What a weekend. Went in for my regular OB appt on Friday afternoon, should have been 13 weeks. Doc could not find heartbeat with Doppler. I somehow did not panic as she left the room to get the ultrasound machine. Ultrasound showed baby but she could not find a heartbeat. She measured the fetus and I saw 12 week 2 day pop up and I knew then it was over. She brought in a 2nd doctor to confirm and even did transvag to really make sure. Nothing. I lost it. Luckily my husband was with me. I could tell my OB was just as sad as we are - she got us through a difficult pregnancy 2 years ago. I'm now scheduled for a D and C tomorrow. I'm happy to get the pregnancy done at this point. I'm still having symptoms and look pregnant (3rd pregnancy so I've been in maternity clothes a few weeks).
Luckily, my work has been understanding and I'm taking the week OFF. As a college professor at the end of winter quarter I thought it would be impossible but my department head has stepped up and is teaching my class this week and my colleague and I cancelled our scheduled labs for another course.
But this whole thing has just been a roller coaster from the moment I peed on a stick. The pregnancy was not exactly planned but I was ecstatic. I struggled through a rough first trimester that included morning sickness and an SCH that caused lots of spotting and bleeding. My husband is excited to try again, but I just can't imagine struggling through a first trimester again....
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned ****
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
Re: Moving here from Aug 2016 board
/loss mentioned/
TTC#1 July 2014
dx: MFI (morphology)
IUI #1 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Sept. 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #2 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Halloween 2015 ~ BFN
IUI #3 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Thanksgiving 2015 ~ BFP!!
hb 146 bpm at 7w5d
1/28/16 ~ began to say goodbye to our beautiful baby at 11w
d&c, followed by cytotec
TTCAL April 2016
IUI #4 w/Clomid + Ovidrel Apr. 2016 ~ BFN
IUI #5 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ CP
IUI#6 w/Clomid + Ovidrel ~ BFN
Wishing you peace as you navigate this sad time. xo
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
it is so nice that your colleagues are stepping up and helping you in such ways, I am glad you have their support.
as I am still waiting before TTC again I feel your fear. I am scared too. This has been so hard to handle, I could never imagine to feel this kind of sadness. But I have found a lot of support and understand on this board and I am thankful. I hope you find it useful as well.
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
The positive (as if there is one) thing about a d&c is that the pregnancy symptoms calm down fairly quickly. Morning sickness ceased almost immediately for me.
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
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TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!