I'm sorry - I'm really not sure where I ought to post this or even what I'm hoping to get out of posting it.
Yesterday my ticker clicked over to 6 weeks and I started bleeding. More than spotting - but not really a heavy period either. Maybe a light day.
I have abdominal pain, but it doesn't really feel uterine. If I wasn't bleeding, I'd say that my digestive disorders were flaring up. The pain started in my transverse colon - it hurt to breathe, like there wasn't room when my lungs expanded. Now it's descending colon and rectum. I have twingy crampy pain, but it's mild in comparison and I always get that when my bowels flare up.
I want a drink. I want to not be able to drink. Lying down seems to slow the bleeding, but I don't know if it makes a material difference. I can't get warm, no matter how many hot drinks I have or how many blankets I wrap myself up in.
I don't know how to live in this moment. I just don't.
Re: Loss? (probably needs a TW)
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I'm just on an emotional tilt-a-whirl today.
Thanks for reminding me that I should have some answers then.