me 30; DH 35
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
Re: How is everyone doing? Check-in 4/17
GTKY: everything! The first buds on the trees, when my lilacs bloom, the smells, the warm rain, and especially turning off the heat and opening all the windows!!
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
I took a week from much posting but I've been lurking. I had a crazy busy 60 hour workweek last week. It was a welcome distraction from thinking about TTCAL-related stuff. Blood clotting panel came back "normal" per the OB nurse voicemail I got this week. I've never felt such mixed emotion...I kind of wanted something to be wrong so I could fix it, but on the other hand I'm happy to hear there is nothing wrong. Going to my family doc next week to check thyroid and if my TSH is good we will have the green light to try again. I did not get MTHFR testing but just decided to start methyl-folate anyway, because, why not?
Ive recently heard three separate stories about women who have had successful pregnancies after two initial losses so I'm feeling more hopeful these days. Still terrified but hopeful.
GTKY: I love finally being able to run outside again and enter races. I'm no athlete by any means but it does my soul so much good to get the fresh air and activity. I also love the smell of fresh-cut grass!
@Wishilivedinflorida I'm glad you are getting through your testing- good luck on your TSH test
AFM: I had my hysteroscopy this week and my polyp ended up being two fibroids one larger then expected and growing in an odd way as the RE explained it- it was like the fibroid was hugging my uterus. Both were removed and we will be doing an IUI with my next cycle in May. My RE told me we are free to try this month on our own. I was initially excited about being off the bench, but now that it has settled in, I'm scared about another loss. My emotions are all over the place. I also stopped BCPs the night before my procedure so I'm sure I'm hormonal u out of whack as well which is never helpful.
GTKY: I love the smells of spring and all the beautiful flowers. It reminds me of new beginnings so I'm trying to hold on to that
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
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TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
As for how I'm doing: Tuesday and Wednesday were okay as I was basically high on hydrocodone both days (my doc gave me the medication for the pain). When I didn't take any on Thursday I had a bad day. I was pretty emotional about the whole thing. I feel especially angry that my body doesn't work the way it should. I cried for a bit, had my kitty come and comfort me, and then felt better-ish. Since Friday I've felt good, and feel ready to get a move on with a new cycle. I was even able to have a full day of fun yesterday at Disneyland, so that was a big plus.
GTKY: I love being able to open the doors and windows and let the fresh air in! It also means I get to watch/hear the birds that come to feed on my balcony (I feed them so my kitty can watch them, but I also like to watch them).
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!
GTKY: What I love about spring is BASEBALL SEASON. My husband and I are big fans of the Detroit Tigers and love going to games. I also love the sense of freedom and the possibility of doing things outside again. It's very liberating.
Married: 4-25-2014
TTC: March 2015
BFP: 2-18-16
Confirmed MMC: 3-31-16
D&C: 4-2-16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI: 5/13/17-Femara and Trigger, POAS 5/27/17 BFP 5/27/17
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!
H is taking it really hard, too. He's been so supportive but he's also just so sad. We feel pretty hopeless right now.
GTKY: I love being able to get outdoors again - hiking, camping, canoeing, climbing... I hope that I can muster up the energy to do some of the things I love soon.
Married: October 2014
Began TTC: April 2015
BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17
BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
GTKY: Definitely the flowers blooming, especially since we have a house and garden now, it is always so amazing to see a bloomed flower that wasn't there the day before!
@AL_TwinCities I am sorry for the upcoming EDD, hopefully since you will be visiting your parents you can keep distracted.
@wishilivedinflorida I am with you on just being outside! I am not "athletic" but I love just walking or sitting outside in the nice weather! Good luck with your test!
@roxgibbons FX for a successful IUI in May or even on your own this month!
@AandDM2014 I am very sorry for your loss. Glad you were able to get out yesterday and enjoy the day!
@nmd9168 I know how you feel, I am still recovering from my MMC. DH does seem to be handling it better but I think he is just being strong and stoic for both of us and he hates when I get sad because he can't help. I still have my crying fits and every Tuesday I wake up knowing what week it would of been. I think it will be a long road but one we will get through. I know it is a difficult time but I hope you can have fun on your vacation next week!
@kns1988 I am very sorry for your losses, I hope this board can give you the support and comfort you need.
TTC #1: September 2015-January 2016
BFP #1: 1/25/16 - MMC Diagnosed 3/22/16
TTCAL: June 2016
BFP #2: 8/26/16 - EDD 5/9/17
Jackson born 5/6/17 at 8:36 PM - 9lbs 5oz & 21in
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
@wishilivedinflorida - I'm glad your testing turned out well, although I understand the conflicting emotions.
@roxgibbons - I'm glad your procedure went well and you have the go-ahead physically. I totally understand the fear of trying again, though.
@AandDM2014 - Disneyland sounds like a lot of fun. I'm definitely jealous of that. Isn't the HP world open now?
@nmd9168 - sorry about the insensitive comments. It always sucks. I'd recommend still going on vacation - a change of scenery and some time off feels may help.
@kns1988 - I'm so sorry it was a rough weekend. The waiting phase sucks. Hugs.
@lilylover27 - sorry about the bad doctors visit. Hopefully everything clears out on its own!
ETA: GTKY! I love the way everything smells in the spring... Flowers, leaves, earth. It's distinctive. Also, I love that we start to get sunny days more frequently. It's a nice break from the gray.
i joined this board 3 weeks ago but this is my first check-in post. I was 12weeks when I found out our baby had stopped growing at 9 1/2 weeks. I miscarried naturally two days later. I also had a blighted ovum in November.
How are you all doing this week? Any questions or anything we can help you with?
Week #2 was a good week for me. I was feeling much better emotionally. But this week I have been a mess. I'm not really a hormonal person where my mood just change in an instant but this week I have been. I'll be fine one minute and then angry at DH and then crying and then back to being fine. It's a very strange feeling and I can't control it. I feel bad for DH but I'm trying to control it.
The doctor told me to wait 3 months at my follow up before I tried again. Honestly I am furious. I don't want to wait that long. I've read so many things where it's just the doctors opinion weather it's 3 months or 1. She even said that since I was young I had time to wait and if I was older she'd have me start trying immediately. Which just makes me think there really is no reason to wait. Idk I'm conflicted.
GTKY: what do you love about spring?
i love a good breezy day and I love love flowers!!
As far as emotionally, I am doing okay. Still sad every once in awhile but haven't cried in a very long time. Just trying to look forward at this point. Being at work is harder because of my pregnant co-worker- she had maternity pictures done and she got them back today so she showed them to me. They were really nice and she looked so beautiful, it was hard to not wish it was me as well.
GTKY: what do you love about spring? Flowers of course! I love gardening and this past weekend I finally got to do some much needed yard work. My body is sore 2 days later but felt really good to be outside and put my hands in the dirt again.
@AandDM2014 Disneyland sounds like so much fun right now. Glad you got out and had a good time.
@nmd9168 I totally can relate to DH not being on the same emotional page. We encountered this as well and we are just now talking about it and processing it in the context of our relationship. I recommend keeping the lines of communication open. You'll get there. It's hard when you have the physical part to deal with also. *hugs*
@kns1988 and @AL_TwinCities I also can relate to triggers at church. Literally everything makes me sob...baptisms, babies, songs, sermons, you name it. We actually took a week off from church and it helped me a lot this week. Our church videos the sermons to watch later. I think I'll be up for it more next week.
@lilylover27 I'm sorry about the never ending MC. Hopefully you won't have too much more bleeding and no pain from the cyst. Im so sorry you have to deal with all of that.
@RiverSong15 I too hit the hangover jackpot yesterday and I only had one glass of wine at the wedding I attended. It's so sad. Any alcohol is a recipe for next day migraine guaranteed. Hope you're feeling better.
@joyful08 It seems there is a lot of variety about recommendations for waiting. Can you ask again for clarity? A lot of providers recommend a waiting time for emotional reasons and not physical. For me part of my emotional healing involves trying again, but everyone is different.
@Spartanrd4 FX for AF soon! Waiting is the worst.
Sorry if I missed anyone! Happy Monday to all! (I hate Mondays!)
We spent the rest of the day with my nieces and nephew. Honestly, as sad as I am about my miscarriage, nothing cheers me up quite like my 5 year old nephew and 3 year old niece (they are such characters), but there was a sad moment when my Mom and I were upstairs changing the baby and I commented that I really liked my SIL's changing table and my mom said "We'll get you one just like it." Which was hard cause obviously at the moment I don't need it.
GTKY: I like spring time clothes. Light layers and sundresses and cute strappy sandals. I am all about springtime wardrobe.
TTC since January 2016
BFP - 3/12/16 - MC 4/5/16
BFP - 6/11/16
It is not spring here as S hemisphere. But Autumn- either way feel like change autumn is clearing the air , of summer getting ready for winter.
TTC #1: September 2015-January 2016
BFP #1: 1/25/16 - MMC Diagnosed 3/22/16
TTCAL: June 2016
BFP #2: 8/26/16 - EDD 5/9/17
Jackson born 5/6/17 at 8:36 PM - 9lbs 5oz & 21in
Me: 38 DH: 38
Married: 12-15-2012
TTC: January 2014
IUI 12-11-2014 ... BFP: 12-24-2014 MMC: 2-17-2015 @ 12 weeks
IUI 6-1-2015 ... BFP: 6-16-2015 MC: 7-19-2015 @ 9 weeks 2 days
IUI 3-4-2016 ... BFP: 3-20-2016 MC: 5-2-2016 @ 10 weeks 3 days
I LOVE everything about spring except the not able to breathe part....
I just want this to be over. I think I could feel a little better if I wasn't still pregnant. I'm not myself at work anymore or at home. This is just really hard, and it's unfair to have both infertility and loss. I had all kinds of plans for fun things to do this summer if our last cycle ended in a BFN, and now that I can do them again I find I really don't want to.
Hopefully as more time passes I can participate more here and join your support system.
GTKY: I like sitting in the sun and getting the first freckles of the year. Preferably with a cold hard cider and baseball on the radio
LPD diagnosis 9/15
Femara + TI #1: 12/15 - 1/16 = BFN
Femara + Ovidrel + TI #2: 1/16 - 2/16 = BFN
Femara + Ovidrel + TI #3: 2/16 - 3/16 = BFP (Squish) 3/18/16, no growth/HB 4/12/16, MC on 5/3/16
Taking a break from trying to focus on graduate school!
TTC #1: September 2015-January 2016
BFP #1: 1/25/16 - MMC Diagnosed 3/22/16
TTCAL: June 2016
BFP #2: 8/26/16 - EDD 5/9/17
Jackson born 5/6/17 at 8:36 PM - 9lbs 5oz & 21in
@CRJones1968 and @MrsDepo, I'm so sorry for your losses and that you find yourselves here. I hope you find comfort and support on this board.
@Cubslove12, I'm glad you found closure in the genetic testing.
I need to vent this morning... We just got a letter from my insurance company last night. They aren't covering anything from the specialized ultrasound place. The first bill will be $350 and my OB had me go there twice. So on top of dealing with recurrent loss, we have to either fork over $700 for the pleasure of seeing a blighted ovum in high definition twice , or go through the appeal process with my insurance. I effing hate my insurance company - they are worthless. I'm so stressed about finances and how we're going to be able to afford RPL testing since my insurance covers zip, zero, and zilch related to IF (not even testing). It shouldn't be this hard to have a baby.
On top of that, I found out last night that my MIL told my BIL about our MCs, after we specifically asked her not to tell anyone. She flat out denied it to H, even after he confronted her about overhearing her conversation on the phone. To top it off, H didn't tell me about it because he didn't want to upset me - I heard about it from an offhand comment our friend made at the wedding this weekend. She says she didn't tell anyone else, but I'm skeptical. I logged onto Facebook yesterday to see if I had any messages from random members of H's family and that was just a horrible horrible idea. So many pregnancy announcements and baby photos.
TTC #1: September 2015-January 2016
BFP #1: 1/25/16 - MMC Diagnosed 3/22/16
TTCAL: June 2016
BFP #2: 8/26/16 - EDD 5/9/17
Jackson born 5/6/17 at 8:36 PM - 9lbs 5oz & 21in
As for today, I'm pretty sure another co worker is KU. Not confirmed but I've had my suspicions the last couple weeks. I knew she started trying a couple months after me so figured it was just a matter of time. I'm going to the gym tonight and work out my frustrations.
I'm doing okay today. It's been a week since my D&C. I've had just a few moments of sadness and anger, and talking to DH about how all I want is a fucking baby and I can't have one and that it pisses me off. I also found out that my fertility clinic called me at like 6:15 when I was taking out the trash, and didn't leave a message. I thought they all went home at 5, so wasn't expecting to hear from them that late. Hopefully they'll call back tomorrow morning and we can discuss our next steps.
So I know this might be weird, but I'm a curious person by nature: while I was pregnant I had basically no desire to have sex with DH (we usually do it 5-6 times a week but were down to like once or twice a week), but after we got home from the D&C I totally wanted to have sex with him, and have wanted to every day since (though we aren't allowed until next Tuesday). Anyone else experience that?
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR.
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days
Summer 2016 LFAF awards:
Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:
GTKY: what do you love about spring? I'm in Texas so i just love that its not 100+ degrees for a little bit!
@al_twincities I'm so sorry for the upcoming EDD. It's special, and hurtful. *hugs* I'm looking into that book as well and I have my first ever lilac bush here outside our bedroom window. It's in bloom and smells heavenly.
@mrsdepo, @kns1988, @bluebutterflies, @CRJones1978 I'm so sorry you're going through this. The limbo and waiting for physical closure was the hardest for me. I hope the limbo is over for you soon. (Same, @lilylover27!!)
I am 3 weeks out from my loss at 6+2 and back into TTC per my midwife's recommendation. My hcg last week was 40, this week 12.5, and she wants one more draw next week, which honestly I want to refuse. I'm doing ok most days, but being back in her office post-loss was really hard, as was going back to the bible study where I literally got the phone call. I feel like I can hold it together talking/thinking about it to myself and people who already know, but I can't hold it together with strangers I haven't yet acknowledged the loss or cried with, if that makes any sense. I'm in prime new-girl-friend-making season right now and I'm just longing for all of my familiar faces.
I had an impromptu consult with an acupuncturist yesterday who recommended that I do a few manual lymphatic drainage massages, followed by a few rounds of acupuncture and maybe reflexology massage. My body is healing, but I definitely feel like I could use some extra help.
GTKY: All manner of being outside on the warm days and it not being an inconvenience or seriously uncomfortable and so you just linger...outside...
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
*siggy warning*
ttc#1 . jul 2015
mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP! . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017
I hope everyone is feeling just a bit better on this lovely spring Friday!
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!
I'm doing ok regarding coping with the loss, but I'm having a hard time waiting for my body to return to normal. My MMC was found at my first OB appointment at almost 10 weeks. It was a blighted ovum that never progressed past 6 weeks. I decided to take cytotec to get things moving (it felt better to have some control over the situation). My OB and I thought that the cytotec worked, but I bled for 3 weeks straight. Then I had some awful cramping and crazy bleeding, then finally passed the sac. So now I'm at 3.5 weeks of steady bleeding and it's getting very depressing. I know that I'll feel better once the bleeding stops and I don't have the constant reminder about my loss.
Hugs to everyone! Hope you have a great weekend!
MMC 3.30.16
https://www.bravotv.com/million-dollar-listing-new-york/season-5/blogs/fredrik-eklund/fredrik-eklund-it-hit-me-so-hard-i
Looks like I am joining this group again. Had another RE follow-up today and there was almost no growth since last week which was already measuring almost a week behind. I go back Sunday to confirm then D&E for genetic testing on Monday.
This is is my third consecutive loss where development stopped in week 6 with a HB seen. It's really sad but so far this time hurts less than the last one. I just knew this one wasn't going to be any different. Things haven't been "normal" from the onset. All my RPL tests have come back normal but my other losses didn't have genetic testing so hopefully there will be some data to help future plans. I know there is no guarantee.
At this point I just want to get the procedure behind me and start healing & planning for what next.
GTKY: Relaxing on the deck & grilling. More hours of daylight.
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
*siggy warning*
ttc#1 . jul 2015
mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP! . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!