hi ladies, just needing some support. Going through my third miscarriage. It sure doesn't get any easier. I feel so stupid for allowing myself hope that this would be the one to stick. My heart is broken.
I am so sorry for your loss. As the other ladies have said, there is a great group of supportive women on this board who have all been through really tough times as well. There is always an ear to listen. I'm sure you are beyond heartbroken. Take care of yourself!
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married 2010 TTC since Nov. 2015 BFP#1: 2/8/16 MC: 3/19/16 BFP#2: 9/3/16 EDD: 5/17/17
So sorry for your loss. Don't give up hope. Be kind to yourself.
Me: 31 DH: 32 Married April 2014 TTC since December 2015 1st BFP: February 8, 2016; MMC at 7 weeks, 3 days; Discovered at 10 weeks; D&C March 25 2nd BFP: June 20, 2016; CP June 22, 2016 3rd BFP: August 13, 2016!! Fingers crossed!!
I am so sorry. It does not get easier, you're right about that. But, hope is never a bad thing, so please don't feel stupid for having hope. I get where you're coming from.... give yourself time to grieve, it all sucks so much. We are here.
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
I'm so sorry for your loss! Every loss brings a fresh hurt, give yourself time to mourn. I think it takes a really strong person, not a stupid one, to allow fresh hope with a new pregnancy after loss. It's fine to have loved your baby, no matter how long you were together. Sending lots of love and support your way!
I am so sorry for your loss. I am going through my first loss and just wanted to echo @housewifehobbyist's words (& thank you because your words to OP are helping me, too). Hugs to you, OP.
me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
*siggy warning*
ttc#1 . jul 2015
mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016 BFP! . jan 2017 DD . oct 2017
I'm so sorry, I don't think you should feel stupid. I believe you would feel worse if you anticipated it to fail and it did. We all thought at one point ours would also stick, you're not the only one and I'm hoping you will get your rainbow baby.
@LCRbelle I felt stupid as well after my miscarriage, for not thinking it could happen to me. I wasn't feeling invincible...I just never thought of it happening. My point is...I get it. I know how you're feeling. And I know these are just words and can't stop or get rid of your feeling, but please don't feel stupid for being positive and hopeful about your pregnancy. I'll try to take my own advice too.
Thank y'all for all the kind words. I hate that y'all being in this room means you've gone through the same thing but it helps to not make me feel so alone. My DH just doesn't get it. Nobody around me in my life has gone through this and it's just so hard. Even the ladies at my doctor were very insensitive.
@LCRbelle I'm late to this because I've taken a break from TB, but just wanted to extend my sympathies to you. I can't imagine the pain associated with a third loss. I know two has been absolutely devastating to me. I'm sorry you haven't encountered very supportive people around you. Hopefully you find some encouragement and support here.
Re: Another miscarriage
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
Married 2010
TTC since Nov. 2015
BFP#1: 2/8/16
MC: 3/19/16
BFP#2: 9/3/16 EDD: 5/17/17
mommy to the cutest rescue mutt ever.
my chart
Married April 2014
TTC since December 2015
1st BFP: February 8, 2016; MMC at 7 weeks, 3 days; Discovered at 10 weeks; D&C March 25
2nd BFP: June 20, 2016; CP June 22, 2016
3rd BFP: August 13, 2016!! Fingers crossed!!
TTC #1: September 2015-January 2016
BFP #1: 1/25/16 - MMC Diagnosed 3/22/16
TTCAL: June 2016
BFP #2: 8/26/16 - EDD 5/9/17
Jackson born 5/6/17 at 8:36 PM - 9lbs 5oz & 21in
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL! E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
*siggy warning*
ttc#1 . jul 2015
mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP! . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017
I felt stupid as well after my miscarriage, for not thinking it could happen to me. I wasn't feeling invincible...I just never thought of it happening. My point is...I get it. I know how you're feeling. And I know these are just words and can't stop or get rid of your feeling, but please don't feel stupid for being positive and hopeful about your pregnancy. I'll try to take my own advice too.
Thinking of you and everyone else on this board.