I was a part of the December 2016 birth club but last night it started, and now here I am.
I found out I was pregnant on April 1st, I was scared because I miscarried at 5 weeks the last time, and 4 weeks a previous time. I had my first ultrasound on April 14th and It went great. I was 6w4d and a perfect heartbeat of 138. I was so happy. I was doing everything I could to be careful not to do anything to lose this one. Then last night, I saw spotting. It was red, I knew it was bad, the cramps were there and I just knew it. I went to the ob this morning, I measured exactly where I should have. The baby measured 8w2d. But no heartbeat. The lady said omg wow, it must of just happened. It broke my heart. I not only lost my lil baby, that looked so perfect on the screen, just like all the pics ive seen, lil hand and feet nubs, lil head, and chubby looking middle. It looked like an actual baby instead of the 6w blob. It hurt my heart.
I dont want to face it. Im trying to handle it natural like my others but I had some complications last time. I had blood clots last time, i had to go to the er to remove them, they were so painful. If it hasnt progressed by morning I will schedule a d&c.
Sorry for the long post, but Im an emotional mess. Im so scared Ill never have a healthy baby. I will be getting tests to see what is causing the problems but until then, im left wondering. Thanks for letting me get my feelings out. I just need support.