Infertility
wintersong555
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wintersong555
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Hello everyone! I'm new here and I'm pretty much at the end of my rope. I'm in desperate need of someone to talk to, as it's been a pretty bumpy ride.
Just a quick little blip about me.... I'm 31, hubby is turning 30 this year. We've been TTC#1 for the past 3 years now. We were using supplements to help conceive (maca, royal jelly, etc etc). We had one BFP that ended in a missed miscarriage at 6 weeks, doctor talked me into having a D&C...recovery from that was a nightmare as I was so paranoid about getting scarring down there. I was very depressed about everything TTC related but eventually my mother convinced us to do some testing after I had recovered. Turned out I was fine (had bloodwork, hsg test, the whole nine yards), but hubby's numbers were low and slow. We were recommended to try IUI, lord knows we can't afford IVF. So now we are dealing with male infertility with hubby's numbers being 8 million, post-wash 4.5-5 million but a very very low motility of 10-15%.
Meanwhile, I've had to sit through coworkers getting pregnant within months of each other (and hearing that stupid "must be something in the water!!!!" joke over and over......), my brother going on to have two children, my cousin having her first child....aaaand, well, you know how that song and dance goes.
I just need to be with people going through the same trials as I am, as I feel very alone right now. Looking forward to talking and getting to know all of you!
Just a quick little blip about me.... I'm 31, hubby is turning 30 this year. We've been TTC#1 for the past 3 years now. We were using supplements to help conceive (maca, royal jelly, etc etc). We had one BFP that ended in a missed miscarriage at 6 weeks, doctor talked me into having a D&C...recovery from that was a nightmare as I was so paranoid about getting scarring down there. I was very depressed about everything TTC related but eventually my mother convinced us to do some testing after I had recovered. Turned out I was fine (had bloodwork, hsg test, the whole nine yards), but hubby's numbers were low and slow. We were recommended to try IUI, lord knows we can't afford IVF. So now we are dealing with male infertility with hubby's numbers being 8 million, post-wash 4.5-5 million but a very very low motility of 10-15%.
Meanwhile, I've had to sit through coworkers getting pregnant within months of each other (and hearing that stupid "must be something in the water!!!!" joke over and over......), my brother going on to have two children, my cousin having her first child....aaaand, well, you know how that song and dance goes.
I just need to be with people going through the same trials as I am, as I feel very alone right now. Looking forward to talking and getting to know all of you!
Re: new and looking for friends
---Trigger warning---
TTC since April 2013
Two cancelled IUIs in Aug and Sept '15 due to low motility/count
IVF round 1: January 2016
ER: February 17, 2016; 9 retrieved, 7 mature, 7 fertilized
Day 5 Blastocysts: 5 BB, 1 AB, all normal from PGS
FET date: May 11, '16; transferred 1 AB embryo
First beta: May 23, '16: 998!! Second: May 25, '16: 1648
EDD: January 27, 2017
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
I've so been there with feeling like "UGH there are pregnant people all around me!" Sometimes I count the pregnant bellies... just to confirm how ridiculous it is! But I've also tried to slowly pull myself out of that because it is emotionally draining to hate/resent/avoid everyone. I've realized lots of people may have had a tough time, you never know what people go through, there is just the rosy side of things that people portray. Or maybe they have other difficulties that you don't have. Thinking that way helps a little...
Good luck w/ your 2nd IUI!
As for the trial idea... the trial I'm planning to participate in (the Megaset Trial) is really just comparing two ovarian stimulation meds that are already widely used for IVF (gonal-f and menopur) to determine if one is more effective than the other. Since they're both already widely used, I won't feel like a lab rat! But I also like the idea of contributing to science and getting a financial break at the same time. Hopefully you won't even need to go the IVF route, but if you do, hopefully you'll be able to convince your DH that a trial isn't such a bad idea!
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
@wintersong555 welcome to the community. It took me a long time to join one of these message boards myself. I have to say, it has helped a ton to have people to talk to who know what it is we go through on this journey. I hope that your ttc journey is a quick one from this point on.
Married 2014; TTC since 4/2015
Diagnosed with Stage 3 Endometriosis and possible ovulation dysfunction
2nd TI (clomid/follistim/ovidrel/progesterone)- 5/11/16 - BFN
Met 2008 | Dated 2010 | Married 2012
TTC#1 since June 2015
June 2016- 50mg generic clomid CDs 5-9 w/TI | 2 follies (14 & 12), thin (2.45) lining | BFN
July 2016- 1mg estradiol CDs 1-7, 50mg generic clomid CDs 5-9 w/TI | 2 follies (14 & 10), thin (~4) lining | BFN
August 2016- 1mg estradiol CDs 1-7, 50mg generic clomid CDs 5-9 w/TI | BFN | Referred to specialist, visited once, was told we have less than a 3% chance even on medication, recommended to IUI for up to a 50% chance, decided not to pursue at this time | Stopped "trying"
October 2016- We became licensed foster parents
November 9, 2016- Arrival of DD#1, 4yo
March 1, 2017- 1 day late, feel like crap (low fever & exhausted) | Mom suggested test before taking meds, I laughed but did it anyway | BFP! *shock*
Diagnosed with PCOS March '10 - Started 1000mg of Metformin
After 3 unsuccessful Clomid cycles, FSH+Ovidril+IUI+Progesterone=BFP!
Time to make Emilie a big sister!
May '16 2.0: Letrozole+FSH+Menopur+Ovidril+IUI+Progesterone=BFP! first beta-45.44, second beta-148
TTC #1 Since: April 2015
Unexplained Infertility
Cycle 1&2 : Clomid 50mg- BFN
Cycle 3: Letrozole 2.5mg- BFN
Cycle 4: Letrozole 5mg- BFN
Cycle 5: HSG-normal
Clomid 100mg+ Estrace- BFN
Cycle 6: Letrozole 5mg+Trigger shot+IUI+Progestrone- BFN
Cycle 7: Letrozole 5mg, Cyst found during follicle check
Cycle 8: Birth control to treat left ovary cyst
Cycle 9: Letrozole 7.5mg+Trigger shot+IUI+Progesterone- BFN
Cycle 10: Letrozole 7.5mg, 2 Cysts found during follicle check
Cycle 11: Clomid 100mg+Estradiol+Trigger shot+IUI+Progesterone- BFN
Cycle 12: Clomid 100mg- BFN
Cycle 13-16: Natural attempts while awaiting IVF
Cycle 14: IVF-BFN
TTC since October 2014
June 2015: large ovarian cyst removed
Nov 2015: Dx w/ diminished ovarian reserve, extremely low AMH
IVF #1: 04/2016 - 3 eggs retrieved, 2 mature & fertilized, 1 Day 6 blast frozen, PGS normal
IVF #2: 07/2016 - 3 eggs retrieved, 2 mature & fertilized, none made it past day 3
IVF #3: 09/2016 - 5 eggs retrieved, 3 mature & fertilized, 1 day 6 blast frozen, PGS normal
FET #1: 12/2016 - 1 day 6 blast transferred - BFP!! EDD 9/7/2017
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I find this community very helpful and it makes me feel less alone. I hope it does this for you as well. One other resource I've found helpful is The Beat infertility podcast. I can download several of them and listen to them on long drives. They are hopeful and upbeat and make me feel like I will eventually get to be a mom. I hope to see you around the board!
Married 6.22.13
Hoping for a Herd Linky
12/15--IF testing
3/16--Dx Unexplained IF
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI + Progesterone cycle
Cancelled due to cysts. Started 3 weeks of BCP.
4/16--Cute Ute! Clomid+Ovidrel+IUI+Progesterone TI.
Cancelled-no response
5/16--Hemmorhagic cyst and other cyst discovered.
No medicated cycle. MRI scheduled to rule out
septate uterus.
6/16--Septum discovered. Consultation for surgery.
Surprise BFP 6/8/16--EDD 2/13/17
Kole David--1.7.17--Tiny but Mighty, born at 34+5 after HELLP syndrome
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Reading your and others comments about having to listen to the "must be something in the water!" comments all the time make me feel lucky; I work in a very industrial environment, and almost all of my colleagues are men. Guess I can count myself as fortunate in that respect! A lot of these guys are like family to me and were at my wedding a year and a half ago. They knew DH and I want kids right away because of our age (pushing 40), so they've figured out what's going on. A few have come to me privately and said, "My wife and I went through this. It's tough, but you'll get through it. And you're not alone." They don't bring it up in front of other people. Just one on one, privately, and quickly, just to make sure I know they're sending positive wishes. I'm blessed to have a great work family.
Sorry, didn't mean to make that all about me. I hope you have people like that in your work life! And if you don't, you've got the awesome ladies here.
Due to our MFI, we were advised to go straight to IVF. We did a fresh IVF cycle in July 2014 with success! So, keep your hopes up. It can happen. This forum was so helpful to me during my journey because it is filled with people in a similar situation, and who do not make those hurtful / casual remarks about having a baby. I do know we were fortunate. We did a FET in March 2016 that was BFN. That was our only frozen embryo, so I'm going to do my last fresh cycle in August. Best of luck to you!