This week sucks.
Monday I got an email from my pharmacy (shoppers drug mart) saying "you're 8 months now!" I signed up for their points program for expecting mothers way back when and I am positive that I opted out shortly after my MC. Yet they still emailed me. Thanks for the reminder.
Today in the mail I got coupons for formula??? I don't even remember signing up for those (I didn't even plan to use formula..)Awesome.
Oh and I can't talk to DH about it because last time I did his response was "you're still going on about that?" Ummmm. Yes, yes I am... He realized why what he said was hurtful and tried to reframe his question but the damage was already done. I get that our experiences are different, but I feel like I don't have his support anymore with my grief.
And to top it all off, work has been so stressful the last few weeks. It feels like I can't catch a break. FML
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Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
Re: Tough TTCAL Week
Edit - I had a tough reminder on FB today - my BIL posted a random photo of a child in a squirtle costume. We had nicknamed our little one Squirtle and I'd been looking at that photo while pregnant thinking how cute it would be for Halloween... Different, but painful reminder
Me: 33 & DH: 33
Married: 07/2006
TTC: 10/2015
BFP #1: 11/2015, MC 12/2015 (7 weeks)
BFP #2: 06/2016, EDD 2/15/2017
I hope you and your DH can find a way to communicate about this because he really needs to stand by you and hold you up through moments like this. You deserve that.
I sent a few angry emails myself after I kept unsubscribing daily to one and it never took. I think I also blasted Pinterest for suggested pins that were insensitive (I have to use Pinterest for my website gah). They disappeared the next day and I haven't seen a single one about babies/children since.
I hope you get some time for yourself to decompress and feel better soon. It's not always an uphill battle, but when it is, it sure is suffocating. Hugs to you.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
I'm glad DH realized it was a hurtful thing to say but it doesn't make it better. Hopefully he will put more thought into his comments in the future.
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
edit: clarification
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!