I did my first dose of cytotec and didn't really have much happen besides cramps and a lot of bleeding. I passed some fetal tissue but the doctor wasn't too convince that it was everything. I have another dose tonight and ultrasound in the morning. Today is is day 5 of this long process and I'm so ready to be done. I feel like I can't start to heal until it's done. I been hanging with my parents since it started, my EX left me when I got pregnant so not much support there. I read where many were going to start trying once they get the ok and I realize that I have no one to TTCAL. Makes me hurt even more and I just want my baby back. I know I should be happy because I have a DD and I love her with all my heart and I know that having a baby cannot replace the one I loss but in the back of my mind I feel like I will never have another chance to have another baby. I never knew I wanted another kid until I got pregnant and I felt my little family would be complete. Now I just feel empty.
Omgsh lady, I'm so sorry for how this journey has been from the start. Hugs to you. Peace and comfort you and prayers for a rainbow baby with someone special!
Me: 27 years old DH: 27 years old Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
Married in July 2014
TTC #1 since late Feb 2016
BFP #1 3/29/16 MMC: 5/5/16 BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16 BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17 My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast: Juicebox Podcast Episode 118 A1Cs: 1/12/16 6.7% 5/25/16 6.0% 11/2/16 6.1% 3/22/16 5.8% 4/27/17 5.4% 6/13/17 5.3% "Sugar Fancy Tutu"
Thank you ladies! And you're both right. I know I'm not ready to put myself out there any time soon. But I know my special someone is out there and I will be patient. I finished my 3rd dose of cytotec and now that I'm done with the actual miscarriage I think I can work on getting myself right emotionally and mentally. I have a pass with depression and anxiety and I'm scared of getting back to that dark place. I went back to work today and I actually felt a little normal being there. Just going to take it day by day. I'm sending you both hugs and positive vibes. I know we will have our good and bad days. I'm glad we have a place to talk about them.
Please take care of yourself. I am so sorry for your loss. You know what they say - if you are going through hell (which you most certainly are) - keep going. Praying for you!
Me: 35 year old FTM, a busy city banker living in London, and a constant worrier. My DH: French guy, car fanatic, best husband ever. Our baby boy: Due on 17 April, currently 37 weeks. I can't believe it - I made it to full term!!!! Last measurement: 3150 gs at 37+1! This is going to be a big baby
Re: Just venting.
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
Together since 2006
Married 01.17.15
My DH: French guy, car fanatic, best husband ever.
Our baby boy: Due on 17 April, currently 37 weeks. I can't believe it - I made it to full term!!!!
Last measurement: 3150 gs at 37+1! This is going to be a big baby