. I'm glad you are still trying but I think its important to still mourn the loss. We are here for you.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
@wabash15 I'm so sorry for the BFN and temp drop. So many creepy internet hugs to you! It's so hard to see all the BFPs when you desperately want one yourself. It doesn't mean that you can't be happy for them! I can completely identify with something happening to my DS. That is a fear I can't even allow myself to think about!
Me: 33 DH: 33
Married: 6.9.12
DS born: 4.9.14
DD born 7.27.17
Sorry to post and ghost earlier, work got slammed out of now where.
@glitterfish sorry to hear about your dogs. What a hard thing to have happen! I can't imagine.
@BaileyM321 I think you have a very valid reason to fear flying. What a scary thing to have happen!
@hartmich@wabash15 *creepy internet hugs* sorry you gals are having such a rough time
@LuND it is all very frustrating. Maybe that's why I am having pains today.
@Laurad75 sorry you are out *creepy internet hugs*
Me: 33 DH: 33
Married: 6.9.12
DS born: 4.9.14
DD born 7.27.17
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears?
I have this weird fear about things like ATVs and snowmobiles exploding while I am riding them. I picture it happening while I am on them. It is weird.
DD 1 10/2012
CP 9/2013
DD 2 6/2014
CP 3/2016
BFP 12/8/2016
Dating: 11/14/2010
Married: 10/18/2014
TTC April 2016
BFP: 5/12/2016 ~ MC: 5/25/2016
EDD: March 24, 2018 - angel baby at 21 weeks
Me: 33 DH: 33
Married: 6.9.12
DS born: 4.9.14
DD born 7.27.17
I am curious about this. I asked before but never got an answer. The consensus I got when I asked was that no one really wanted to answer the question to not make anyone upset. Also just that if you are regularly posting and actually interacting with others that certainly helped.
No completely honest answer would have made me upset.
Really sorry to hear about your testing @laurad75. I'm at 6 months too but under 35 (though not as far under as I'd like) so was told to wait and haven't had any special appointments or tests yet. I keep telling myself the first 4 months shouldn't count because we had the timing off, but I know they do. I hope next cycle is yours so you don't have to keep going through all that.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? So many fears--hard to pick just one! Putting the existential stuff aside, I've always had a thing about drowning in the ocean. I almost drowned a few times as a kid and I've had a repetitive nightmare all my life about being smothered by a tidal aka "sneaker" wave (they're kinda like tsunamis but more localized). Good thing MH isn't a beach guy!
BaileyM321 Wow you've been through some nightmares! Flying is up there on my fear list too (and definitely on my PITA list), and I also have family and ILs all over the country. Some family is accessible by ridiculously long drives so we do those when we can for distances that other people would fly for. Not to add to your fears, but it's a surprisingly under-regulated industry in the US and they really don't pay the pilots enough. OK now I am scaring myself again because I have to get on 4 planes next month... ugh
@lund Thank you for your kind words and also, the laugh about staring into the fridge, because that's SO true.
Me: 33 DH: 33
Married: 6.9.12
DS born: 4.9.14
DD born 7.27.17
@GeorgiaWife6912 @lund @wabash15 Sorry for the BFNs
@JuneRoseRuby I hear you on husbands. I have decided mine just cleans badly in hopes (or because he knows) I'll come behind him and fix it. But then if he catches me, he gripes about it. No win situation, right?
@CallaLily25 That's great news about your mom!!
@BaileyM321 Wow, I don't blame you for not wanting to fly after all that, but kudos for facing your fears!
@zwink1 ohh, so jealous! A spa weekend sounds amazing!
@hartmich So sorry you are feeling down **creepy hugs**
@lund Right there with you on the wine.
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GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I am irrationally afraid of losing my teeth, specifically the front ones getting knocked out. I never run up stairs because of it.
@CallaLily25 I'm so happy your mom's procedure went well!
@hartmich You have every right to be sad and to mourn. Creepy internet hugs.
GTKY: What is your biggest fear? Any irrational fears? I have to third @theweevee and @zwink1 - I'm irrationally afraid to be home alone at night. If DH is out of town, I triple check every door and window. Which pisses me off, since I lived in Chicago for two years completely by myself and was totally fine. Living with a boy has ruined me!
Dating: 12/21/2001
Married: 09/08/2012
BFP: 11/16/2016 EDD: 07/27/2017
Baby Fish born: 08/01/2017
Dating: 11/14/2010
Married: 10/18/2014
TTC April 2016
BFP: 5/12/2016 ~ MC: 5/25/2016
@GlitterFish your chart looks good, I don't think your coverline is too high. if your temps happen to dip then FF will adjust.
@GeorgiaWife6912 @haylsbayls sorry for the BFN and @laurad75 sorry for the neg BETA
@hartmich it is OK to still be sad. TW**yes there are worse things than not being pregnant at Halloween but this is not just not being pregnant. You are mourning the loss of a life, a dream and all the hopes that you had going along with it. you don't have to minimize that. I think that for loss mamma's that loss is never far away, we always think about the what ifs. It will always be there but it will get better. TW**
@hartmich @laurad75 @lund @GeorgiaWife6912 I will bring the crazy twisty straws and umbrellas because they make everything better!!!
@osucma @GeorgiaWife6912 I second @KhRun17 and @hartmich if you think people will miss you then post. If you are a regular daily or nearly daily poster and have given support even if you were lucky enough to only be here for a month then post. With that being said if you've only been here a month someone having a hard TTC day might say something. there is no fully right answer unless your a drive by poster.
@RunRestRepeat good luck with your race
@osucma sorry the seller was a TW and its not going to work out.
@KhRun17 Fx so hard for you!
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
@Glitterfish Your coverline might be a little high but regardless of whether your CH disappear, I am very confident you ovulated!
@Georgiawife6912 So sad, I love going to the aquarium! Sorry for BFN
@laurad75 Sorry for BFN. At least there's alcohol. (I also lurk the TTTC and IF boards so I get it but I hope to see you continue here too)
@hartmich You do not need to apologize for being down post-loss. That's what we are here for! Hugs.
@wabash15 Hugs. I completely understand the combination of happiness and sadness seeing the grad thread. It must be so tough for you with unexplained infertility. Are you thinking of resuming IUIs?
@osucma and @GeorgiaWife6912 OK so when I was first lurking in May and June, there were some votes held about how soon it's OK to post in the grad thread. I think previously the rule had been not in your first month trying, but OK in the second month and beyond if you are a regular (multiples times per week) poster. The vote was that it was OK in any month if you are a regular poster, BUT this was not a unanimous vote and I know at least one person posted her BFP after one month of trying and it was not popular (though she also said some not-well-worded things in there so that may have contributed). I tend to be in the camp of if you are in doubt, don't post, but not everyone feels this way. I also think people should only post if they are interacting with others, not just posting your daily WTO/TWW but never talking to and supporting others (that said this is not quantifiable, just a personal thing). If you are beyond your first cycle trying, you talk to others on here, and you aren't a jerk about anything, I imagine most people would be OK with your post. (In the interest of full disclosure, it's tough for me to see people post BFPs in cycle 1 and cycle 2, but I am self-aware enough to know that about myself, so I avoid the thread on my tough TTC days.)
Month/Cycle: 5/5 (Last cycle before we have to TTA 2-3 months)
CD/DPO: CD21/6dpo
Timing: -4, -3, -1
Testing: Planning for Monday in case I need to start progesterone
R/R: Friiiiiiiiday and my husband comes home tomorrow!
CS/Q: Well the BSC has started early... last night (at 5dpo) I had a huge rush of EWCM and a tiny bit of bright red spotting. My first thought was "f--- my LP is getting even shorter" but then my second thought was "This must be implantation spotting!!!11!" I have seesawed between these two crazy thoughts constantly since then, even though today (6dpo) I have neither thing and surely last night was a weird fluke.
GTKY: I have a lot of fear of failure that manifests in irrational ways. That feels so boring compared to the intense stories you ladies have shared!