Intro after chemical first pregnancy

leilaquinn · March 2016

Hi, I am here after joining the November due date board, my EDD would have been 11/5/16 if my O date was correct. My husband and I have been together for 9 years, married for 6, and TTC for about 7 months. I am 33, and he is 47, this was the first pregnancy for both of us. My tests got darker over 5 days and then suddenly started getting lighter. I have had a very rough week physically, extremely heavy bleeding and severe cramping, which is finally subsiding. I am struggling, I was just short of 5 weeks, and I feel guilt about how lost I am. I know I am lucky to know we can get pregnant, I know losses this early are very common, but I am just so fucking sad. We are going to try again right away, I am trying to feel positive and look forward but it's hard. My best friend from early childhood who is truly a sister to me is pregnant after a long struggle and IVF, and while my happiness about that couldn't be diminished by anything, I am also so sad that we are not pregnant together anymore. I have a great support system, and a squishy rescue pit bull named Albert to cuddle while I heal, I look forward to getting to know you all but I hope we get to move on soon.

queenklau · March 2016

So sorry to hear about your loss. Welcome to this forum, there are some wonderful ladies here. Let's try to get through this journey together.

cooaladoll · March 2016

Very sorry for your loss. Glad to hear you have a good support system, sympathetic SO and cuddly fur baby to help you. I hope we can help comfort you through this difficult time as well.

MooFish2364 · March 2016

@leilaquinn I'm so sorry for your loss. But I'm super greatful that people take in sweet little pitties and give them good homes! They are amazing dogs.

penelope4612 · March 2016

Sorry to hear about your loss. Welcome and I hope your stay is short.

catiecatp · March 2016

I'm sorry for your loss - and glad your squishy pup is a source of comfort - I know my kitties are amazing at comforting me when I need it

shae86 · March 2016

I am so sorry for your loss. It doesn't matter what stage you were, once you see that positive test, it becomes a part of you.

I was also pregnant at the same time as my best friend/neighbor. We were only one week apart. My pregnancy ended, and hers has continued. I am so incredibly happy for her and grateful that she's had no problems so far. And yet, I am so sad for myself. It's a very difficult situation, and I feel your pain.

megsbrock · March 2016

No matter how early a loss is a devastating loss. I am so sorry. My second loss was very early like yours and the pain was just as real.

I'm sorry you have to watch your best friend's pregnancy go on without you. It is hard. My first pregnancy I would have been due in Dec 2015. It wasn't until I got pregnant that time did I start to enjoy the fact that I would have a 2015 baby along with my best friend and two other good friends. When I had the miscarriage, seeing them go on to have 2015 babies stung deep and still does. I am trying to let go of it but it really bothers me that as I watch their children hit milestones I will always think of what could have been. Ugh, it sucks. Hugs.

mylittleversailles · March 2016

Hello, welcome. I'm sorry for your loss, but hopefully it's short and healing.

glamakitti · March 2016

Sorry for your loss...
Welcome to a great additional support network; I hope you find your hopefully short stay here insightful.

amberruka · March 2016

I'm sorry for your loss @leilaquinn. It's not fair at all, no matter what stage. Hope your stay here is short as well.

leilaquinn · March 2016

thank you so much for the warm welcome

BornReady · March 2016

Sorry for your loss, welcome to our little part of the world.

dpjennifer · March 2016

Sorry for your loss.

silentP · March 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss, but you are welcome here.

roper2617 · March 2016

Sorry for your loss

fivetimesnoluck · March 2016

I am sorry for your loss, but please don't add to the bad by feeling guilty over your emotions. It was a real pregnancy and all the hopes and dreams you had with it were sincere. Grieve as you need to. We are here.

Af2013nl · March 2016

So sorry for your loss. I too had similar feelings with my first loss (all 3 of mine have been around the 5 week mark). But every pregnancy is real and is a real loss. Like you, my losses were also very physically painful, as well as emotionally so. So glad you have a good support system around you. Grieve as you need to and be kind to yourself. Hope you find some peace soon.

lilyaster · March 2016

I'm so sorry. Miscarriage in any form sucks. This is a great board though.

kellybliss13 · March 2016

I am in a similar situation. I am 4 weeks 1 day today. Bloodwork today showed that I am miscarrrying and RE says bleeding should begin in 1-2 days. This is after vasectomy reversal in 2014 and 15 months TTC. This was my first pregnancy which was with my first cycle of IUI. I am 30 with no known fertility issues, husband had (it's improved!) Low motility and morphology. I'm just waiting for the bleeding to begin so we can try IUI again. I'm gutted even though the elation lasted less than a week. I had a nice loud cry on the couch and my 2 staffies came to comfort me, which turned to wrestling on me. *hugs*