A place for those of us who are pregnant after a loss or have had a baby after a loss to check in.
Stafus Update: Weeks+ Days or age
What Up Next: Appontments/milestones
Rants/Raves/Symptoms:
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week?
GTKY: Memorial Day plans?
Re: 5/30/16 PGAL CHECK-IN
What's up next: I start weekly appointments tomorrow. I'm also getting my tdap shot. Next week is another growth scan. He feels cramped in there, it's crazy how big he is getting
Rants/Raves/Symptoms: Yesterday I went swimming and it was amazing! I was able to stretch out my hips and back in a way not possible on land. I've been so much more comfortable ever since. If I had realized how great it would be I would have been going to a public pool all pregnancy.
Add in question: For the most part I've been pretty good lately. Saturday night was a little rough and I found myself thinking about the other three pregnancies, I was unfortunately walking home so then I was the pregnant lady crying in public. I am grateful for how active and predictable my little guy is, it is very reassuring to feel him flipping around even if it means my ribs are constantly bruised.
GTKY: I'm Canadian so it is not a holiday here. Last weekend was Victoria Day for us and I spent it celebrating my husband's birthday
35+2
What Up Next: Appointments/milestones
This Thursday will be only one month out from our due date. I don't have another appt until 36+4 but then we're weekly! Also quickly approaching the due date for my loss which is weird.
Rants/Raves/Symptoms:
I can't sleep, everything hurts, and my motivation level is zero. Luckily I'm done with most things that NEED to be accomplished pre baby so I intend to spend a lot of thus next month sitting in my pool, reading, napping, and watching trashy tv. Oh and snacking! I went grocery shopping alone yesterday and I'm pretty sure the cashier thought I was stoned based on my purchases. No shame.
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week?
Not bad, I still sink into negative thought cycles when I don't feel him move for awhile, but it's always when I'm busy and moving a lot so I know rationally that is the reason but sometimes it's hard to listen to my rational side.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans?
I'm going to have dinner with my dad, his girlfriend, and my two year old sister tonight so that should be fun!
Status Update: Weeks+ Days or age
17 days old
What Up Next: Appointments/milestones
Baby girl is gaining weight but I hate the roller coaster ride.
Rants/Raves/Symptoms: just want to add the cutest pic
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week?
pgal brain has not gone away. I'm so scared for her. I try to tell myself she is doing fine but I hate the "normal" things that go along with the preemies: not breathing for a short time, dropping heart rates, too fast heart rate, alarms, etc.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans? Sitting and watching my world.
35+4
What Up Next: Appontments/milestones
My due date is a month from today, which feels so close and so far at the same time! I wouldn't mind if he decided to come just a wee bit before that...but I'm not counting on it. Next appointment is next week, first of the weekly appointments.
Rants/Raves/Symptoms:
Just tired of feeling cumbersome and sore, but the end is in sight. Done with school/work for the summer which is wonderful, but I'm already bored to death since I can't really do anything and don't have much to do. I'm a little bummed because I found out I didn't get the part-time teaching job I was hoping to start in the fall so I don't have to go back full time to my job that's 40 min away, so now I'm trying to come up with other ideas. I'm kind of out of ideas, that was my best option.
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week?
Fine if I don't think about it and if I feel him move, definitely have moments of panic and worry but I try not to let myself dwell there.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans?
We went to my inlaws for a cookout, otherwise we did a bunch of nothing. I watched like 6 episodes of Call the Midwife..so yeah.
Status Update: 32w2d
What Up Next: OB appt on Wednesday
Rants/Raves/Symptoms: I am so tired!!! And my ankles are so swollen! I'm having a hard time sleeping too. I felt like I was a zombie during my baby shower on Saturday. Seriously counting the days at this point. My husband and I have talked a lot and we've decided I'm going to go on maternity leave 4 weeks before my due date (instead of pushing through till baby came). I think we came to the conclusion that working full-time will only get more and more miserable and we want me to be well rested and happy before baby arrives.
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week?
OMG... today my parents came over to help me put stuff away from the baby shower. My husband is working the Warriors game so he's been gone all day. My PGAL brain went crazy today because when I was in the backseat of my parents' car when we were rear ended by a huge RV at a stop light. I barely felt the hit, it just felt like I got pushed. My dad's car had minimal damage but nonetheless I freaked out. My mom suggested I call the on call doctor who happened to be my OB. My OB told me that so long as I didn't hit my belly or was in pain I would be ok. She also said to monitor movement and if I wasn't feeling movement to go into L&D. I was scared. When I was 7, my mom and I were in a car accident. She was seven months pregnant and the baby didn't make it. It was horrible. For whatever reason, that's all I could think about and I was freaking out. Luckily, baby must have known something was up because he spent all afternoon break dancing totally reassuring me that he was doing ok. I'm still a little shook up and jumpy but I feel better that baby is still moving and I'm not in any pain. I'm going to take a bath tonight.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans?
Just putting away stuff from the baby shower.
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@MamaBish Many good thoughts to you, she is such a cutie and you are so amazing! Hoping things get easier!
@winnie1122 I really like Call the Midwife but I’m definitely taking break watching it this year!
@Kellyj103 oh my goodness what a stressful situation! Of course it makes total sense that it’s been hard to freak out, especially with what happened to our mom… So glad to hear baby was active and you’re not feeling any pain… A bath sounds like an excellent idea!
Status Update: 35w2d
What's Up Next: I think I might want to schedule an extra appt (see below). Otherwise no appt until 36w5d, then weekly.
RRS: Well it's been a weird weekend (all is well, no real complaints, but it was stressful...). On Saturday I went to yoga (yay self-care?) and then tried to take it easy for the rest of the day by not doing too much. It was really really warm on that day... Then on Saturday evening I started having these intense but irregular pains in my lower abdomen and I couldn't fall asleep until 4am (which never happens to me, though I know I should get used to it, but I've been lucky so far with sleep). The pain did vary in intensity - I thought it was digestive for a while, and then I finally paged the OB on call. She said she wasn't sure if they were contractions, but she asked me to drink a very large glass of water all at once and call back in 30min if that doesn't help. Well it actually helped and I finally fell asleep. The next morning I felt a little silly since I have read before that dehydration can cause Braxton-Hicks, but I guess I thought I was drinking enough by sipping throughout the day, and I was so tired that I didn't think of it. So anyway that was a bit of a wake-up call that things are getting real. I've been drinking massive amounts of water and slept really well last night (yay). Yesterday DH went into massive nesting and preparing mode so we have our hospital bag packed (I think the whole thing freaked him out more than me). Anyway, things are good, but I might call and schedule an extra appt this week... I was also going to rant about my parents who are not planning on visiting us until 1month post delivery but I'll save it for next time.
PGAL aspect: The stress of the past few days did not help, but baby kept moving lots so that was good.
GTKY: No real Memorial Day celebrations; I spent half of the day working (to try to be ready asap to be on leave without leaving too many loose ends!). But I also did spend the other half hanging out with friends who are moving out of town soon, which was nice, and also having dinner with my mother in law (yay for home cooked meals).
What Up Next: Appontments/milestones: Appt next week then on to weekly appointments.
Rants/Raves/Symptoms: I was told at my apt last week that I have gained too much weight. The max is "35" and I have gained 50 and of course will continue to gain as she grows. She has taken into consideration my swelling so she didn't harp on me too too much which was nice I know some doctors can be over the top. I am not too upset about it I get it, I mean it has physically taken a toll on my body. My legs hurt and its getting harder to get around. Pre pregnancy I was 123 I am 5'5" and I am hitting 170 now. I need to lay off the ice cream every night in all honesty. Swollen feet and ankles are here to stay until the baby gets here I think. However, after a 3 day weekend at home my feet were pretty back to normal. Now that I am back at work I know they will swell up like balloons in no time. Having some hip/pelvic/groin discomforts also that started over the weekend.
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week? We finished our nursery this week and I have to say it has kind of helped with the PGAL brain a bit, just a bit. I have found myself sitting in the recliner just thinking about our little girl and how life is going to change and be. I am trying to stay positive about it all. We also did the 3D/4D ultrasound this weekend and were able to see her beautiful face and I just can't wait to meet her wish I could fast-forward time and make it be July 27th already. I have also been having dreams! Lots of them. Last night it was I was at the hospital and delivered her and the night before kind of the same thing but I was breastfeeding her. I am thankful at the moment for dreams like that.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans? We worked on the nursery and relaxed the 3 day weekend came and left quick!
Me: 31 & Husband: 40
Married: November 2014
Stafus Update: 32+2
What Up Next: Appontments/milestones: Had an OB check-up this morning and will be seen again in 2 weeks (they do 2 week appointments through 36 weeks and then go to once a week from 37 on)
Rants/Raves/Symptoms: The heat really killed me this weekend. I'm sore and swollen and it's hard to get around. I had a crying fit this morning because DH has to work until 8pm almost every night this week and the only thing that makes me feel better is being with him. We did a ton a yard sale-ing this weekend, so I'm trying to focus on a project each night (laundry, cleaning stuff up, etc) to pass the time until he gets home. He also works for a pool company and they have a few display pools (indoor and outdoor) set up. He's going to ask his boss if we/I can use them at night after hours which would be so amazing. It's a small family owned company, so I'm pretty sure they will say yes.
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week? It's been OK. He's been pretty active and the doctor this morning was really pleased with his heartbeat and how responsive he seems to be to the environment (like my voice and the Doppler wand). I still get nervous if it's been awhile since I've felt him though.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans? Sunday we went to the beach in NH to visit my family. It was cloudy and cold, but the freezing ocean was SO soothing to my swollen toes. Saturday and Monday we went around to yard sales. Got almost all the clothes we'll need through 6 months at one house which was awesome, plus blankets and burp clothes. Other odds and ends at places like a vibrating seat, high chair and a netted tent thing that will be perfect for the beach or hanging out in the backyard this year and next year
Married: October 2014
TTC #1 since September 2015
What's up next: next midwife appt is on the 10th. I have all my supplies ordered for my home birth kit eek. Next appointment we will set the final 2 week one and at that time she will do our home visit, meet my mom and son who will be there during delivery and check out where we will set up the birthing tub. It's all starting to get real.
R/R/S: just general blah feeling. Finally got the insomnia under control thanks to a calcium/magnesium drink before bed each night. I just feel huge and it makes it hard to get stuff done. Oh and heartburn. Oy the heartburn. On the rave note... Nursery is set up and cleaned!!!!! That project in and of itself took a huge weight off. My mom came and helped me organize clothes and put them away. Then I spent the rest of Saturday cleaning and setting things up. Also redid the boys bathroom and it's nice and bright and more suited for boys than the guest bath that was very feminine.
Add in: while i think nesting helped this weekend in general, there were times when my mind would go to that icky place and think omg what if something happens and he never gets to come home to this room or wear these tiny clothes. I would have to stop myself, get up and eat a piece of fruit and get him moving to ease my mind. I hate that.
GTKY: we spent the entire day in the pool and BBQing. It was heaven.
Stafus Update: Weeks+ Days or age: 34+6
What Up Next: Appontments/milestones?: I have my 1st weekly appointment Thursday! ( I cannot believe it's getting so close ) They will do my strep -b test and start cerv checks. Also having our baby bbq this weekend and I'm very excited!
Rants/Raves/Symptoms: It sucks trying to get out of the floor now! LOL! Nothing is really new, mostly same ole same ole. I'm trying really hard to let things go that I really just shouldn't be doing or just over doing it period. Some people it seems have just given everything over to their spouses and I just can't let go of the guilt of doing that.
Add in question: How is everyone doing with the PGAL aspect this week? I honestly still can't believe we've made it this far! I still expect something bad to happen even now. Like they do a random ultrasound and find a mole and then do more tests to see that it's spread and that I'm going to have to go through chemo. I know that finding something like that this late is highly unlikely but having a previous molar pregnancy to begin with is highly unlikely. So I'm still waiting for the ball to drop so to speak.
GTKY: Memorial Day plans? We had a cookout at my moms on Sunday and the rest of the weekend we didn't do anything. It was sonderful.
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