I really would like to have a med-free birth. I've been reading a book about the Bradley method which is giving me some confidence, reading lots of positive birth stories, and trying to frame a really relaxed and positive mindset about the birthing experience. However, in my hospital birthing class last night, we watched a video about epidurals and about natural births, and I got very scared - of both options, to be honest.
I really want to avoid an epidural because I don't want to be confined to bed or have a catheter. The idea of being unable to feel my legs and unable to get up out of bed makes me feel very panicky, and I feel like dealing with the pain is the more pleasant option. But the women in the natural birthing video had all these strategies worked out with their husbands that I don't feel prepared for. They had hand signals about breathing, had their husbands up in their face and seemed like they'd been practicing for months. Aside from reading books and hoping for the best, I haven't been doing much else to prepare. I felt really confident that I could do it until last night, but watching the women in pain really freaked me out.
Please don't try to convince me into getting an epidural or other pain medicine. I know it's there as an option and am keeping an open mind in case I need it. This is my first birth so, having nothing to compare it to, I'm fully aware that I may get to the hospital, lose my shit, and need drugs. What I'd really like to know is what other moms who are planning a drug free birth are doing to prepare, and what can I do in these next 6 weeks to help make that more likely to happen.
Oh, also - I live in a rural(ish) area where they don't really offer many birthing classes besides the one from the hospital. No Bradley or Hypnobirthing classes anywhere close by.