Hi All, I didn't see an intro topic, so my apologies if I'm out of line posting my own. I'm dipping my toe in the baby bump board water here... I signed up a few weeks ago with lots of questions and emotions looking for support, but there was a 4 day waiting period before I could post anything. So I got discouraged and didn't bother with this for a few weeks. Today something big happened, and my questions, excitement, (and belly!) are growing, so thought I'd give this another try.
My DH is 44. I'm 43, though I certainly don't feel a day past 35.
My first pregnancy was at 37 with my XH. Totally healthy and normal. Until 6.5 months. The US suddenly showed no heartbeat, and I had a stillbirth. I didn't even know what that was. My whole world crashed. I had 3 MC (very early "chemicals") in the next year. I had test after test after test. All normal.
Fast forward a few years...My DH and I tried for a year. We did IUI, but it didn't take. More tests. All normal. Unexplained infertility. We tried for 6 more months. Nothing. So we decided to do IVF. But the doctor discovered polyps, so we had to postpone. I was pissed that with all those tests, this check was never done! So, I had the polyps removed. We tried one more month to give my new smooth uterine lining a test drive, but no luck. I turned 43 the next month, so I said, that's it, time for IVF!
We had 7 eggs retrieved. 5 fertilized. 4 embryos made it to day 3. We transferred all 4 based on the doctor's recommendation for my age and OB history. It worked!!!! We were so excited to get a positive beta! But we've been cautiously awaiting the first US...
Today, we went in for the US at 6w5d. It was such a crazy mix of emotions!!! We were quite relieved to not see 4 or even 3 sacs, yet we were really sad not to see twins. AND we were elated to see our one healthy sized little bean with a strong heartbeat!!!!!!
So, is this normal--all of this "cautious excitement" and all of these complex and competing feelings?! How do you let yourself fully sink into the excitement and joy?