Was told by the director at DD's school that ballet would start next week. So despite my better judgement, I let DH NOT pack up her stuff "just in case." Well guess what. Ballet starts today. Started sobbing at my desk.
I will let you all know that everything turned out fine, she's 2, and they had an extra leotard and tights. But I spent so much money on her damn cute ballet clothes!!!!!!!
Because I was stuck in traffic and was 30 minutes late to work. It's so dumb, but I just start thinking about all the leave time I'm trying to bank and I get so stressed out about it!
Saw a facebook video of a girl giving her stepfather a birthday gift, and inside was a pen with adoption papers stating that she wanted him to adopt her legally... they all cried.... I cried immediately upon reading the subtitles telling me what I was about to watch....
The Pampers commercial! Right before it came on, I decided to eat what was left of my 2yr old's corndog. (I had already eaten my burger). I then went on a rant to my husband how I'm going to get fat anyway and it doesn't matter. And how it sucks that it took me 2 years to get back to my pre-baby bikini body. Then, they show the crying newborn....and I just lost it! And then I said (between tears and sniffling) "and then look, you have a precious baby and its all worth it. The fatness, the hormones, everything is absolutely worth it." I laughed at myself the next day.
I've been binge watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer (for the umpteenth time) and I was on the Season 6 finale when Giles showed up to battle Willow. I just started balling when he showed up.
That silly amazon commercial where the baby doesn't like the dog then they get him a lion costume and then the baby and dog are friends. I lose it every. damn. time.
@Rileypie I cry every time too! I cried today because my son's hair is getting longer and thicker. He's my little fuzzy head and I'm going to miss the fuzz.
I just freaked out the delivery guy. He asked me where the treadmill was going and I said upstairs. He said that wasn't included in the delivery. I started bawling. And still am. All I could say was, "I'm sorry. I'm pregnant."
DH and I were supposed to have this super fun day, going to the CN family day bbq with my sister this afternoon and then Tegan and Sarah concert tonight for our belated anniversary date but instead he decided that leaving the house on the weekend gives him too much anxiety and he just wants to lie on the couch all day. DD and I went to the bbq and he has now moved up into bed and wouldn't even acknowledge us when we went to say we're home.
He never wants to leave the house anymore unless it's to go to work, church or take DD to her gymnastics class. We literally do nothing as a family anymore it's always just me and DD. He was bullied very badly as a child and his adult friends treated him poorly so he is no longer friends with them and he has lost literally all faith in people and wants to basically live a life of isolation *sigh* I'm the kind of person who likes to go out with friends or even just have coffee and walk around the mall on my days off and it's basically the opposite of him and I find myself staying home more and more just I spend time with him and I hate it so much...
I went to sonic and ordered a strawberry cheesecake shake. Half way home I realized there was no cheesecake but only strawberry ice cream. I cried for then next 10 minutes! What was that sonic guy thinking?!
@Ekzerr That sounds really hard (for him and for you). Would be be open up talking to a therapist or taking a low dose anxiety medication to see if he feels any better?
@ladameperdue he thinks there's no problem but no matter how much I try to tell him he doesn't see how it is affecting me. He always says he's not holding me back from going out with friends but being able to go on dates or family outings is so different!
I've been a weepy mess recently. I started sobbing on the couch last night, because I'm so tired of feeling sick all the time. I feel like I get no reprieve. Then I started laughing despite myself, because I realized I was a pregnant cliche. I don't feel like I'm being dramatic, and I'm genuinely trying to be strong. I thought I wanted 4, but this is the first pregnancy that I've felt symptoms (other 2 were early losses) and now I'm feeling like just having two will be a triumph. Anyone else??
Today I've been craving fajitas all day, so I went to the store and bought all of the ingredients to make them for dinner. I finally made them and I was literally salivating as I as cooking them, it was literally the only food I could think about without getting queasy. 2 bites into my meal my body decided "nope", I got queasy and couldn't eat it anymore.
@Ekzerr couples therapy or writing something out for him might help. He doesn't see "his" problem but that doesn't mean you don't have a "problem" of your own. If going places and doing things is how you bond, express affection and charge up then it will probably get worse for you. Seeking bonding, affection, and energies only from others probably won't satisfy your need for that within your relationship. Its something that can totally improve though if you work together and find some middle ground.
I haven't actually cried yet.. but I've been on the verge of tears all day.
I'm only 7 weeks with #2 and I had to wear my maternity pants today. I'm so bloated my work pants are so uncomfortable. Now i'm holding back tears thinking that i'm going to get so huge no matter what I do. I've had bad food aversions so I feel like I've eaten nothing but junk for 3 weeks. I'm just being emotional and unrealistic because all I have to do is just eat vegetables instead of pasta... but they make me gag at this point
I've been so emotional. I have a friend struggling with infertility and she wants to get together for coffee. I will NOT be telling her I'm pregnant but I just cried over her pain and I understand to a different degree since my journey has been tough too. But I'm so hoping I handle things well and love on her the right way when she does find out. Trying to be a mommy, whether it's infertility or pregnancy loss or trying to adopt or relationship problems is just HARD. Kudos to all of us. Going to go cry now.
a close friend went in today for her first appt, calculated to be about 9 weeks and all they could find was a sac. She has another ultrasound next week to check but things aren't looking good. Please pray for her. We were so looking forward to going on this journey together and it will be very hard for both of us now. My heart is just breaking for her.
ETA: I also just found out our cousin's "baby momma" is aborting their baby and I'm having a really hard time with it. He's handling it okay and, I hate to say it, this is the best for him. I had already gotten excited about my kids having a cousin to play with and I do not agree with non-life saving abortions. Today sucks so bad.
@herewegrow both of those are so, so rough. How painful for your friend. Will be praying for her. Also praying for your cousin. I agree with you, personally, about non life saving abortions. My brother's girlfriend had one years ago and he still lives with the pain and regret of it. If there's any chance she can change her mind I hope she does. Sorry for all you're carrying right now!
@herewegrow so sorry for your friend. the hormones have really started to hit the last couple of days and I find myself crying over everything. The problem is that crying makes me throw up!
I'm not literally crying but I'm pretty bummed out. I had an appointment with my midwife this afternoon that she had to cancel because she had to go catch a baby. I totally understand, but I was really looking forward to this appointment. I'm PGAL and I just want to hear that beautiful galloping heartbeat that will tell me there is in fact a thriving fetus inside me. I haven't had any early ultrasounds, this would have been my first visit.
I feel as though every few days I get so overwhelmed that I just start to cry nonstop. As a FTM I feel pretty uncertain at times and haven't quite gotten to the stage where I am over the moon about baby. I am certainly excited, but for now it just feels so early and not quite real that I am having a hard time adjusting. DH and our immediate family are all SO excited which makes it even harder. I feel guilty to not be on the same level as them. Tonight my mom called to tell me that she told my grandma about the baby, even though I had explicitly told her I did not want her to know yet. This is the 3rd person in a week she has told Enough to send me to tears again. Really hoping second tri sees a let up in hormones and that as things feel more real I can get to the same level of excitement.
@kristin Yes, rescheduled for Thursday. Only a couple days, I shouldn't complain too much. I'll be exactly 11 weeks so at least the heartbeat should be readily findable if it's there.
@wagnerw I felt the same way - and I have a mother in law telling everyone even though we made her promise as well. I keep waiting for that OMG SO EXCITED feeling - like my husband has! I'm really happy about it.. but I just can't get there right now. I hope it gets real for you soon, and that your mom stops telling everyone!
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying - 9/8
I will let you all know that everything turned out fine, she's 2, and they had an extra leotard and tights. But I spent so much money on her damn cute ballet clothes!!!!!!!
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
DD (12), DS (8).
Baby Boy EDD 4/6/17.
Right before it came on, I decided to eat what was left of my 2yr old's corndog. (I had already eaten my burger). I then went on a rant to my husband how I'm going to get fat anyway and it doesn't matter. And how it sucks that it took me 2 years to get back to my pre-baby bikini body. Then, they show the crying newborn....and I just lost it! And then I said (between tears and sniffling) "and then look, you have a precious baby and its all worth it. The fatness, the hormones, everything is absolutely worth it." I laughed at myself the next day.
11.2011 - DS1
02.2013 - loss at 6 wks
06.2014 - DS2
10.2015 - loss at 12 wks
03.2017 - DD
First of I'm so sorry I've been MIA. First my DD was sick since Friday and then she passed it on to me. I feel dead!
Anyway, DD started kindergarten on Tuesday. Oh the ridiculous, over the top, can't breathe, crying after we left the classroom. I mean ridiculous!
Also, all the beautiful US posts here and the sad, sad losses.
I'm mobile so hope this link works.
I cried today because my son's hair is getting longer and thicker. He's my little fuzzy head and I'm going to miss the fuzz.
@rileypie that one gets me every time!
@MrsBakes I hope you're feeling better!
Thanks @SDSwenson
He never wants to leave the house anymore unless it's to go to work, church or take DD to her gymnastics class. We literally do nothing as a family anymore it's always just me and DD. He was bullied very badly as a child and his adult friends treated him poorly so he is no longer friends with them and he has lost literally all faith in people and wants to basically live a life of isolation *sigh* I'm the kind of person who likes to go out with friends or even just have coffee and walk around the mall on my days off and it's basically the opposite of him and I find myself staying home more and more just I spend time with him and I hate it so much...
I don't know what to do anymore...
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
I'm only 7 weeks with #2 and I had to wear my maternity pants today. I'm so bloated my work pants are so uncomfortable. Now i'm holding back tears thinking that i'm going to get so huge no matter what I do. I've had bad food aversions so I feel like I've eaten nothing but junk for 3 weeks. I'm just being emotional and unrealistic because all I have to do is just eat vegetables instead of pasta... but they make me gag at this point
DD #2: May 2020
Baby #3: EDD May 2023; MC October 2022
a close friend went in today for her first appt, calculated to be about 9 weeks and all they could find was a sac. She has another ultrasound next week to check but things aren't looking good. Please pray for her. We were so looking forward to going on this journey together and it will be very hard for both of us now. My heart is just breaking for her.
ETA: I also just found out our cousin's "baby momma" is aborting their baby and I'm having a really hard time with it. He's handling it okay and, I hate to say it, this is the best for him. I had already gotten excited about my kids having a cousin to play with and I do not agree with non-life saving abortions. Today sucks so bad.
the hormones have really started to hit the last couple of days and I find myself crying over everything. The problem is that crying makes me throw up!
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
DH: 36
Married 5 years
DD born 8/30/13
#2 expected 4/25/17