Today my worst nightmare happened. I fell with my 5 month old son in my arms. He twisted (flailed back) in my arms (has been doing this since learning to roll last week) and I tripped over a bouncy toy trying to get a better grip on him. Fell a good 3 feet onto tile floor. I managed to cradle his body in my arms but his forehead hit and he has a large bump. He only cried for a minute. I bawled hysterically for an hour. We had him checked out by his pedi (no X-rays) and I'm just supposed to watch him for a concussion over the next 24 hrs. I feel sick to my stomach. The guilt is unbearable. I know it was an accident. I know his pedi said he appears fine but ... what if. Shouldn't they have done x rays? What if he has a fractured skull or bleeding. I know I should trust the doctor but I'm so upset.
Re: Fell with baby in my arms
We are doing all the observation guidelines tonight too so I know exactly how you feel!
That said, you can't beat yourself up over an accident that was totally out of your control.
When my son was about 3 months old we went outside at my moms house and I sat down on a wicker love seat on her patio with LO in my arms. I had sat on that thing hundreds of times before and never realized how badly the bottom had worn down. The bottom on the back totally gave out and threw me backwards onto a concrete floor. I didn't even have a good grip on LO cause he was standing in my lap, my hands were just holding him under his arms. I did everything I could to basically push him face first into the cushions trying to keep him from hitting the floor. He still did, though. He cried for about 2 minutes, I cried for about 30. He was fine.
This stuff happens allll the time. We see babies as being so fragile because they're so small and needy and while we of course need to protect them, they are far more resilient than we usually realize.