Im out... :(

LilyGracesMommy · August 2016

Well If anyone's been following my posts here's a brief summary:

I've been having brown spotting then at 18dpo Beta was 46.1 went for repeat today and then when I got home essentially AF showed up, even though I had a faint bfp still this am.

I cant say I didn't see it coming, but that really doesn't make it any easier

wishing everyone here a happy and healthy 9months

schef070911 · August 2016

I've been following your posts and I'm so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself this weekend.

winterstar1 · August 2016

I'm so sorry to hear this, sending healing thoughts and Internet hugs your way. Praying you get some much needed rest and support this weekend.

clickclackmoo · August 2016

So sorry hon. Please take care of yourself.

Neikoda · August 2016

I'm so sorry to hear this. I know its never easy, no matter how far along you were. Take time for yourself and don't hesitate to reach out for support. As someone with two losses myself, I know how much this hurts but it will get easier in time. Reach out to those who can support you at home and we're always here for support. When you decide to jump back in to TTC, I strongly suggest reaching out on the TTCAL board. They we're so helpful in getting my thoughts sorted when I was going through this.

holzie-2 · August 2016

I'm so sorry to hear about this. I have been following your posts. Take it easy this weekend, don't be hard on yourself. We are here for support if you need it.

TheJerilu · August 2016

I'm so sorry to hear this - you've been on my mind all week with the best of hopes. We are here for you as much as you need.

runningpenguin · August 2016

So sorry for your loss. Big hugs.

cookies754 · August 2016

I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending hugs.

Blueberry85 · August 2016

I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself.

STM2017 · August 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. You're in my thoughts and prayers!

LilyGracesMommy · August 2016

you guys have seriously brought me to tears, thank you for your support.
looks like I have a date tonight with some good craft beer and puppy snuggles

Again I hope you all have a happy& healthy 9months ahead

pinkshades05 · August 2016

I've been following your posts and I'm so sorry to hear this

scorpiomer · August 2016

So sorry for your loss. Hugs

marshmallowmadness · August 2016

I've been following your posts! I'm so so sorry!

lovelongdog06 · August 2016

I'm so sorry

Losses hurt no matter how early they are.

LilyGracesMommy · August 2016

Is it bad that Compared to my December loss ( literally bled day after bfp) that this loss feels significantly more?!

DH now isn't even sure he wants another now and though I'm not ready ( at this moment) I know I need a fourth, after 2 losses months apart I know I will not stop until we get our rainbow.

work will be hard ( working with new moms daily) but I have awesome allies as coworkers who have been through even more than this.

And thats it too, I hate to seem ungrateful, I have 3 beautiful children that i love, and am so blessed to have.

But my blessings don't make this loss any easier. if anything I cry more when I see them reach a milestone or at the thought of picturing my youngest as a big sister.

im just so full of emotion and beer.

which makes clarity that much harder.

sure I will continue to stalk this BMB as I'm obsessive and can't resist.

hoping that everyone has a healthy 9-10months ahead

and that I can find my new home in TTCAL

WkoutMomtoBe · August 2016

Aww....I'm so sorry. My heart aches. BIg hugs to you, take the time you need. I'm thinking and praying for you. A loss is a loss and they're all hard. I hope you and your husband/family can find the peace/strength you need. Cry. Yell. Scream.

Breesy14 · August 2016

I've been following the posts too. So sorry to hear this. I am very hopeful for you!

Pinkpeonies · August 2016

I was also following your posts. So sorry for your loss.

mrsstuessy · August 2016

I'm so sorry. I have been there. It is an awful feeling. Please be extra kind to yourself and take the time you need to grieve and heal. I will be thinking of you and I wish you the best.