Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

Intro- I have really been trying not to...

Jolenef07Jolenef07 member
edited March 2016 in Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
I've been trying like hell not to post on this board. But, I'm a mess and it can't get worse,  right? I had a loss at 7.5 weeks in December after my first IUI. Had a D&C and did my best to heal. On my next IUI that I tried ( February) we got lucky again. Sadly, I just found out Thursdsay at 7 weeks there was no heartbeat and an enlarged yolk sac. I just turned 38. I feel like it's a cruel joke that I have gotten pregnant so quickly, yet they don't seem to stick. I feel about 100 times more down and hopeless this go round. I guess I'm just hoping to be around some people that understand how I feel and maybe even have some helpful advice. Did I mention that I have not changed out of my pjs today or left the house? 

Re: Intro- I have really been trying not to...

  • I am so sorry for both of your losses. I didn't get out of pajamas for 5 days after mine. There is no judgement here. Only acceptance of whatever it takes to get you through the day. We are here for any advice you may need 
    Me: 30     DH: 31
    Married: 11.12.11
    TTC: Nov 2015
    BFP #1: 1.22.16                 MMC: 2.29.16 ( tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX)
    D&C: 3.2.16
    BFP #2: 4.14.16                 CP: 4.17.16
    BFP #3: 6.10.2016             CP: 6.17.2016
    RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
    Chromosome karyotype- Normal both me and DH
    Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
    Clomid + TI Cycle #1: pending  8.15.16
    Fur mom to 2 sled masters: an Alaskan malamute and a malamute wolf hybrid 
    half marathon running, surgery loving trauma hand and reconstructive plastic surgery PA-C
    PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006

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  • Goodness I'm so sorry. 

    Cruel effing joke indeed. 

    Helpful advice is that time heals somehow. I got pregnant and lost a baby in November, got pregnant immediately after (just like you) and lost my rainbow. 

    I started feeling more hopeful after my period came back and I felt like fertility was returning. (Of course, it still hurts like hell every day, and there are lots of random tears)

    Mega internet hugs for you. 
  • I am truly so sorry for your losses. I know exactly how you feel. I, too, just had a second miscarriage and feel like it's all a cruel joke. I learned the first time that you never, ever forget, you just learn to live with the pain. Allow yourself to feel whatever you're feeling. There is no right timeline for grief. Just know it does get easier. I'm honestly not at that part yet, but I know I will get there eventually. Sending you hugs and positive thoughts!
  • Thank you for all the support ladies! Just hearing that people get this makes it a bit better. 
  • I'm sorry for your loss @Jolenef07 .....we are here for you!
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