I listen to music during my entire 90 minute daily commute, and I find I have to skip a lot of songs because I start tearing up at anything remotely sad/emotional/nostalgic. I'm wearing sunglasses on the train now to keep from embarrassing myself!
This is really ridiculous in the grand scheme of things, but (as I've mentioned on other posts) I had to give up a prestigious opportunity at work because it's in Miami with the zika outbreak. I was doing okay with my disappointment (obviously I want my baby way more than the opportunity), but now it may go to my "work nemesis," the overeager girl a level below me. I'm trying to be mature, but I've been crying on and off at my desk. In April I won't even care, but for now, big huge immature behavior from me right now.
I had a really bad episode of vomiting multiple times after sleeping all day because I literally have zero energy and just broke down sobbing afterwards.
@leslieknope - EFF commercials right now. There are two that KILLED me this weekend - the first was the Amazon Prime one with the lion dog and the other was a Statefarm one where they flash between disaster and happy times. Sobbing, big, ugly cry this weekend over those.
@kcasset I had the same thing today! Work offered to fly peeps down for a huge grand opening in south FL - I had to come up with a lame excuse on why I can't go and now I keep getting emotional about it. It's amusing since I'm pretty sure I don't want to go but yet bc I can't, I'm sad. Hormones are ridiculous!
So much. I am so lonely. I have no friends since we moved a few months ago. I also have no desire to put in the energy to make friends right now. I also think I am actually depressed. According to some things I was just reading about online and the depression screening by mental health America it looks like I might actually be. So, I will be adding that to the list of things to talk about with my doctor in a few weeks.
Sorry to be all dark. I just have no one else to talk to about this at the moment.
Me: 28 year old SAHM/Birth Doula DH: 30 year old pneumatic electrical engineer
Married: October 8, 2011
DD1: September 24, 2013 BFP: June 25, 2016 and MC: July 3, 2016 DD2: April 16, 2017 BFP: November 30, 2018 EDD: August 14, 2019
@mrsstuessy I hear ya - making friends as adults is hard when you have to start over after a move! I fortunately have a bunch of neighbors and a ton of siblings and cousins, but this pregnancy has me in a funk myself (guessing hormones) and I feel it's too early to spread the news so I'm just keeping to myself a lot right now and that's not doing much to help my mood. What part of the county are you from? I'm around a fair amount if you'd ever like to chat. Good luck checking in with your dr. I had bad post partum anxiety after my 2nd ... Depression is super real and nothing to feel ashamed about!
@mrsstuessy Big hugs to you. I moved with DH to a new state last summer, I didn't have a job yet, and we didn't have any friends/family in the area - it was incredibly difficult. It does get better, but it still sucks in the moment. I hope you get the help you need to care for yourself!
Work. I hate when I get paired with patients who just feel the need to be rude for no reason. I usually have a thick skin, but I've had a few of the same down-talking patients for a month now and they're draining me.
Pregnancy # 6 4 missed chances 2 loving children 1 on the way
So much. I am so lonely. I have no friends since we moved a few months ago. I also have no desire to put in the energy to make friends right now. I also think I am actually depressed. According to some things I was just reading about online and the depression screening by mental health America it looks like I might actually be. So, I will be adding that to the list of things to talk about with my doctor in a few weeks.
Sorry to be all dark. I just have no one else to talk to about this at the moment.
So sorry you're feeling this way. When I moved I felt really depressed too. I finally forced myself to try and make friends - I joined a few groups on meetup.com.. and slowly but surely started feeling better. I know everyone has a different road to depression recovery, but I just wanted to share in case it might help you.
So much. I am so lonely. I have no friends since we moved a few months ago. I also have no desire to put in the energy to make friends right now. I also think I am actually depressed. According to some things I was just reading about online and the depression screening by mental health America it looks like I might actually be. So, I will be adding that to the list of things to talk about with my doctor in a few weeks.
Sorry to be all dark. I just have no one else to talk to about this at the moment.
I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. I can relate to this. We moved to a new state where we knew no one 2 years ago and had our son 1 month after the move. I don't think I really gave the changes the credit they deserved. I dont think I had PPD, but I do think the combo of the move, new house, new job for H, me not working for the first time since I was 14, new baby, no friends or family nearby, and winter really took its toll on me. I finally did therapy for about 6 months earlier this year and it helped me so much. I had so much I needed to talk about with my marriage, family, being a SAHM, etc. and doing so really helped me to process it all. We only have one car so that is also an ongoing struggle. I ended up doing online therapy and it was amazing. I could type or text whenever I wanted and my therapist would get back to me once a day. It was money well spent.
I hope you you can find some inner peace,and feel free to message me anytime if you need to talk.
I cried last night looking at Big Brother shirts for DS, and then I saw I disney pregnancy shirt that said Made with True Love and for some reason I was really moved by it lol.
@mrsstuessy I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I've felt similar ways when we moved back to OH. Even though my family is here, none of my few friends are married or having kids yet and it can feel kind of isolating. hopefully things get better there and this board is able to help give you some online friends and support!
I watched the Today show this morning and teared up when they introduced their "Puppy for a Cause".
@mrsstuessy We moved to MN a year ago and I can totally relate to it being very difficult to make friends as an adult. I'm a teacher but I am split between two schools, so it made it hard because I was constantly running around and unable to form really solid friendships outside of the classroom (because I was constantly missing staff meetings at one building or another, having to run back to the other school after school, etc.). On top of that, we live in a new neighborhood in a smallish town so we didn't have many neighbors. And we were out of town constantly on the weekends It really took its toll on us. Hoping this next year is better now that we won't be traveling as much. We have definitely seriously considered moving back closer to friends and family though.
I uncontrollably cried happy tears with DS (age 4) tonight. Right before we snuggled in for story time, he let out the loudest, most adult burp I have ever heard! Both him and I laughed for about 5 minutes straight. Tears were running down my face. DH had to come in and see what all the commotion was about!
@mrsstuessy feeling isolated really sucks! After we moved I searched my neighborhood name on Facebook and found a couple mom groups near me that did playground dates and whatnot. I think you have a LO at home so that might be an option. Or trying to find a public way to partake in a hobby... I love to scrapbook so I go to crop nights at my local Michael's.
@kcasset I had the same thing today! Work offered to fly peeps down for a huge grand opening in south FL - I had to come up with a lame excuse on why I can't go and now I keep getting emotional about it. It's amusing since I'm pretty sure I don't want to go but yet bc I can't, I'm sad. Hormones are ridiculous!
I'm super stupidly emotional about it today because they went ahead and invited the girl below me. She is a nice person (I think) but she's just... such a brownnoser and overachiever and I know she's going to feel like it shows how great she rather than the fact that she was second choice. I don't remember being this emotional last time around at this stage, but I'm an emotional mess.
Re: Why My Pregnant Self Is Crying (8/22)
Oh, but this commercial specifically had me taking a bathroom break in the middle of a meeting the other day (I work in marketing).
Sorry to be all dark. I just have no one else to talk to about this at the moment.
DH: 30 year old pneumatic electrical engineer
BFP: June 25, 2016 and MC: July 3, 2016
DD2: April 16, 2017
BFP: November 30, 2018 EDD: August 14, 2019
Pregnancy # 6
4 missed chances
2 loving children
1 on the way
I hope you you can find some inner peace,and feel free to message me anytime if you need to talk.
DS: 10-9-14
MC: 9-4-16
@mrsstuessy I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I've felt similar ways when we moved back to OH. Even though my family is here, none of my few friends are married or having kids yet and it can feel kind of isolating. hopefully things get better there and this board is able to help give you some online friends and support!
DS--N14
Baby #2 EDD--4/16/17
@mrsstuessy We moved to MN a year ago and I can totally relate to it being very difficult to make friends as an adult. I'm a teacher but I am split between two schools, so it made it hard because I was constantly running around and unable to form really solid friendships outside of the classroom (because I was constantly missing staff meetings at one building or another, having to run back to the other school after school, etc.). On top of that, we live in a new neighborhood in a smallish town so we didn't have many neighbors. And we were out of town constantly on the weekends
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17