Introduction

Hello everyone.  I have been lurking here for a couple of days and decided to introduce myself.  I was at 10 weeks and 1 day this past Friday (March 25) when I found out I had suffered a missed miscarriage around 7 weeks and 2ish days.  Back at my 8 week ultrasound, the baby was measuring around 7 weeks and 1 day, but the technician and a nurse at my OB practice assured me that it was likely that I ovulated later than I thought and the growth would catch up.  The heartbeat was strong at 150 that day, and they said everything looked fine.  Over the next couple of weeks, I noticed that my symptoms started subsiding, but despite my worries, I convinced myself that I wasn't feeling as much nausea or boob soreness because I was getting closer to the end of the first trimester.  The only thing I really continued to have was extreme fatigue.  On Friday morning as I was getting ready for work, I noticed some light brown spotting when I wiped.  I went to the doctor, and after she couldn't find a heartbeat on a Doppler or on what she referred to as an "ancient" ultrasound machine in their office, she sent be to radiology for an internal ultrasound.  In her office she said that she may just have trouble finding it because of the old machine, or because of the dates being a little off, but I knew.  We went for the internal scan (thankfully my husband was able to meet me at that point), and we found out the baby had stopped growing around 7 weeks, 2 days (or so) and there was no heartbeat.  We went back to the doctor's office to talk options, and decided to go with a D&C that she was able to schedule that afternoon.  That was the hardest part I think...knowing it had happened weeks ago and my body had not recognized it for some reason.  The rest of the day was a blur, but the procedure went fine.  Lots of pain afterwards (only because I initially refused any narcotic pain meds, but quickly changed my mind after waking up from the anesthesia), but within a couple of hours I felt fine physically.  Some bleeding that night into the next day, and only spotting since then.  Emotionally, though, my husband and I are a mess.  We haven't been trying for long, but this was our first pregnancy and it's just so hard to believe.  We are looking forward to next month when we can start trying again, but still having trouble coming to terms with this loss.  I know time will help, though, and I look forward to participating in this board to get through it and to hopefully provide support to others going through a similar loss.