Intro TW- late loss mentioned

sarah0632 · August 2016

Hi,

I'm Sarah, I'm 31, I'm a registered nurse and I live in Canada! I'm a mom to a lo girl who's 2yo8mo. We've been trying to conceive a sibling for her for 14 months. I conceived my first cycle June 2015 which ended in an early loss at 8 weeks. Emotionally, I grieved took a couple months away from TTC and felt like I moved forward. I had healed, it wasn't meant to be whatever that means. I got pregnant again my second cycle this time and I lost my son at 23 weeks pregnant due to a chronic placental abruption. It started at 16 weeks for an unknown cause. I fought so hard to keep him even up to the day I went into labor. I fought the doctors and nurses and was moved from the "still birth room 7" to a labor and delivery room with a team of nicu staff. I lost him in the last few minutes of labor when his cord prolapsed. Sorry if this is TMI. I had a d and c for a retained placenta. If that wasn't adding salt to a wound, my abrupted retained placenta. His birthday is June 19, Father's Day and my birthday!

Im also high risk because I have developed something called antibody E. The easiest way to explain is its just like the negative Rh but there's no rhogam shot.

Thats my story. We are trying to conceive again. It doesn't replace my son, or the pain I carry from that but my daughter needs a sibling and I still crave a baby in my arms. I had my hopes up when I got a normal period 4 weeks after my loss, but now I'm cd33 with spotting since cd20.

Hopefulmommy1980 · August 2016

I am sorry for your losses. I hope your daughter gets a sibling soon

amberruka · August 2016

I'm sorry you had to go through that-both of those experiences. T and P for you, and welcome here.

sarah0632 · August 2016

Thank you.

roxgibbons · August 2016

I am so sorry for both your losses and that you find yourself here. I hope this board becomes a source of comfort and support for you. My thoughts are with you.

BornReady · August 2016

I'm so sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Don't worry about TMI here, we all get it.

SnobunnieMel · August 2016

Welcome to our littler corner. Everyone here is amazingly want and welcoming. It's always nice to be able to express feelings in an area where everyone understandings them. Hopefully we can be a great support for you while you work on getting your rainbow babe

KarenBeth714 · August 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss, and for all that you have been through. ❤️❤️Wishing you strength and healing as you move forward

szwill86 · August 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family

TScalei · August 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers are with you!

BitterBetty12 · August 2016

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. As PPs have said, don't worry about TMI here, this is a safe place where you can express your feelings. You'll find everyone here to be welcoming and amazingly supportive. I hope your stay here with us is short and you get your rainbow baby soon.