Think I belong here.. (losses mentioned)fo of the group

Hello ladies
I am 30 years old pregnant 6 times 1 18 month old,, 4 miscarriges ans recently about 3 months ago an ectopic. I didn't have anyone to talk about the loss with that really understood so I found myself joining this community. I was abe to get support on the MC/Loss group and now am ready to try again. I have written also in trying again after the loss but not sure woman are in there too often. Reading the info on this group I think I found my home (for now). I hope you ladies are supportive and ok to talk about how we are feeling. My main thing is I am the only one I know personally (family or friends) that has had unexplained fertility issues and having that last positive test and it turning into an ectopic was just devastating. Constantly asking yourself WHY ME! Trying to stay strong and not feel sorry for myself. There is some comfort in knowing there are woman out there with similar or worse issues. My tube was saved in surgery but I was told my other one was very scared and probably not health enough. My thinking was ok well we saved this tube right. Doc says well there is still damage from the pregnancy and 3 months and 2 regular periods I have the green light to try again.

Sorry long

I have had people close to me say well at least you have your daughter! I don't think they understand how hurtful that is. As if I am not grateful for her. I always pictured myself a big family. I have 3 siblings and thankful I had that and whats so wrong with wanting the same for my daughter. I have been taking prenatals , folic acid, vit e, d all the "right stuff" as well as doing weird things like fertility massage on myself. This is the beginning of our journey again. I am terrified that my odds are 30% chance of aother ectopic and also the history of 4 MC. I was given progesterone for last pregnancy prior to learning it was an ectopic and was told when I find out I am pregnant again to start taking that right away and to get to a doc as soon as possible for blood level draw to make sure everything in right spot. HOW scary. But again sorry this was so long. I hope I can share my journey with you guys and see what you are all feeling and been through as well.. lots of love and baby dust