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New Bumpie Alert !!!BFN'S & BFP'S mentioned

CooCoo4UCooCoo4U member
edited March 2016 in Infertility
Hello everyone B)
That was a long wait but I'm finally here. I'm very thankful to have found people who share in the same struggle that my husband and I have been battling for three years. I wanted to thank all of u for sharing ur heartfelt experiences they've definitely enlightened me as I've been having a rough time.
Just a lil background on myself im 38 dh is as well we've been struggling with infertility for three years now. So I hope I'm posting in the right place.
I've done several (3 ) rounds of clomid via gyno....it was brutal and I ddnt have any supervision.Dh has low motility 25% with a high count.
After several appointments, lots of bw and one painful ( for me ) hsg.. my issue ..per the nurse is age. Apparently I'm old and so are my eggs. I was placed on femara, and a hcg injection in preparation  for my first iui i had two follicles 22.5 and 18. 
After the sperm wash my Dh motility went from 25% to 95%.....count of 68 million which decreased to 52 million post wash. So I'm in the dreaded tww...and now I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so emotional and doubtful. I absolutely  love the positive thoughts/advice given on these boards!! I'm nauseous on and off... and still feeling lil cramps here and there..but I keep telling myself not to think too much into it.... the hcg shot my be causing these symptoms.... idk
Thanks in advance for any and all advice, I'm down but not out I just hope the positivity from everyone here is contagious. ....I need it  <3


Re: New Bumpie Alert !!!BFN'S &amp;amp; BFP'S mentioned

  • @CooCoo4U  welcome, and best of luck to you and your husband as you continue on this journey. I hope your stay is short!
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  • Hello  @em01092 and 
    Thanks so much !!! I'm hoping to read lots of success stories for all of us very soon
  • Welcome! Prayers for you!
    Me:  29  DH:  32
    Together since January 23, 2013
    Married March 22, 2014
    TTC #1 since August 2015
    First RE meeting February 2, 2016; tests normal for both of us
    Clomid round #4 of 150 mg followed by
    First Ovidrel trigger shot February 10, 2016
    First IUI February 12, 2016 Negative
    Started Letrozole 5mg round #1 February 23
    Began additional Letrozole 5mg + Dexamethasone 1 mg March 8
    Ovidrel trigger shot March 16
    IUI #2 March 18 with progesterone suppositories beginning March 19
    Positive HPT April 2 Praise God!!! :)
    Estimated Due Date: December 8

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  • srh18srh18 member
    Welcome @CooCoo4U Wishing you the best!! :) I'm in my TWW too. When is your beta? Are you doing anything exciting to pass the time?
  • Welcome @coocoo4u.
    The TWW is the worse, specially since our minds can trick our bodies.
    Try to do lots of fun stuff that give you a happy feeling.
    GL on your journey!

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  • @srh18...... hello!!!!!! and thanks for reaponding..I'm sorry u feel my pain ...I had my progesterone level checked yesterday. .. still no word on that... I'm not even sure where it should be in term of normal or abnormal. My Beta is scheduled for 3/22.... I should be excited.... but it's scary... I don't want to think the worst..but after so many failed attempts????? Did u do iui too @srh18? ?????????? Please share :)
  • Hiya  :)@tvh1982 !!!!!! I'm so thankful for u guys . You're right.... I often wonder if my body has been over stimulated by hormones.... My Fx..... and I'm praying for all of us...
  • Just finished my embryo transfer this morning... Officially in the tww. Gonna be a long 2 weeks! Hoping to hear lots of bfps for us all! 
    Me:28 (PCOS, DOR), DH: 32 (low morphology)
    TTC since March 2012
    2013-2014 - 6 rounds of Clomid - BFNs
    3 failed IUIs in 2015
    October 2015 - wait listed for IVF #1
    IVF #1 March 2016 - bfn, zero frosties!
    Femara cycle 1 May 2016 - POAS starting May 21st / beta testing May 25th....



  • @Mrsm00re87!!!!!! Now that's exciting.....may I ask if u did gender selection.....I read about the process.... I'm happy for u!!!! So many prayers....this is our month guys!!!!! <3
  • Hello @bbkidz B) thank you.... blessings for u too
  • @CooCoo4U no gender selection done. So mystery embryo. Thanks so much!!!! Wishing you all the best. 
    Me:28 (PCOS, DOR), DH: 32 (low morphology)
    TTC since March 2012
    2013-2014 - 6 rounds of Clomid - BFNs
    3 failed IUIs in 2015
    October 2015 - wait listed for IVF #1
    IVF #1 March 2016 - bfn, zero frosties!
    Femara cycle 1 May 2016 - POAS starting May 21st / beta testing May 25th....



  • srh18srh18 member
    @CooCoo4U My beta is 3/23! I will definitely be keeping you in my thought and prayers next Tuesday!! I tested out my trigger shot for the first time this cycle (it was totally gone five days past trigger shot, which seems super fast based on what everybody else has said) and am planning to do an early response home test over the weekend. I know it's "bad," but I like to prepare myself for the sorry no phone call on beta day. Haha. 

    I actually did my 4th TI cycle this month. If it doesn't work, we're on to iui. It's been a struggle to make that decision because I have responded really well to the clomid and am ovulating with it (I have PCOS) so my RE keeps saying that we *should* be able to get pregnant with TI. she even said that people in my situation aren't actually statistically more likely to get pregnant with iui as opposed to TI... But I feel like it's time to try something else. So I don't know. 

    All of your numbers seem really good (not that I'm an expert...I base my judgement on what I've seen others on these boards say are good, lol) so I am definitely holding out hope that this is your month!!!  Keep me updated!! Are you taking progesterone supplements? 
  • CooCoo4UCooCoo4U member
    edited March 2016
    @srh18 , you're definitely my hero! You've done well on clomid, while battling PCOS, and brave enough to take an EPT this weekend?!? You're awesome and I can't wait for great news for you.
    You're blessed to be doin TI. During the iui,  I kept staring at the little cup with pink... yep... pink solution in it. All I could think about was that could possibly be someone else's sperm....lol...with my luck who knows.
    Spoke with my Re's nurse this evening per her the initial progesterone was at a level of 16. She said that was good, but there's so many numbers for so many different tests it's hard to keep up. She also stated that I'd begin progesterone suppositories  ( ughhh) if my hcg on Tuesday is climbing. I figured I'd be taking it now, but I'm trusting them to help me beat the odds. For now, thank you for giving me something to look forward to, it's your weekend. Btw, are u having any signs, that you'd consider symptoms? 
  • srh18srh18 member
    @CooCoo4U haha I appreciate it, but I think taking the hpt is more impatience than anything else. Lol. 

    I hear you about the iui--I was actually wondering the same thing and asked my re what they do to make sure they aren't mixing things up. Haha I'm pretty sure she thought I was nuts!! I take the progesterone suppositories during my TWW and honestly they are kinda gross and inconvenient but overall not too bad. 

    we're getting closer to your beta on Tuesday!! I'm really praying it goes well for you!! The only symptoms I have is some cramping that started yesterday but I'm trying not to read too much into it...I know there are a ton of reasons I could be cramping. To be honest I make myself crazy with symptom spotting so I try to just ignore everything. Are you having any symptoms??
  • @srh18. ... I'm trying not to think about the feelings I'm having either.... I'm not sure how long the hcg injection stays in our system??? So I ddnt really know if my "symptoms /feelings" could actually be just side effects. I read that it was only 28 to 48 hours.. but who knows.
    I'm nauseous, indidgestion, moody, tired and have been feeling pulling cramps on each side..since the iui... that scared me, so I called my re and they said it was normal and possibly a good sign **shruggs** I think the only way to know is the beta of no sign of AF. We see... sending nothing but blessings and positive Bumpie cyber vibes your way.. I'm in need of a celebration  :)
  • CooCoo4U - We did genetic testing during our fresh cycle, but didn't select the gender.  In fact, the doctor didn't give the option (not sure if I would have wanted it) and selected the 2 embryos that were the best and they happened to both be girls.  **TRIGGER WARNING ** I ended up having 1 beautiful baby girl.  We are now doing a FET with my one remaining frozen embryo.  It didn't have enough cells in the biopsy for a conclusive genetic testing results ... so I know nothing this time.
  • @stranzm ....congrats on your baby girl. I really hope everything goes well with your new exciting journey. I always wanted a little girl, but my husband wouldn't do it. I'm so conflicted with the whole gender selection thing. This tww is coming to an end, nerves are rattled. I'd be very thankful for a healthy happy baby boy or GIRL
  • srh18srh18 member
    @CooCoo4U I agree--no way to know except wait. Which makes this whole process even harder!! I am praying extra hard for you as we get closer to your beta. I decided to go away this weekend with DH so no hpt until Monday. I figure that's late enough that it will probably be accurate anyways. I'm surprised how hopeful I am despite so much disappointment. 
  • @srh18,  I just peeked in for your update :)
    I'm glad your hopeful, and got a chance to get away this weekend. Being hopeful..is awesome!!! I keep begging God to let this finally be our week. One more day for you, two more for me. Nervous and hopeful too!! We're counting down...hugs <3
  • srh18srh18 member
    @CooCoo4U so I took a hpt this morning and it was negative. :( my period is due Thursday, so I'm thinking it is late enough for it to be accurate but we shall see I suppose. I'll probably take another one tomorrow and if it's negative I won't go in for my beta. Limit my needle sticks. I am still holding out for you!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hugs and good luck ❤️
  • CooCoo4UCooCoo4U member
    edited March 2016
     :(  nooooo.... I'm truly sorry @srh18...please hold out for ur beta....it's a huge difference. There's still time. I had beta drawn this morning but still no word....I'd think if it was positive...they'd all me asap....idk....guess I need to take my own advice
  • Thanks for all the kind words and positivity, but my beta was yet another BFN :(:'( 
    Tired of failing
  • @CooCoo4U - I'm so sorry about your BFN :(  Life certainly doesn't seem fair in this world.  
  • srh18srh18 member
    @CooCoo4U I'm so sorry to hear about your bfn. :( I was really hoping for some good news this month, even if it couldn't be me. I cancelled my beta for tomorrow, I just can't do any more blood draws for no reason. Just waiting for AF now so I can do iui round 1. Trying to stay positive but I agree-I'm tired of failing. I get stuck in thinking that I must have done something to deserve this...but I can't think of anything I've done that's bad enough for me to not be allowed to be a mother. I know this whole line of thinking is illogical and a slippery, negative slope, but I'm trying to understand why this is happening. I don't know. I think I'm just having a hard day. 

    Are you you doing a second round of iui? 
  • @stranzm <3 thanks so much!
  • @srh18. ..... :'(
    I'm very organized to a fault.... I'm in the same boat, I just don't get it??? And I've been majorly down in the dumps this time. My husband flat out refuses to do ivf. He's not helping me (emotionally ) right now.
    My mind is all over the place and to make it worse.....AF is 2 days late.....smh.....I guess it's a side effect to taking Femara.
    Great sperm count, great follicles this time.....but still BFN...idk hw much more I can take.... I wanna give up, but then again......I dont... no one knows this....but I actually have a nursery in my home....clothes....toys..all in preparation for a baby that I may never be blessed with....it's really beating me up this week. I'm sorry,  I wish we weren't in the same boat. Hopefully, we'll fight thru this and succeed.....it's so hard to think positive right now, but what else do we have.

  • srh18srh18 member
    @CooCoo4U I also wish we weren't in the same boat. My heart is breaking for you. :( will you be giving iui another try or taking a break?

    I have also been having a really hard time this week--it doesn't help that two of my best friends are pregnant, and last night I spoke to one on the phone and she told me that she is "totally confused about how I'm not pregnant because they weren't even trying and didn't even want kids yet." She was trying to be supportive but it stung. 
  • @srh18... hope you're having a better day. No one knows what we really go through unless they've experienced the battle. Right now, I'm feeling the scars of this battle. I haven't told my family or friends. ...I don't really want their opinions bc I know they won't get it.
    I'm not sure about the 2nd iui...bc I'm still waiting for af to arrive. Idk if the femara has prevented it's arrival or if the lab made a mistake (not with my luck  :) )
    What's your next step? ?? I've heard the more iui you do the better ur chances.....shruggs...for now....I'll just read success stories and wait for more pills (to start af )and probing ..........the saga continues

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