OMG I can't wrap my head around this, I suspect I may have skin cancer. I very stupidly used tanning beds a few times several years ago. I did this topless and almost immediately noticed new moles around my breasts. They became odd shaped so had them checked by a dermatologist who said they were fine. This was like 3 years ago. They slowly started changing shape some more but I got sidetracked with my wedding then buying a house and getting pregnant. And now maybe due to BF they've started changing quite rapidly and some are scabbing. I googled of course and it looks just like melanoma (listed as deadliest skin cancer). I called a dermatologist office in my new area and the earliest appointment is Thurs. I don't want to tell my family to avoid worrying them unnecessarily if it's nothing. I am panicking and have to keep it to myself for two whole days. I can't help thinking how stupid I am for tanning in the first place then for not getting checked annually. I cannot even fathom not being there to watch my beautiful baby girl grow up. I'm bawling my eyes out as I type this. Anyone have any knowledge of this or just please send prayers my way. My name is Mayra.
Re: Asking for prayers please!
I need to see a dermatologist as well. I had random brown spots pop up all over my back after DD was born!!
DS#1 born 02/19/2013
It might also just be a mole and this is always the hope. I happen to be riddled with moles, constantly getting more, they change I get them checked and they're perfectly benign. Hoping for the best outcome for you.
Second, I'm not going to tell you "it might not be" or anything like that, because I just don't know. What I will tell you is this: this moment right now is probably the worst. The not knowing, going around in your mind, and worst-case-scenario-making is probably much worse than what you'll discover.
Two weeks before our girls were born, we discovered my husband had a large brain tumor. One week before they were born, he had a craniotomy to remove it. Since then we've learned it's a pretty horrible diagnosis and slightly terrifying prognosis. But I am dead serious when I say that the first few weeks of not knowing and guessing were the most terrifying weeks of my life. All I could think about was my husband not being around for his girls and losing my soul mate. But now that we know what it is, he's in treatment, and we're actively battling the tumor, nothing seems nearly as bleak.
I say all that to say this: your mind is making it worse than it is!! If it is cancer (and I pray it isn't), early detection is everything. You are doing exactly the right thing by getting checked quickly. You will make it through whatever it is and be a stronger mom on the other side.
Also, DO NOT GOOGLE!!! Google says my husband might only live another year, but all our medical indicators say that isn't true at all. So please don't Google!!!!
@candace4erich Keep strong momma, I'll be praying for your family as well.
I have several moles that looked sketchy a few years ago and they were benign. It's important to get checked though because I had one on my tush that had to be removed. It's a quick procedure. Keep us updated.
DS#1 born 02/19/2013