FTM and I'm just feeling really overwhelmed lately. Boyfriend works 12 hour swing shift at night so when he isn't at work he's sleeping during the day. As well as going to the gym every day leaving me home alone with LO a good 80% of the time. He feeds him once a day after me asking him for help and the rest solely falls on me. And though I know that's usually how it goes with dads and newborns, I can't help but feel envious. Envious that he gets to leave the house without having to worry about the baby and that he gets to work out when I'm the one who needs to lose the 60 pounds I gained during pregnancy. Also frustrated that even when he is home and willing to help that he has no clue what to do to soothe LO when he's upset and has to ask me what he wants or needs. And I'm pretty sure I've got a colic baby so that's not helping either. Running on four hours of sleep and just exhausted.