I posted this over on another thread (April/may success) but now I'm curious.
What are the weird things that you do that are probably related to the battle with infertility??
Here is mine, it's bizarre, but hopefully not too?
So my husband figured me out. For my last apt w the RE he told me to bring my syringe containers w me so they could dispose of them. We went thru 3 big ones. I put them in my dresser drawer instead. I could not part w them. He was in my dresser looking for something for me and found them. He is utterly confused as to why I can't part w them. Honestly I am not sure either, I just can't. Not yet.
Married May 2009, TTC since November 2012 (Together since 2006 ish - had my eyes on him since 2001)
Me: 32 (33 in May), Him: 37 (January)
DX: Me: High Prolactin, Possible Autoimmune Disease Issues, though RE not concerned (?) New RE has a plan!!
Him: Minor Varicocele, low morphology, slightly low count
History:
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!! Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!) Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016 HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
I have my calendar and all of my paperwork still. And after I got my second beta, I went home and POAS just so I could finally have that stupid positive in front of my eyes.
---Trigger warning---
Me: 31 DH: 27 TTC since April 2013 Two cancelled IUIs in Aug and Sept '15 due to low motility/count IVF round 1: January 2016 ER: February 17, 2016; 9 retrieved, 7 mature, 7 fertilized Day 5 Blastocysts: 5 BB, 1 AB, all normal from PGS FET date: May 11, '16; transferred 1 AB embryo First beta: May 23, '16: 998!! Second: May 25, '16: 1648 EDD: January 27, 2017
Lol I'm sure I do tons of crazy things . I still randomly pee on sticks (at almost 30 weeks I know that's absurd and wasteful ) It just feels so good to see a positive after all the negatives .
i also have my sharps containers . And I have extra crinone and gonal f sitting around "just in case " . I know , I'm nuts .
I also have my hand on my bump a ridiculous amount because it feels so good to have a bump that is baby and not excessive bloat from IVF meds .
**BFP and loss warning**
Me: 29
DH: 29
Us: Married Valentine's Day, 2015
DH: No issues.
Me: PCOS, unexplained infertility (whatever that means!!)
June 2015 Medicated TI cycle: BFN
July 2015: Medicated TI cycle: BFN
August 2015: IUI: BFP. Chemical pregnancy
October 2015: IUI: BFN
January 2016: Egg retrieval: 10 frozen embryos!
March 2016: FET Cycle- 2 embryos transferred!: BFP !
Thank you! I feel better now. I also have all my calendars and spare meds too!
I never did poas, I was too afraid that everyone was playing a big truck on me and it would be negative!
Married May 2009, TTC since November 2012 (Together since 2006 ish - had my eyes on him since 2001)
Me: 32 (33 in May), Him: 37 (January)
DX: Me: High Prolactin, Possible Autoimmune Disease Issues, though RE not concerned (?) New RE has a plan!!
Him: Minor Varicocele, low morphology, slightly low count
History:
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!! Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!) Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016 HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
I had no problem getting rid of the medication. I was like, whoop whoop I don't need you!! I do still have all my bills, calendars, brochures and what not together in a folder. I also wrote down my journey in a notebook for me and maybe my little one one day. And every time someone comments my belly, I for some reason have to tell them there's a baby in their. Like they might not see it
I check for blood Every. Single. Time. I.Wipe. also, I probably baby myself more than if I had easily gotten pregnant. I mean, I find any excuse to rest for awhile. It's quite silly.
DX PCOS + mild male factor
TTC since Dec. 2015
Current Treatment: Metformin, Provera, Letrozole, Trigger, IUI Past Treatment: Clomid + Metformin x 3 BFN Letrozole 5 mg + Trigger shot + IUI = BFP! Beta confirmed 8/22 EDD 5/1/17
Knicker checking is definitely the most insane part of this journey. It starts with checking when period comes, when period ends, how much discharge, what colour consistency, texture, then spotting, no spotting... Argh
Me: 38, DH: 40 living in Asia TTC since March 2015 with known PCOS and MIF IVF in 2015. FET nr 3 in 2016 - BFP. Healthy baby girl born in April 2017. Trying for nr 2
Not sure if I'd still do this or not if I didnt have IF issues but whenever I see a gender reveal video in my FB newsfeed, I have to watch it. Even when I have no idea who the couple is and one of my friends posted it lol
****Siggy TW**** natural pregnancy: 2008 Me: 28 (Hypothyroid), DH: 35 Together since: 2010 Married: 2013 TTC: 2013 Infertility: severe MFI, low AMH (0.5) Met RE: January 2016 ER: 3/14 (4 follies, 6 eggs retrieved, 2 fertilized) fresh 3dt of 2 embryos= BFP (1 implanted) EDD w/ baby boy= 12/6/16
@clt2pwm11 and @yelllow22 ditto on the checking for blood every single darn time! I feel more paranoid now than I have ever been and damn you google, worst thing ever while pregnant
Me: 34 DH: 43 Married March 2012 TTC #1 since 2012
Dx: unexplained infertility (+ treated for hypothyroidism) May 7, 2016: IUI#1 w/Clomid - BFN June 6, 2016: IUI #2 w/Clomid - BFN IVF Consult 1 & 2: June 10, 2016 / July 15, 2016 Started Stims: July 15, 2016 (Lupron, Gonal-F, and Menopur) Trigger ----> 08/03 ----> ER on 08/05 ----> Transfer ------> 08/10 BETA 1 (8/22) - 401 - BETA 2 (8/24) - 541 - BETA 3 (8/26) - 913 Baby Chadwell's First U/S: 09/06/2016 / EDD: 04/28/2017
All of the above! I still have my containers and leftover meds. I have all my paperwork and weekly medication instructions from my nurse filed neatly in a gmail folder. I check for blood each time due to the 2 prior incidents. I google random crazy things. I peed on a stick after my BFP and still keep it in my medicine cabinet with the 2 lined facing me so I can see them each time I reach in there. I've had an urge to pee on a stick every time I question my sanity, luckily I don't have more laying around. I question every single thing and wonder if somehow I hurt the baby. I read every infertility story out there and cry each time because I can so relate. I cry in general, at everything. I keep telling myself I'm really pregnant, because it's still a disbelief that this process worked and there's a little human growing inside me (words I never thought I'd say)...and I rub my belly because it feels damn good.
***History & TW in Spoiler***
***bfp & child warning*** TTC - since 2014 7 rounds of Clomid - BFN IUI #1 - October 2015 - BFN IUI #2 - November 2015 - BFN IUI #3 - December 2015 - BFN IVF #1 - March 2016 Retrieval #1 - April 2016 FET #1 - May 2016 - BFP!!! DS - Born January 2017 Trying for baby #2... FET #2 - January 2018 - BFN No more embryos left; switched to a new RE IVF/Retrieval #2 - January 2019 IVF/Retrieval #3 - March 2019 FET #3 - April 2019 - BFP!!! - DD: Born December 2019 Trying for baby #3... FET #4 - October 2021 - BFP!!! - Due June 2022
Oh the checking for blood! My vaginal progesterone pills are red, so my discharge is almost the color of blood and a have a mini panic attack every time I look. Who manufactures these pills and how do I find them to punch them in the face?!
I also feel a little crazy but I talk to the baby whenever I'm alone in a room. Especially if I've just said something negative to someone else, like at work "oh I'm having a rotten day..." Once I'm alone I tell the baby that I'm actually having a great day because you're with me so don't worry about anything!
A red pill?!? A man made that, or someone with a cruel sense of humor.
Married May 2009, TTC since November 2012 (Together since 2006 ish - had my eyes on him since 2001)
Me: 32 (33 in May), Him: 37 (January)
DX: Me: High Prolactin, Possible Autoimmune Disease Issues, though RE not concerned (?) New RE has a plan!!
Him: Minor Varicocele, low morphology, slightly low count
History:
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!! Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!) Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016 HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
Here are some crazy things I've done: - not making my prenatal appointment with the OBGYN as instructed by my RE office because I thought doing so would be tempting fate. At 8 weeks my RE nurse had to yell at me to do it. - at my 7+6 week u/s everything looked good but on the drive home I worried that the doctor may have lied to me about the baby size and HB so I wouldn't get upset. - of course always looking for blood.
We have been through 7 IVF cycles and this is our first pregnancy. At 8+1 weeks I still can't really believe it might work for us.
me: 40, husband: 41 TTC since 2010 History: Too many IUIs, 2 cancelled OE IVF cycles, 4 DE cycles with two different donors, all failed 5th DE transfer with third donor, August 2016: BFP! u/s confirmed HB 9/15, 2nd u/s 9/22 - everything's still on track, EDD 5/5/2107.
@tulumina I was telling my sister yesterday I had to google everything after my nt scan because I thought the dr lied to me and said everything was good. Also after my first ob apt I obsessed that maybe the dr had me listen to my own hb and not the baby's so I wouldn't be upset he couldn't find it. My sister had to remind me they absolutely would tell me if something was wrong, they aren't go to lie to me just to keep me happy.
@clt2pwm11 you are not the only one with the itchy nipples! My husband thinks it's in my head, and my coworker and I have an ongoing joke that she has to tell me if I'm subconsciously scratching my nipples at work.
I totally agree on the checking for blood when I wipe. Not sure if I would be as worried about it if I had conceived naturally.
I am sure I am definitely handling pregnancy differently than if we had naturally conceived. The wait to tell everyone about the BFP because I was so worried something would go wrong. Also, our immediate family and some of my close friends were so aware of everything happening and knew when all our dr appts were etc so now that I am pregnant I am trying my hardest to keep some of these moments more intimate for just DH and I to experience together. MIL, my mom and sister are pretty much freaking out about our gender reveal, but I haven't even told any of them which day my ultrasound appointment is. It's super weird I know, but we are trying to keep it as something for just the two of us to share for as long as we can...
I am with the others who still have their stash of syringes and sharps containers that I just can't get rid of Had spotting for the first 10 weeks and still freak out when I see a little blood when I wipe Cry at diaper commercials or any others showing babies being held by their mothers Feel like the more people I tell the more I may "jinx" our bfp and something will go wrong (even though this makes no logical sense)...
Glad to know that I am not alone
******TW***** Me 39 DH44
Married 8/2/14
TTC 9/14
Dx: PCOS, blocked L fallopian tube, suspect poor egg quality
MFI (low #, poor morphology)
IVF #1 9/15 Failed
IVF #2 12/15 Failed 1st DE FET 5/16-BFN 2nd DE FET 7/18-BFP 8/17 Baby HR 140/min EDD 4/6/17
Re: Crazy things you do b/c of the infertility... I can't be the only weirdo!
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!
I have my calendar and all of my paperwork still. And after I got my second beta, I went home and POAS just so I could finally have that stupid positive in front of my eyes.
---Trigger warning---
TTC since April 2013
Two cancelled IUIs in Aug and Sept '15 due to low motility/count
IVF round 1: January 2016
ER: February 17, 2016; 9 retrieved, 7 mature, 7 fertilized
Day 5 Blastocysts: 5 BB, 1 AB, all normal from PGS
FET date: May 11, '16; transferred 1 AB embryo
First beta: May 23, '16: 998!! Second: May 25, '16: 1648
EDD: January 27, 2017
i also have my sharps containers . And I have extra crinone and gonal f sitting around "just in case " . I know , I'm nuts .
I also have my hand on my bump a ridiculous amount because it feels so good to have a bump that is baby and not excessive bloat from IVF meds .
**BFP and loss warning**
I never did poas, I was too afraid that everyone was playing a big truck on me and it would be negative!
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!!
Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!)
Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own
Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen
Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016
HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
Trying to conceive since November 2012
DE IVF #1 March 2016 - BFP
I was like, whoop whoop I don't need you!!
I do still have all my bills, calendars, brochures and what not together in a folder.
I also wrote down my journey in a notebook for me and maybe my little one one day.
And every time someone comments my belly, I for some reason have to tell them there's a baby in their. Like they might not see it
**********************************************************************************************************************************
Past Treatment: Clomid + Metformin x 3 BFN
Letrozole 5 mg + Trigger shot + IUI = BFP!
Beta confirmed 8/22
EDD 5/1/17
TTC since October 2014
DX: Unexplained fertility
3 Failed IUI's 2015
1st IVF cycle March 2016 , planned ICSI, PGS, FET
ER 3/31/16 30 retrieved, 26 fertilized normally
Sent 8 embryos for PGS: 5 normal (3 AA, 1BA, 1BC)
FET 5/11/16 (1 embryo)
Beta 5/23/16 BFN
2nd FET 6/12/16 (1 5AA embryo)
++++TW++++
Beta 6/22/16 : BFP!!! 169
Beta #2 6/24/16: 412
DD born 3/2/17
TTC since March 2015 with known PCOS and MIF
IVF in 2015. FET nr 3 in 2016 - BFP. Healthy baby girl born in April 2017.
Trying for nr 2
natural pregnancy: 2008
Me: 28 (Hypothyroid), DH: 35
Together since: 2010
Married: 2013
TTC: 2013
Infertility: severe MFI, low AMH (0.5)
Met RE: January 2016
ER: 3/14 (4 follies, 6 eggs retrieved, 2 fertilized)
fresh 3dt of 2 embryos= BFP (1 implanted)
EDD w/ baby boy= 12/6/16
Married March 2012
TTC #1 since 2012
May 7, 2016: IUI#1 w/Clomid - BFN
June 6, 2016: IUI #2 w/Clomid - BFN
IVF Consult 1 & 2: June 10, 2016 / July 15, 2016
Started Stims: July 15, 2016 (Lupron, Gonal-F, and Menopur)
Trigger ----> 08/03 ----> ER on 08/05 ----> Transfer ------> 08/10
BETA 1 (8/22) - 401 - BETA 2 (8/24) - 541 - BETA 3 (8/26) - 913
Baby Chadwell's First U/S: 09/06/2016 / EDD: 04/28/2017
Past Treatment: Clomid + Metformin x 3 BFN
Letrozole 5 mg + Trigger shot + IUI = BFP!
Beta confirmed 8/22
EDD 5/1/17
TTC - since 2014
7 rounds of Clomid - BFN
IUI #1 - October 2015 - BFN
IUI #2 - November 2015 - BFN
IUI #3 - December 2015 - BFN
IVF #1 - March 2016
Retrieval #1 - April 2016
FET #1 - May 2016 - BFP!!! DS - Born January 2017
Trying for baby #2...
FET #2 - January 2018 - BFN
No more embryos left; switched to a new RE
IVF/Retrieval #2 - January 2019
IVF/Retrieval #3 - March 2019
FET #3 - April 2019 - BFP!!! - DD: Born December 2019
Trying for baby #3...
FET #4 - October 2021 - BFP!!! - Due June 2022
I also feel a little crazy but I talk to the baby whenever I'm alone in a room. Especially if I've just said something negative to someone else, like at work "oh I'm having a rotten day..." Once I'm alone I tell the baby that I'm actually having a great day because you're with me so don't worry about anything!
And the red pills?!? wtf, who does that! Glad mine were just white as I would have a minor heart attack every day.
**********************************************************************************************************************************
Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!!
Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!)
Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer.
3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own
Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen
Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016
HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)
Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March
Trying to conceive since November 2012
- not making my prenatal appointment with the OBGYN as instructed by my RE office because I thought doing so would be tempting fate. At 8 weeks my RE nurse had to yell at me to do it.
- at my 7+6 week u/s everything looked good but on the drive home I worried that the doctor may have lied to me about the baby size and HB so I wouldn't get upset.
- of course always looking for blood.
We have been through 7 IVF cycles and this is our first pregnancy. At 8+1 weeks I still can't really believe it might work for us.
TTC since 2010
History: Too many IUIs, 2 cancelled OE IVF cycles, 4 DE cycles with two different donors, all failed
5th DE transfer with third donor, August 2016: BFP!
u/s confirmed HB 9/15, 2nd u/s 9/22 - everything's still on track, EDD 5/5/2107.
I totally agree on the checking for blood when I wipe. Not sure if I would be as worried about it if I had conceived naturally.
I am sure I am definitely handling pregnancy differently than if we had naturally conceived. The wait to tell everyone about the BFP because I was so worried something would go wrong. Also, our immediate family and some of my close friends were so aware of everything happening and knew when all our dr appts were etc so now that I am pregnant I am trying my hardest to keep some of these moments more intimate for just DH and I to experience together. MIL, my mom and sister are pretty much freaking out about our gender reveal, but I haven't even told any of them which day my ultrasound appointment is. It's super weird I know, but we are trying to keep it as something for just the two of us to share for as long as we can...
Had spotting for the first 10 weeks and still freak out when I see a little blood when I wipe
Cry at diaper commercials or any others showing babies being held by their mothers
Feel like the more people I tell the more I may "jinx" our bfp and something will go wrong (even though this makes no logical sense)...
Glad to know that I am not alone
Me 39 DH44
1st DE FET 5/16-BFN
2nd DE FET 7/18-BFP
8/17 Baby HR 140/min EDD 4/6/17