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pascorrapascorra member
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hi ladies,

so, after waiting for the PGD results of our second IVF cycle, the one embryo we had, had an extra chromosome - so it failed. We retrieved 18 eggs ( which is good for my age 40) and after all the tests and wait, just one again. Except that the first time we made it to the transfer stage, which turned into a chemical pregnancy. 

I have spent the last week crying and being angry, and then just feeling defeat. This week is better ( I was traveling when I got the news) because I am home and my husband has been my rock. But I know I am done. I can't think of pregnancy..shots, cycles, diets etc. I'm done. I know it can still happen naturally...but I need to move on and gain my life back. I welcome natural pregnancy with open arms...but I have to move on and not think of any of this for a while. 

I wish you ladies all the luck in the world!
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  • ChristinaV2015ChristinaV2015 member
    Oh @pascorra I'm so sorry to hear.  It's so emotional and trying for us.  I wish you nothing but the best of luck and that natural baby to come your way!
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  • AandDM2014AandDM2014 member
    Oh no. I am so sorry to hear this news. I hope that things get easier for you. There are no words to express how heartbreaking it is when a fellow infertile has to be done with their journey.
    About us:
    Me - 28, Lean PCOS
    DH - 31
    Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
    Blog: ourbinarystar.com

    FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!

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  • tvh1982tvh1982 member
    I'm sorry to read about your story and the loss of all your embryos.
    This process is so hard and emotional draining so completely understand that you are done.

    Im sending you lots of warm thoughts and GL. Take good care of yourself.


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  • 2legbaby2legbaby member
    Thinking of you and your husband @pascorra, so sorry for your loss. 
    ******TW*****
    Me 39 DH44
    Married 8/2/14
    TTC 9/14
    Dx: PCOS, blocked L fallopian tube, suspect poor egg quality
    MFI (low #, poor morphology)
    IVF #1 9/15 Failed
    IVF #2 12/15 Failed
    1st DE FET  5/16-BFN :(
    2nd DE FET 7/18-BFP :)
    8/17 Baby HR 140/min EDD 4/6/17
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  • bbkidzbbkidz member
    Praying for you, @pascorra! I cannot imagine how hard it must be!
    Me:  29  DH:  32
    Together since January 23, 2013
    Married March 22, 2014
    TTC #1 since August 2015
    First RE meeting February 2, 2016; tests normal for both of us
    Clomid round #4 of 150 mg followed by
    First Ovidrel trigger shot February 10, 2016
    First IUI February 12, 2016 Negative
    Started Letrozole 5mg round #1 February 23
    Began additional Letrozole 5mg + Dexamethasone 1 mg March 8
    Ovidrel trigger shot March 16
    IUI #2 March 18 with progesterone suppositories beginning March 19
    Positive HPT April 2 Praise God!!! :)
    Estimated Due Date: December 8

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  • vssbrmvssbrm member
    I am so sorry to read this @pascorra. My thoughts are with you and your H. Be good to yourself. Lots of prayers for for comfort for you both.
    Married May 2009, TTC since November 2012 (Together since 2006 ish - had my eyes on him since 2001)
    Me: 32 (33 in May), Him: 37 (January)

    DX: Me: High Prolactin, Possible Autoimmune Disease Issues, though RE not concerned (?)  New RE has a plan!!
           Him: Minor Varicocele, low morphology, slightly low count

    History:

    Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!!
    Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!)
    Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer. 

    3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own
    Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen
    Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016
    HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)

    Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March

    Fourth IUI -  CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - December, 2015 - BFN
    Third IUI -  CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - November, 2015 - BFN
    Second IUI - CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - September, 2015 - BFN
    Started Prolactin Medication October 15 - Levels quickly regulated to with in normal range
    First IUI - CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - August, 2015 - BFN
    After no BFPs (ever) First RE/Urologist visit in Feb 2015
    HSG w/ OB, 2014 = all clear
    Trying to conceive since November 2012
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  • laurenlalaplaurenlalap member
    I'm so sorry to hear this. Please take care of yourself. Xo
    DS#1: born Dec 29, 2013 
    TTC#2 since Sept 2014 - unexplained secondary IF
    BFP #2: 11.7.14  M/C: 11.27.14 @ 6w3days
    BFP #3: 04.19.2015 M/C 04.27.15 @ 4w3days
    BFP #4: 10.05.2015 C/P @ 3w4days
    Oct 11, 2015: Cycle 13. Starting Femara (2.5mg). HSG this cycle (all clear) - BFN
    Nov 12, 2015: Cyle 14. Femara 5mg + IUI - BFN
    Dec 10, 2015: Cycle 15. Femara 5mg + IUI #2 - BFP #5! C/P 4w4d
    Jan 10, 2016: Cycle 16. Femara 5mg + IUI #3 - BFN.
    Feb 10, 2016: Cycle 17.  No IUI or meds. Taking a break - Natural BFP Mar 5, 2016!!!! EDD Nov 16, 2016
    Moving to IVF March 2016
    Beta at 10dpo: 21, Beta at 12dpo: 98, Beta at 14dpo: 264, Beta at 16dpo: 745
    U/S 6w6d: single beautiful heartbeat of 121bpm - It's a boy!!!!
    Nov 3, 2016: Our family became complete. Welcome DS #2.
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  • oxinfreeoxinfree member
    @pascorra - I've been lurking over the last little while, checking in on you ladies, and my heart just broke a bit. I'm so saddened by this news. I'm so beyond sorry. The pain we experience when we put ourselves through all the emotional and physical turmoil of IVF, is nothing compared to walking away from it with nothing to show. To not even have the chance to transfer I'm sure has been devastating. I totally relate and support your decision to walk away. After our second failed IVF I did too. For 2 years or so. It was the best decision I ever made. I was able to get back to being me, back to focusing on mine and DH's relationship, and back to living life in general. There is so much life out there to live. I hope you are one day blessed with the family that you so desire, and wish you emotional healing in the meantime. Big hugs to you my dear. xx
    ---
    Started TTC April 2011
    Me: 32, DH: 32
    Diagnosis: Endometriosis

    • 2012 - 3 Rounds clomid - all BFN
    • 2013 - 1 Fresh IVF with 2 day 3 embryos - BFN
    • 2014 - 1 Frozen IVF with 2 day 5 embryos - BFN
    • Took a long break, continuing trying naturally
    • Feb 2016 - Biopsy = Endo, DH sperm improved from 1% to 6% morphology
    • March 2016 - Fresh IVF cycle with acupuncture & intralipids: 20 eggs retrieved (17 mature), 7 ICSI'd fertilized, 9 naturally fertilized. 16 total embryos!
    • April 8th - 2 embryos (1ICSI and 1 Natural) transferred. (7 blastocysts frozen), April 18th - Beta = BFN
    • Sept 23rd - Lupron Depot Injection for Endo control
    • Nov 15th 2016 - Started daily Lupron Injections for upcoming FET
    • Nov 22 - Baseline US/BW - Intralipid Infusion - Start Meds for FET with immune protocol
    • Dec 16th FET transfer of 3 embryos (1 - AA, 2 - BB)
    • TW below
    • Dec 22nd - first ever bfp (very faint lines FRER & cheapie)
    • Dec 27th Beta = 192, Dec 29th Beta = 379
    • EDD - Sept 5th 2017

    - - -
    I'm a YouTube vlogger who talks about Infertility, IVF and Endometriosis. Check it out here!
    Follow along at http://liv4today.blog
    Instagram @liv4todayvlog 


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  • LynnNJLynnNJ member
    @pascorra , so sorry to hear about your situation. I agree that it is easy to have this process take over your life, and life should be about more. Best of luck with everything!
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  • AmyReneeFAmyReneeF member
    @pascorra, I am so sorry to hear this.  I can relate.  I am 41 and after our last IVF attempt, all 3 embryo were abnormal after PGS.  To go through all that and have nothing to show is devastating.  Please know you are not alone.  Take care of yourself and focus on being happy and healthy.  You will have your ups and downs, I am sure.  Stay positive and look for another door to open.  hugs! 
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  • LeeeLaaaLeeeLaaa member
    I am sorry to hear this.  I hope you can recover bit by bit over time.  I am going through a similar but different situation.

    I had donner eggs we had 9 and they all failed, they all died before I could even get the genetic testing done.  We moved on and powered thru and found a new donor.  I hope you might look into donor eggs and read about how they do become a part of your body.  At a certain age we have to consider these things.  Sadly I am now having other problems not related to the donor eggs.

    I hope for you healing but look into other options for your self as well.

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