I yelled at my toddler out of reflex this afternoon because he threw a toy in my face and I've felt like a horrible mom since. I've been crying while holding him and telling him I'm sorry. He's fine, probably wondering why I'm being so clingy.
I'm a SAHM but I pick up the odd shift here and there. I worked on my old unit at the hospital and was on my old computer. I found a whole bunch of my old files. I started tearing up realizing I don't have my full-time career anymore. I love being a SAHM, but it definitely got me emotional.
I am stressed out at work. I know I'm pushing myself too hard, but I just can't stop. I'm way overdoing it, and I know, but feel like I'm slacking if I sit or slow down. Now I am missing work tomorrow to go in for an US because I'm spotting. It's not a lot, but enough to scare me. I've been crying since I left work and I'm a hot mess. I'm worried about the spotting and stressed about missing work.
I got a little teary eyed because I usually LOVE the smell of DHs deodorant. Like I will stick my nose in his armpits to smell it. Well, my heightened sense of smell is not very keen on his deodorant now. It made me nauseous this morning.
I found out this morning that even though I was on the waiting list and scheduled to start nursing school next year, they changed the admission requirements and I no longer meet them. We based our ttc on my start date of school and now that I'm pregnant the only option of the three they give that works for us is for me to withdraw my application and then I have to retake the two courses I need to now upgrade and re apply to start a year later than I had originally been accepted for. And not only that but now it is competitive gpa so it's terrifying to think that for a year I thought I was starting nursing school August 28 2017 and now I'm not sure I'll even get accepted when I do finally re apply
I got the email on my break at work this morning and cried and cried until I got home and talked to DH about it and he brought a few points to mind that make me feel better about the situation, such as instead of starting nursing school with a 16 week old I now get to enjoy my full mat leave with baby and DD and then will hopefully get accepted and start nursing school with a 16 month old and a 4 yr old.
@kirstinh88 DH was so supportive about it that it made me feel a bit better but still so frustrated! I'm sure I'm not the only one affected by this so I assume they will get a flood of upset phone calls and emails. I can understand them doing this for the next wave of applicants but why wouldn't they grandfather the ones already on the list?!
My daughter has been a bear since starting kindergarten. We knew it would be a tough transition for her, but we were not prepared for the amount of tantrums she would throw. Every time I try to talk to or discipline her during a tantrum, I cry. I sob. It's ugly.
We watched a missionary video in church today and I had to hold back the tears.., it was a joyful short video to. I was just so dang proud of those families in Indonesa flying out the sick and bringing supplies to remote villages.. It's going to be a long 7 more months...
So I'm re-reading Harry Potter to distract myself from anxiety, and I cried so hard at the end of the fourth book when Harry had to suffer so much on his own. I also cried when Molly Weasley comforted him and mothered him because he doesn't have a mother. I know it makes me sound like a huge nerd but PGAL brain and hormones are working together to make me extra emotional about ridiculous things.
@Ekzerr, that is incredibly frustrating. I can't believe they would change admission requirements after admitting you! I hope it turns out to be for the best for you and your family.
@Breesy14 can you scale back a bit until second tri? I hope all is well.
I cried listening to a parenting podcast. They have parents call in with geniuses, fails, and rants, and they make me cry every time. Parenting is tough. And women supporting women during the tough times makes me happy cry.
Last night I watched Gilmore Girls and balled the entire time Rory was giving her graduation speech. Then, we watched the Jungle Book and when Mowgli had to leave the wolves it happened again. All the while my husband looked at me like I'm nuts.
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying 9/1
-- DS 3.8.14
-- MC 9.22.16 at 8 wks
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
I got the email on my break at work this morning and cried and cried until I got home and talked to DH about it and he brought a few points to mind that make me feel better about the situation, such as instead of starting nursing school with a 16 week old I now get to enjoy my full mat leave with baby and DD and then will hopefully get accepted and start nursing school with a 16 month old and a 4 yr old.
sorry for such a long post
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
DD: 6/20/11
DS: 2/23/13
EDD: 4/15/17
@Breesy14 can you scale back a bit until second tri? I hope all is well.
I cried listening to a parenting podcast. They have parents call in with geniuses, fails, and rants, and they make me cry every time. Parenting is tough. And women supporting women during the tough times makes me happy cry.